So this is my first ever Vampire Academy fanfic. I'm a bit nervous with the reviews i might get but it'd be really awesome if i got many reviews, and feedback (good or bad). I just want you all to enjoy this as much as you can, even if it may suck a bit. I'm a hugeee adrian and rose fan so, dimitri and rose fans shouldn't be reading this. LOVE YOU ALL (sorry if it was too soon.) ;) i'll be waiting for your reviews!

Life's a bitch

Chapter 1

ROSE'S POV

I couldn't stop thinking about him. I admit, now that I was with Dimitri could I really be content with my life? It was really great that I got back Dimitri and saved him, well technically his soul from the Strigoi. It was crazy now that I think about it, making Lissa charm a stake. Maybe it would've been better off if I staked Dimitri for real, which meant killing him. It would be better for me, and for the man I never could've ignored.

He is the most obnoxious, crazy, annoying, persistent, weirdest, cockiest man I know, and yet he can be the most sweetest, hilarious, lovable, hottest man I know. It's crazy how I still think of him like that, I don't know if it's too late or not, but if I could go back in the past. I'd go back to him.

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I open my eyes to see a sleeping Dimitri, how I longed to just wake up next to him, sharing the same bed. This is exactly how I imagined my life to be, everything was…. Well supposed to be perfect. Only my guilt, regret and pain brought me down. I sat up, trying not to wake up the sleeping Dimitri. I tip-toe to the bathroom, and I close the door slowly. I look up at my face, it's the first time I've seen myself look fresh, but I doubt that fresh look will last.

Today's the day I break up with Dimitri. I honestly don't know why I'm doing this. But when I look back I always see Adrian holding me closely, comforting me, always being there for me when Dimitri wasn't. In all honesty, I love Dimitri, I do, it's as if he is the only one I could possibly love. But during the time Dimitri was away, I made space in my heart for someone new. Oh how I miss his green eyes and witty comments. It's a surprise that I can love two people at the same time. I missed him so much, sometimes I would find myself wishing I could see him again, but I knew how that would turn out. He'd just ignore me.

By then, I could feel my tears falling down my cheeks, I look at myself in the mirror again, and I didn't look as fresh anymore, I looked like the opposite of fresh. I rubbed the tears away, but my eyes were puffed up. I used makeup to hide that but that didnt do any good, and I slowly open the door still not sure if Dimitri was still asleep or awake. I find him already changed, and looking at me. At that one moment, he walks over to me, and held me captive with his eyes that were filled with concern.

"What's making you cry so much?" he asked and I started crying again.

"I can't do this anymore Dimitri, I know you've told me to forget him, but I can't."

His eyes weren't full of concern anymore but hurt, I hurt him like I hurt Adrian.

"What do you want me to do now?" he pleaded to me as if I had the answer

"Dimitri, I don't know why this feeling is bubbling all of a sudden. But the whole time you were a Strigoi going on a killing rampage, Adrian was always beside me whenever I was in tears, or I was surrounded with fear," I explained hoping Dimitri would understand. I would understand if he didn't though, I've never talked about this with Dimitri, just Lissa. Her only suggestion was that I break it off with Dimitri before I did anything else.

"I love you more than anything, you know that, but I don't want to hurt the person that loved me and the one who held my heart together this whole time," I said and just waited for the response from Dimitri who stood there. When he finally looked up, I was in shock, Dimitri was giving me a small understanding yet hurting smile.
"Roza, I never knew about this but, I know Adrian was always there for you. It just pains me that I couldn't be the one to do that," he said and walked over to me. He pulled me in his arms and held me tight, "I will still love you even if you choose him." I pulled away and tiptoed to give him one soft kiss. With that, I packed my things, and moved out of the room I called home, I walked back to my room in the court. I let out a long sigh, I have a feeling that Adrian won't be easy to tell my feelings to. I couldn't help but cry once I shut the door. I just lost the man I brought back to life and broke his heart to go to the man that healed my broken self. I needed Lissa. I needed someone, and I was sure as hell that I wouldn't go to Christian, he'd burn me down, I couldn't possibly ask Eddie because he would be as confused as me. I ran to Lissa's room, without looking at anyone I passed by. It was daylight so I'd probably be greeted with a drowsy Lissa. I knocked like a crazy lady, she finally opened the door looking like a grouch, until she saw what I looked like. I sat down on an armed chair, when she offered me a cup of cocoa I started crying even more.

"What have I done Lissa?" I asked looking up at her, she looks lost, and her eyes held concern.

"I don't know unless you tell me Rose," she answers while rubbing my back

"I broke up…. with…. Dimitri," I said sobbing between each word. She gasped and looked at me clearly worried and surprised, "I'm shocked Rose, but is it because of who I think it is?"

I give her a small nod and put my hand into my hands just staring at the floor, "Sorry I woke you up Liss. It must be a bit early for you."

"No no it's fine. I was struggling in sleep anyway," she brushed it off and just then the door opened revealing Christian who looked as dead as me.

"If it isn't my dear dear Rosie," smirked Christian who was about to say another comment but saw my face and immediately shut up. He glanced at Lissa who shook her head, and glared at him.

"If it's about Adrian, you better shut up about it because he's coming to Lissa's room," informs Christian and as if on cue the door opens to show a drunk man.

"It's my cue to leave now," I said and brushed past Adrian who didn't bother looking at me, and continued on saying, "HELLO LISSA, AND MY BOY CHRISTIAN."

Even in his drunk state he hated me. Maybe there's nothing to be fixed after all. Maybe staying alone is the best.

I know one thing that's true for sure

I miss every single thing about him.

hope u guys liked it. kisses for everyone who beared through this chapter! xx :)