(AN): Well, this story came to me because I had always wondered how things could have gone if Bella had really wavered in her decision on who she had wanted to be with. Also, I'm tired of those stories where Edward's treated like dirt in a AU New Moon story when in reality he made a descion based on his love for her. Yes it was a stupid descion but one he did because he wanted her to be safe. I'm tired of reading those stories where she leaves him but he welcomes her back with open arms like nothing happened while in reverse he has to put up with everyone's crap over something they did too, and over something he told Bella he would do if he needed to. So this story is what came of that idea.
Summary: Eclipse AU. Bella chose Jacob but realizes 3 years later that Edward is who she is meant to be with. But more has gone on around her than she had thought and the consequences of her choice may be what makes or breaks her strained relationship with an angry, broken Edward who wants nothing to do with her.
Warnings: Darkward. Torture, Language, and Non-consensual situations.
I do not own Twilight or the songs that appear in this story, however this plot is mine.
Hope you all enjoy and read! Please review!
Just Walk Away
Prologue- Say Goodbye
Things are changing Don't say goodbye Do you remember And if it's over Yesterday we were laughing (if you're gonna say goodbye) ***** The silence had become unbearable. He said nothing for the longest time, simply staring at her with those golden eyes she loved so much, and the pain, the agony in those eyes killed her inside but there was nothing she could do to make it better. His eyes darted down to stare at the ground beneath her feet and his hand rose, the indestructible marble limb shaking as he dragged it roughly through his hair. He yanked harshly at it as if he wanted nothing more than to rip it from his skull. The sight of him trying to harm himself broke her restraint. A choked sob escaped her and she threw herself at him, gripping his arm and trying to yank it down. "Edward! Edward please! I'm so sorry…I'm sorry…" She clutched him closer to her as they sunk to the ground. "Stop.." his broken voice pleaded and he turned from her, hiding his face as his beautiful features twisted in a way he did not want her to see. "Edward-" "Stop!" He turned back on her and grasped her shoulders. "Why are you apologizing? " Her tears rolled off of her pale cheeks as she looked at him in disbelief. "I'm hurting you…" He shook his head and looked away from her again. "You need this. You love him Bella." "But I love you too…" Not enough…. The thought made him feel horribly guilty. He was breaking fast. He needed to get her away before she saw the full extent of the damage she had dealt him. He loved her more than anything in the world and though she did not feel the same, his pain would only hurt her, keep her from making the decision that would bring her happiness. "Bella….." He gently cupped her cheeks and leaned forward to press a gentle kiss against her lips, his eyes closing in pain as she kissed him back, her arms clutching him to her as if she couldn't bear to let go. But they both knew that she would have too. "I love you…I'll always love you," he murmured against her lips. He gently eased his ring from her finger and held her closer as she whimpered at its absence. "It's okay love. I only want your happiness." "I can't…how can you not be angry Edward? How can you be so understanding when I…" "Bella…" his voice broke. "Can you do one thing for me?" "Anything…." Love me, don't leave me…. "I…I need you to go to Jacob Black. Love him, be happy. I need you to go to him right now." He leaned back and unwrapped his arms from her. She shook her head. "No…Edward-" "Please, Bella I need it." She looked as if leaving him would kill her but Edward knew that she would go to Jacob Black and he would heal her. So he watched her leave him and when she was gone he fell lifelessly to the ground, his hands clamping around his mouth as he screamed, his mother's ring dropping to the ground. Something inside of him was breaking, giving away to the searing emptiness and to an emotion he had never wanted to associate with Bella. For the first time he wanted to curse her for loving him. He wanted to curse her for putting something so precious in reach and then taking it back, ripping it from his grasp. He wanted to curse her for existing because all those years of wandering the earth, never knowing what he was missing was a world so much brighter and soothing than a world with Bella Swan in it. And the safe haven he had known, the place they had called their own was no more. Isabella Swan had tainted their meadow. She had killed their love.
It seems strange and
I need to figure this out
You've got your life
I got mine
But you're all I cared about
Yesterday we were laughing
Today I'm left here asking
Where has all the time gone now
I'm left alone somehow
Growing up and getting older
I don't want to believe it's over
Cause I don't wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it's not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbye
In December
How we swore we'd never change
Even though you're leaving
That our feelings
Would always stay the same
I wish we could be laughing
Instead I'm standing here asking
Do we have to end this now
Can we make it last somehow
We both know what we've gotta say, not today
Cause I don't wanna leave this way
It hurts but I'm giving you my word
I hope that you're always
Happy like we were
Happy like we were
Today I'm left here asking (if you're gonna say goodbye)
And although we knew this time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbye