I never meant to love you.
You are cruel and power-hungry and egotistical, and probably more than a little bit psychotic. Traitor of Seireitei, ruler of Hueco Mundo, rising God: Sousuke Aizen. Oh, how I should have hated you. You approached me when I was still a child, because you saw the prodigy in me, the endless potential and the willingness to be molded into whatever you would make of me. You were using me, and I meant to use you.
But it turns out, the real you is so much more addicting than the fake enigmatic taichou that you presented to all those fools in Seireitei. It's not that you cared, that you ever even pretended to love me. Oh, no. You have always been just as cruel to me as you were to everyone else, if not more so, and I know that if I ever tried to defy you, you would destroy me with little remorse. But that's okay, because I don't really want to.
You hurt me; for fun, for entertainment, for sport, for pleasure. You fuck with my head just to watch me break. And break, I do. When you fuck me, when you make me beg, when you bring out all the things I want to hide. When you turn away.
I am always there, head bowed, pleading for more. And you smile.
I never meant to love you, but I guess it was meant to be. After all, I'm the perfect masochist to the sadist in you.