What I want I can never have. Someone to hold in my arms, to love, someone to just talk to. I watch families and couples from afar everyday delighted in each other's company while I sit in the shadows hiding what I am. Agonizing pain fills my body as I contemplate ending a life to give myself a comrade, to make someone like me. A person that will stay with me in my eternal life. Days pass, years pass, I wrestle with the proposition. I think of all the people I've met. Decidedly I make up my mind, when the time comes I will make a newborn, make the victim an eternal being to stay hopefully by my side forever. Time will tell when a human will join my ranks. Decisions will be made, hearts changed, a person so close to death will be brought to a new life. One day there will be someone next to me.