A.N: First off I like to say that this is my first attempt at VA fan fiction, I love reading them and a couple of weeks ago I got this idea in my mind, one that I haven't seen done yet, maybe it has but I haven't seen any. Also I like to point out that English is my third language so I ask a bit of patience from you and I don't have a beta reader, if you would like to volunteer or know anyone who might want to take on a challenge, leave your email on a review and I would love you forever ;)
Give it a try guys, I'm 3 chapters ahead and I promise they are not as short as this one, I'm also open to suggestions and ideas... let me know if you like it or if you think I should just give it up and go back to waiting table and just reading ff on my spare time. Hope you like it.
My fears
My name is Rosemarie Hathaway, I'm 22 years old. I'm also a Dhampir, my kind train to be guardians of the Moroi. And up until 4 years ago that is exactly what I was, but I left that life behind. In the mean time I gave birth to the most important person in the world and I named her Vicktoria Belikov Hathaway. She was my little miracle baby, miracle because two Dhampirs can't conceive due to some genetic dysfunction. But voila I did, maybe because of being healed after death, we call that being shadow-kissed. The why I did not know but I do know that she was born and the only man I ever had sex with was a Dhampir like me, his name is Dimitri Belikov. After I left court and everyone I once called a friend behind, I moved in with my father, Abe Mahzur, the tough Zmey became a big puddle of goo the first time he held my daughter in his arms, the moment she wrapped her little fist around his finger her was done for. My little miracle had a way of doing that, one look and you were done for, she had even my father's big and bad guardians were wrapped around her little finger. I believe that when she grows older she's going to be a bigger flirt that I ever was. Scary thought actually.
I never told him that I was pregnant, but Vick knows who her daddy is. I've been showing pictures of her daddy since she was born, she didn't understand than but she understands now, she's a perfect blend of us, with her long brown hair and those deep eyes that I swear could look deep into my soul sometimes.
Today she asked me why her daddy didn't like her, she told me that she would never be naughty again if daddy came to read her a bed time story. That ripped my heart, simply because I never gave him the opportunity to do so. If you have a child you might understand how I might feel right now. Her little eyes filled with tears ripped my heart in about a million pieces. I never thought my heart capable of so much love, yet the moment I felt her move for the first time inside me, I knew there wasn't a thing I wouldn't do for her. I knew that if needed I'd give her my life.
But what she was asking me, such a simple act, and yet I could not give her that. All she wanted was her daddy, a father she only knew from pictures. A father I kept away from her. For my own selfish reasons, yes! But now at 3 years old she was asking me for her daddy, a daddy she had seen yesterday. A daddy that had no idea who she was.
Oh but that was about to change, because I couldn't deny her anything, I couldn't force him to except her but I sure as hell was going to try.
Just like her laughter was the best sound in the world to me, her little sobs were the worse.
I could face down big bad strigoi, but facing Guardian Belikov after 4 years scared me more than anything… but it was going to happen, he was going to find out he had a daughter, and if he decided he wanted nothing to do with her than I would get her through this, after I killed him.
No, I won't really kill him, but I would most likely hurt him.
I wasn't afraid of him rejecting me, hell I still loved him just as much as I did way back when, but I expected nothing from him for myself, apparently his love had faded. What I was afraid of was him rejecting our daughter. That was a fear that gave me nightmares at night.
I love him but I love her more, and even though I wish I could be her mommy and her daddy forever it just wasn't that simple. He will find out, tonight.