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It will be as if I never existed.
His parting words as he left me in the forest, that was two days ago, now I am a wreck my heart feels like it had been torn from my body and shredded into a thousand pieces, and to top it all of by the one who I though loved me. I was lying In my room staring at the window that he used to come through I left it open always now. I was waiting for him, to come in with my favourite crooked smile. Hearing Charlie get up I quickly got out of bed ready for breakfast. I made Charlie bacon and eggs whilst I simply had cereal, Charlie was sitting in the chair, that chair was opposite to his chair, Edwards chair. My mind burned when I thought of his name. Getting up to wash the dishes as I always did I felt the tears coming, they always betrayed me! I fought against them I couldn't cry here in front of Charlie later when I am alone I can cry, ''what's wrong Bella?'' Charlie had asked worry evident in his voice. ' Is this by any chance that boy Edward's fault I if is I'll have him, I'll…" " Dad it's okay it's not…it's not Edward " I gasped and then without warning the tears came spilling out over my eyes, my breathing coming in deep rasping heaves, sinking to the floor I clutched at my chest as a hole began expanding swallowing me in blackness and despair he was gone and he wasn't coming back.
Charlie was panicking he'd never seen me loose control like this, I fought against my emotions trying In vain to reign them in, to control them. Standing up I slowly made my way up the stairs to my room, I opened the door and went to lie on my bed.
The tears ravaged me all through the dark despairing night and into the dawn.
The next morning was almost the same, I would get up when I heard Charlie and make breakfast, go to school, go to work, come home, do my homework, dinner, bed. Even the tears had become less frequent and I had pretty good control, as I would only cry once I was sure Charlie was asleep then I would cry and cry until I couldn't possibly cry anymore.
Every day at school my eyes despite me knowing he wasn't there would search for him and his family of vampires, I missed all of them, even Rosalie who I didn't get on with very well.
My friends all stood by me except for Jessica and Lauren I never really got the vibe that they were my friends anyway.
" Hey Bella wanna go see a movie or something this weekend?" it was Mike Newton he had been especially happy that he had left as Mike was always competing with him… I couldn't bring myself to think his name that would bring out the tears. " No sorry Mike I am really busy at the moment lots of work to do really sorry!" he looked really put out and sulky but I couldn't bring myself to change my mind I wasn't ready for someone else just yet.
Turning away from Mike I talked to my loyal friend Angela about an English assignment that was due very soon. Coming home I made dinner as always just as Charlie came home.
" Hey Bells how's dinner coming?"
"Fine dad we're having roast tonight okay? It won't be long!" I called busying myself with the potatoes and vegetables. Ten minutes later we were seated at the table (Edwards chair was always left vacant) we ate in silence this was nothing new though my dad was a man of few words I was much the same as him.
I went up to my room and lay down on my bed facing my window, which was always open.
Except for tonight.
Tonight the window was closed, I felt the traitorous tears spilling from my eyes why would Charlie close my window when I begged him not to I kept it open waiting for him to come through how dare he shut that out!
"CHARLIE! DID YOU SHUT MY WINDOW? " I screamed my anger and hurt was tumbling down as I yelled at my father for that one simple act.
" No Bella why would I shut your window I know how you explicitly told me not to"
" DON'T LIE TO ME WHY DID YOU SHUT IT!" I yelled and screamed I had totally lost control now everything that I had bottled up was now free and taking revenge upon my father. " Bella I swear to you that I did not shut your window!" Charlie said getting angry now himself.
Running to my room I looked at my window it was still shut.
Crying I flung myself onto my bed without bothering to get unchanged and cried myself to sleep.