I wrote this when I heard that a senior of mine died.
Edit: Kindly betaed by Raphael Argai Thanatos! Thank you~
I desperately called out your name, yet you didn't seem to hear me.
I didn't know what I was doing out here in front of your usual hangout, Majiba, in the torrential rain. Maybe I just wanted to see you again; I sincerely missed you. Raindrops pelted against my drenched uniform. I knew that I would catch a cold if I didn't find shelter soon, but I could not find it in me to care.
Eventually, you arrived - with that dumb guy you claim to be your new light. I don't know if you ignored me or if you simply didn't hear me, but your lack of response hurt.
I suppose that I deserve this. Winning became as commonplace as breathing – I became overly conceited. In the midst of this phase, I vaguely remember lashing out at you – severing our bond, pushing you away. I should have known better, although it's too late for regrets now. But regret is what courses through my veins at this very moment – I should have treasured you, loved you; but it seems that your new light is doing a better job than I ever did.
I'm still outside, Tetsu. Why can't you see me? Laughing happily inside with that red-haired guy – that's really unfair, you know. I can hardly smile anymore. Satsuki's obviously worried about me, but I can't seem to give a fuck about her any longer. You're the only one I've ever cared for, Tetsu.
I suppose I should go home now. People are giving me weird looks, and I don't think you're going to notice me any time soon. I don't have the courage for a face-to-face confrontation with you, Tetsu.
We never really appreciate things until they're gone, do we?
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