Disclamer: I don't own Harry Potter or Hate that I love you.
Remus knew and hated the fact that the closest he would ever be to loving Sirius would be Stolen Kisses and hidden Sour sex.
As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No...)
Remus sighed. Sirius always apologized for the stupid stunts that he did. Remus now almost always took the blame saving Sirius. He could never stay mad at Sirius for long. He always knew what to do and say to make him give in.
But you won't let me
You upset me
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did
The forgiveness part was Sirius's and Remus's favorite part.
Whether it was sour kisses and a few cheap bottles of nicked Firewhisky or just a clumsy shag in a broom closet.
Sirius knew that and tried to make it up to Remus by telling him that he loved him. Remus knew Sirius didn't love him. Remus knew that Sirius would never be able to settle down with one person. Sirius just loved being free.
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)
Remus had tried to put a end to their secret shags and drunken kisses but he found himself unable. Even if his love was one-sided, he secretly needed physical attention from Sirius. Even if in Sirius's eyes they were just "friends with benefits".You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right
Sirius knew that Remus had it for him. He used that to his advantage, twisting and manipulating his actions.
Sirius would be off shagging a girl by day then having drunken or just plain rough sex with the submissive frail boy.
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
Remus stared out at the darkening sky. Just thinking about the Kisses that Sirius and him shared made him wobble on sight. The one true time that Sirius had taken it slow, Remus knew that he would never be able to rid himself of these feelings for the git. Sometimes Remus would love nothing more than to tell Sirius to sod off. But he knew that he couldn't. He was to deep in love.
As much I love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so.. so...
Remus would always hate the power Sirius knew that he had over him but they both knew that Remus needed the kisses and secret love making.
Remus knew and hated the fact that the closest he would ever be to loving Sirius would be Stolen Kisses and Sour sexings.
Sorry I know that absolutely sucked. I wrote it within the course of fifteen minutes. I got inspired with the song.
"HATE THAT I LOVE YOU" Rihanna feat. Ne-Yo
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