Hey guesses, long time no see! Sorry you haven't had any updates from me recently, I've been really busy and I can't see to get inspired at the moment :(
I understand that you probably want an update of A Part Of You, but I'm not feeling it at the mo and don't know what else to write. I really did love that story, but I feel like I didn't write the last few chapters right and it all just went pear shaped. But hopefully this new story I'm working on makes up for it! Enjoy!

Is it just our bodies? Are we both losing our minds?
Is the only reason you're holding me tonight
'Cause we're scared to be lonely?
Do we need somebody just to feel like we're alright?
Is the only reason you're holding me tonight
'Cause we're scared to be lonely?

Hanna watched as Caleb buttoned up his shirt around his toned chest at the end of the bed. She told herself she wasn't going to let this happen again, but it never works.

"Caleb, this has to stop" She sighed, wrapping the sheet tight around her naked body. "We...we can't do this anymore" She whispered.

He turned around and looked at her with a smirk on his face, glancing at her blonde hair flowing down her back, her breasts threatening to spill out of the sheet she attempted to cover herself with. "I didn't hear you complaining earlier" He walked over to her and kissed her slightly swollen lips that were formed in a pout, but immediately relaxed under his touch.

But once he pulled away, she went back to reality. "But you have a girlfriend" She felt tears form as she said what they always tried to avoid. "It's not fair on her"

He sat on the edge of the bed next to her, sighing. "I know. I know. But it's more complicated than that" He rubbed a hand over his face. "I know that cheating is wrong, I know that..." He sighed. "But there's something about you doll" He whispered, tracing his hand around her features. The truth is, he hated that he was going behind his girlfriend, Mirada's back. But she'd cheated on him too, and they just weren't happy anymore. But they'd been together for months now, and Miranda promised that they would go back to what they once were, and said that they could work things out.

But Caleb knew that it hurt Hanna. Him and Hanna had been in love years ago, when they were 16, although they would never admit it and never describe it as Love, even though they had both thought of it in that way. They didn't tell anyone about it, they were sneaking around, no complications and no expectations. They started out as friends, and the whole school never thought that the sketchy new guy would be the one to whisk the Hanna Marin off her feet. The two only thought of it as friends, and it meant that they shared absolutely everything. He helped her with annoying guys that hit on her, she gave him a place to stay, and after their connection as friends was undeniable, he finally asked her out, and after a few dates, she lost her virginity to him.

When college came around though, they had to end things. It broke both of their hearts, although they both held in their feelings, pretending it was nothing. After all, they were just Friends right? Even though they knew this little fling they had couldn't last forever, that didn't stop them from hooking up every once in a while. They didn't see each other for a year after their break up, but when they ran into each other in the New York streets, they were inseparable. It was just a friends with benefits kinda thing, but they could both feel that something else was keeping them together. After all, they knew every dirty detail about each other and there was nothing but trust between them.

And then Miranda Collin's came along. Taking Caleb's heart and breaking Hanna's.

He said he needed to get serious, and it was time they move on, but as soon as things got rocky between him and Miranda, he turned to Hanna. She was there for him, but when old feelings started to surface, they started getting back into old habits.

A Few Weeks Earlier...

Hanna was laying on the sofa in her college dorm, trying to go over her notes while watching season two of Sex And The City. She was intently looking at the screen, wondering if she could try and rock the outfit Carrie was wearing, when a phone call broke her out of her daze.

"Hello?" She greeted.

"Hey Han" His voice filtered through the line.

"Hey Caleb, whats up?" She immediately relaxed thinking of him.

"Oh nothing much. Can I come over?" He asked. They hadn't seen each other for a week or two, they hadn't been meeting up as much because of his new relationship with a girl in Hanna's Economics class. But she wasn't just the girl three rows behind her, her name is Miranda, and she seems to have Caleb completely whipped. He would visit Miranda almost every couple of days, and since her room is about a five minute walk around campus from Hanna's, he would always pop in and say, which ended up with him and Hanna occasionally going to town or just hanging out.
But that hadn't happened recently. They had still talked on the phone, but since him and Miranda had been fighting, he wasn't bothering to drive all the way to their college.

"Of course" She said, as if it was the most obvious thing ever. Caleb let out a breath, thankful that despite everything, Hanna was always there for him. "Where are you?" She wondered as she could here rain from his end.

"Look outside your window" He said. Hanna was confused for a moment until she stood up, looked out the window, and saw a shivering Caleb standing in the rain outside with his arms wrapped round himself. He looked up to her, standing in her baby pink silk dressing gown that showed off her long smooth legs, and gave a peep at her boobs, but still left a little to the imagination. God, he missed her.

"Oh my god Caleb" She laughed. "You're so cold, get up here now! I'll order a pizza" She hung up, immediately calling the local pizza place and ordering their favorites. It was a few moments later that Hanna heard a knock on the door, reveling a soaking wet Caleb. "You're lucky you leave your clothes here all the time" She laughed, going into one of the draws and getting one of his hoodies and a pair of jeans, so he had a fresh outfit.

He quickly got changed and joined her on the sofa, Hanna sprawling her legs on his lap. "So are you going to tell me what your doing here on a Friday night at 11:30?" She asked.

"Well, I was at Miranda's dorm, and we got into a little fight" He said, resting his hands on her legs.

"How little?" Hanna cringed.

"Ugh...I think we may have broken up..." He sighed.

Hanna looked at his sad face and didn't hesitate to wrap her arms around him, enveloping him in a warm hug. He was taken back for a moment, but immediately hugged back. Before he met Hanna when he was 16, he didn't really have anyone looking out for him. She let him in her home, convinced him to reconnect with his family, and so much more. He cursed himself for being so surprised that she would be so caring.

"Are you okay?" She said softly, scratching the back of his neck lightly, she knows he finds it comforting.

"I'm better now" He smiled.

"What happened?" She said once they pulled away.

"She...she cheated on me. With some guy in your class apparently" He sighed, and Hanna was completely shocked. "I was gonna beat him up...but I'd rather be here with you"

"I can't believe she did that" Hanna shook her head. "What a bitch"

"That's exactly what I said to her. I just...don't want to talk to her for a while...it's a lot to take in" He ran a hand through his hair.

"I get it. I've been cheated on too, and it sucks" She whispered. "But you still have me" She gave him a silly smile, lacing their hands together. "You always have me. For anything, I'm here. And you can count on me to give Miranda really dirty looks around campus" She said and he chuckled.

He brought his arm around her shoulder and pulled her close so he could kiss her cheek. "Your the best, you know that?" He whispered. When they pulled away and looked into each others eyes, the close proximity made Hanna's heart beat faster. He moved one hand to tuck some hair behind her ear, and leaned in to whisper in her ear. "You know...I'm not in a relationship anymore" He said, kissing her neck a little while he moved his other hand to the belt of her silk dressing gown. "So nothing stopping us from going back to what we used to be" He untied the loose bow to reveal her black lacy bra and pants.

"But..." She chocked out, trying to ignore his hot breathe against her neck, and his imploring hand rubbing circles on her bare hip. "You just got out of a relationship"

"So?" He pressed kisses from her neck to her jaw. "It's just sex right?"

But it wasn't to Hanna. She still has feelings for him, even though their relationship when they were 16 was based on friendship and sex. She was doing all she could not to give in to him, but when he pressed his lips on hers, she caved. This was the first time they had kissed in months. Before Miranda, they were fooling around whenever they could, but not having all the stress from a real relationship. But Hanna wanted more. She always wanted more when it came to him.

He picked her up from the sofa and let her straddle his waist, walking to her bedroom, their lips still together. She knew she couldn't stop then. They completely forgot about the pizza and let their lips do all the talking. He was gentle yet passionate when making love to her, the way he knows she likes it. He's always gentle when it comes to her, because she's everything to him. They're each others other half. They spent the rest of the night in each others arms, catching up and talking about nonsense, just like they used to. They both knew that they missed one another presence.

Hanna missed sleeping in his arms, but it hurt her to know that he didn't want to be in a relationship. It wasn't until a sharp knock on her dorm door that her and Caleb woke up. "Who the hell is that?" Hanna groaned. He laughed at her sleepy-grumpy face and couldn't help but kiss her pout. She smiled back at him and rubbed her eyes, locating his shirt and buttoning it round herself. There was another eager knock on the door and they both rolled their eyes. "I'm coming" She shouted, walking towards the door.

When she opened it, her eyes widened and she froze. "Ugh...hi..." She stuttered, pulling down the shirt that only reached her thighs.

"Did I wake you?" Miranda Collins said rudely. "You know it's 10am. Most people have already started their day by now" Caleb sat up from where he was in Hanna's room, having heard Miranda's voice.

"Um...I had a late night" Hanna replied awkwardly. "Is there something you want? Do need the notes from class yesterday or-"

"No Hanna" She rolled her eyes and huffed. "I trust my notes a lot more than yours" Caleb saw Hanna's face drop at Miranda's harsh comment. Miranda would always make comments to Hanna about how much smarter she is than her, and try to put her down. Hanna always makes an effort to be nice to Miranda, but the petite brunette doesn't like that Caleb's best friend happens to be blonde and beautiful. Miranda has always thought that maybe Caleb still has feelings for Hanna, and doesn't try to hide her hate for her.

"I was wondering if you know where Caleb is" Miranda continued, and Hanna's mouth went dry thinking that he's just a few meters away, naked in her bed. "We got into a fight last night and he won't answer my calls. Since you two are practically attached to the hip, I thought you might know where he is"

"Ugh...No. No, I don't know where he is. But I'll call you if I hear anything" She lied, fumbling with the hem on his shirt.

"You sure you don't know where he is? You're wearing his shirt..." Miranda squinted, crossing her arms over her chest.

"Oh...you mean this?" Hanna played dumb, gesturing to the shirt she was wearing. "He left this at my place a few weeks ago when he stayed over after a party. It's laundry day so this is the only thing I have" She smiled. "Well, I better get my day started as you said, see you around" She said, shutting the door quickly.

"Oh my god!" Hanna whisper yelled, walking towards the bed and sitting next to him. "That was so awkward. She totally knows I lied"

"Yeah...ugh..there's also something I think I should tell you.."

"What?" She said, but he stayed silent. "Did I do something wrong?, did I-"

"No" He cut her off. "You didn't do anything wrong" He reassured her. He knows that she has a habit of always feeling like she's disappointed people. "Its just...I didn't exactly break up with Miranda. I told her I needed time..."

"What!?" Hanna shrieked, sitting up from the bed. "Caleb! You told me you guys are over!"

"I know, and I'm sorry-"

"You do realize you basically cheated on her just like she did to you. And you know how I feel about cheating!"

"I know, but I was just angry and caught up in the moment"

"I get that Caleb...but you need to make up your mind about her. If you're not happy then end things, but don't go coming to me"

"I am happy with her, and I won't let some mistake she made break us up. I do really like her" He said with uncertainty.

Hanna huffed, crossing her arms. "Then why did this happen" She said softly, nodding her head over to the bed where they had slept together.

"I...I don't know" He sighed, running a hand through his hair. He quickly got his boxers and jeans on and walked toward Hanna. "Lets just...forget this ever happened, okay?" He smiled, moving a piece of hair behind her ear. Hanna nodded, but she could feel tears well up in her eyes. She didn't want to forget it, she thought this might have meant something to him, like it did so much to her. He grabbed his dirty shirt he had worn the previous day, as Hanna was wearing his clean shirt, and made his way toward the door.

"I better go before Miranda sees me" He said, feeling guilty about the situation, he knows he's made Hanna sad. "Bye babe" He whispered, cupping her jaw with his hand and leaning in to kiss her cheek. He watched as she squeezed her eyes shut, clearly trying to hide her emotions, and he felt his heart break when she could barely look at him. When he lifted up her chin with his fingers though, he saw the tears forming in her eyes. "Hey, whats wrong?" He said worriedly.

"Nothing" She sniffed, trying to hide her face from him as a tear fell. But he knew exactly why she was upset.

"Han, we've been through this" He whispered softly, feeling tears form himself as he watched her cry. "I'm not the guy for you, you deserve so much better. I...I can't be the guy you need" He said desperately, wanting her so badly not to be upset because of him.

"I know" She nodded, breathing out shakily. "Let's just forget about it" She said, forcing a fake smile.

"I'll call you tomorrow, okay?" He said, smiling sadly.

She simply nodded and watched him leave, putting her back to the door and curling in a ball on the floor. Again, he's left, going for another girl. Never Her. When will he just realize that she's been head over heels for him since they met.

I don't quite know if this will be a two shot, three shot or even more shots, let me know. The next chapters will be longer btw (:

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