Disclaimer; Twilight is all Stephenie Meyer's, I just love the characters and borrow them for my own little drama-making

Don't let go, never give up, it's such a wonderful life! *Hurt- Wonderful Life*

Epilogue:

My name is Bella Swan, well actually it's Isabella, but I prefer the shortened version. I'm 24 years old and I live in a small town in WA, Forks. I moved here when my mom, Renée, died from cancer when I was 16. I lived with my dad until I finished college in Seattle and moved in with my boyfriend, I mean fiancé, Jacob in La Push. I've known and loved Jake since I first moved to Forks, he was kind of the only thing worth waking for up in the morning. Especially since Charlie, my dad, always worked. I guess that's how it is when you're the daughter to a small towns chief of police...

Anyway, I live in a small cottage in La Push with Jake, he inherited it from his dad when he passed away a coulpe of years ago, and I work as a waitress at the diner. I had dreams, I wanted to leave this place and move back to Phoenix, I wanted to be a writer or a teacher and definately not live in Forks. Even Seattle was better. But Jake had everything here and I didn't want to be the one dragging him away from that, especially against his will. And that feeling increased when he proposed to me the same day I moved in with him.

You have no idea how much I regret that now!

Chapter 1,

It was a slow day at the diner, thankfully since I had a killer headache, just the regulars at lunch and a couple of high school kids at dinnertime. Yet, I was beat! Must have been the headache. I couldn't wait to get home and was happy when my boss Stephenie let me go an hour early. Steph is great like that, no point in keeping me there when it's as slow as a turtle in the desert.

She's also a good boss, always helpful and nice to her employees. And I get a decent salary, never underestimate that!

I bought some dinner on my way home, I had a craving for mac' n' cheese today, and then sped my old Chevrolet Pickup Truck towards La Push and our little house. If you can call my driving speed, I'm not exactly heavy on the gas.

When I got there I found we weren't alone, Jessica's peachy little sportscar stood parked in my spot next to the garage. Jess and I went to High School together and i guess you could say that she and her fiancé Mike were close friends to us, even though I never really trust gossip girl Jess. She's nice and overly perky and she loves to gossip, about everyone and evetything. She is also pretty selfish and craves being the center of everything. I guess that's why she likes me, I'm practically her opposite. And now she probably wanted to chat away with me about some crazy person she'd sold sportswear to at work today... "Oh, great, I so don't feel like having company right now", I muttered to myself as I climbed out of the truck with grocerybag in one hand and purse in the other.

I moved slowly towards the house and tried to muster up a smile for when I got inside when I heard a noice from the back, Jess was giggling like crazy inside. I peeked and saw that our bedroom window was open slightly. That must be why it sounded so loud, I thought, shook my head and walked in the front door. I guess Jake is in a joking mood today, good, I could use a laugh right now.

The livingroom was a mess. The couch was turned from it's normal position in the corner and the blanket I used to drape over it lay in the middle of the floor. Everything from the small side table lay spread out over the floor. The photo of my mom facing down, the glass broken. I felt a shiver go through me and started towards the bedroom door. It was closed, and eerily quiet. All the noices had suddenly died out, I hadn't even noticed. I slid the door open and gasped.

At first I couldn't believe what I saw, I thought it must be a mistake. I tried to blame my eyesight, must be the headache, but slowly reality set in. And in full force at that! Because right in front of me, in MY bed, my fiancé lay naked with my so-called friend Jessica, and they were both wet with sweat. I guess I didn't need to ask what was going on...

"Jake?" I said in what I believe was a neutral tone of voice.

"Bella, Honey, you're home early! We-" Jake started, but I cut him off, "You were just trying out som new positions, right?"

"Yes, um, no, NO! I'm... we... I know what it looks like", he continued, "It's not... dammit! I don't know what to say..." The last part came out as a whisper.

I turned to Jess, "Out! Get the hell out, now!" She stared at me, then started to get up, "Bella, I'm sorry-",

"I said, OUT! Dammit bitch, are you as deaf as you are dum?" I didn't even know I could sound that menacing, I was practically growling each word. But it got my point across and Jess stumbled out with her skanky outfit in her embrace.

"So, you really think that I'd never find out? How long has this been going on?" I sat opposite of Jake by the kitchen table and stared at his rumpled hair. "And could you at least put on a t-shirt?"

He stared, dumbfounded. I don't get angry that often, and now I was truly pissed! He pulled on a t-shirt with a wounded look on his face. "Hey! Don't give me that! I'm not the one with shit up to my effing elbows!" I growled, "Now, please answer my questons."

"Look, Bella, I know I screwed up big. But I love yoy, I'll die if you leave... Please believe me, I would never deliberately hurt you!"

"You hurt me, and if that wasn't deliberate you've got some damn big issues! Now stop the crap, I don't want to hear it! Just answer my damn questions..."

"Ok... All right! I guess I didn't think about you finding out or not... And it only happened once before today, I swear! It was on Jessica and Mike's engagement party, you know when I helped her upstairs 'cause she was to drunk? Well, she wasn't that drunk... She said she just wanted to get me alone."

"Jacob, don't blame this on her! You were just as much in on it. And what about Mike, did you think about him? Since you clearly forgot me. On their engagement party, how stupid are you?" I felt sick, I couldn't believe he'd done this. I couldn't believe this was the same man who'd done everything for me to see him, want to be with him in High School. "Jake, you and Jess need to tell him about this and if you don't, I will! He's my friend to you know!" I said it with a heat I'd never felt before. "I'm going out."

I had to think, clear my mind, so I took a walk on the beach. It didn't help all that much, I still felt sick and stupid. What was I supposed to do? Forgive and forget? I couldn't do that, I'd never be able to trust him again. I felt betrayed on levels I'd never thought possible, i could'n stay, could I?

No, I had to leave, it was my only option. Having come to a decision I turned and walked back to the house. I went in and started packing down all my stuff, I had to go tonight. i didn't own very much, it didn't take long to pach all my clothes, tioletries and the few gadgets I had.

I called Charlie and told him I'd be sleeping in my old room in his house tonight, he sounded a little sceptic but didn't ask any questiones. That's why I love him so much, no awkward talks about feelings. Though I suppose I was would have to explain a little tomorrow when he realised I wouldn't go back here...

"You leaving?" Jake stood casually leaned in the doorway between livingroom and bedroom, looking like a sad puppy.

"Yeah... Oh, and you can keep the bed, I really don't want it anymore." I couldn't even think of sleeping in it now, yuck!

"But you'll come back right? You're not leaving for good? We can work through this you know, I love you."

I answered without looking up, "No, Jake, I won't come back. We can't work through this, the damage is done and it can't be repaired."

"I guess I always knew you'd leave some day, you never have loved me the way I love you..." He sounded wistful and sad, heartbroken.

"Don't you fucking blame this on me! I'm not the one who jumped in bed with your friend! You're not the one betrayed here, remember?" I took my box and my two suitcases and dragged them through the house to the front door. "Maybe I'll see you around Jake, please don't call me, and don't even think about dragging Charlie into this!...bye..." And I walked out the door, packed the car and drove away. Without looking back.

A/N Ok, kiddies? What do you think? I know it's a bit of a slow begining but I'll try to speed it up! This is my first fanfic ever so please be gentle *wink,wink* No srsly, tell me what you think, review, review, review!

Oh, And I'll try to post the next chapter within a week. XOXO