Agony : Withering Love

Disclaimer:
I didn't own Naruto. If I would have then would have made so many love scenes between Sasuke and Sakura . I had this aspiration to write after I read lot of fan fiction from this site . I also am die heart fan of SASUSAKU and wanted to have my fantasies come true also , so I started writing.
I am writing this story but the whole story was from a fan-fiction called" APATHY by VALERIANNA. I liked this story so much , so wanted to have the same concept but little more drams and all ... VELERIANNA thanks to you , I liked this story much , I am also waiting for your updates also. And I will try to write the same story with little different angle... PLZZZZ have mercy on me ..I am FIRST TIME TRYING THIS I AM NOT GOOD AT ENGLISH THAT MUCH ALSO
so GRAMMATICAL MISTAKES WILL BE LOT
Reviews also needed . plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

chapter 1: The Me I Lost :

Sakura was walking along roadside. It was almost around 8:00 pm in the city of Leon . It was raining slightly, she clenched her knees -length brown coat almost ripped at many places and looking like she had it from some old age orphanage donation center ,closer to make herself a little bit warmer from December's chilly wind. Her long bubblegum- colored pink hair, which were used to be very shinny and smooth are now rough and thin were slightly drenched. With tired looking eyes, because of her busy job schedule at restaurant as a waitress . She was walking alone on the road in her way to home. She was not in hurry to reach her home today, like usually she does, because there are lot of things going through her mind, concern of how to payoff the list of bills that are constantly bunching up on her doorstep day by day.

She even has 2 month pending room rent to fill, the room owner always used to shout about how she never pays her rent in time and wanted her to vacant the room but Sakura somehow begged for sometimes . Electric bill, Water connection bill, household things she have to buy a lot of things also . She does not know what to do. She does not have any nice degree , so that she will get a high payable good job or something or nor she is so intelligent that she can come out with some brilliant ideas for business . So physical labor is what she come up to. She was working at a restaurant , but that alone job is not fulfilling her necessities . She is just 22 year old and She is alone in this world without anyone to concern for her , except one person who gives her strength to continue live on and struggle for life , whom she loves more than anything in her life that is her 4 year older son, Hikari .

"May be ,I need to find one more job , I can't fulfill all the needs of Hikari's schools and pay off all bills with just only one job." Sakura murmured to herself slowly and sighed . "Before going to home, I need to find one more job." Sakura said while looking around in stores for any part timer job recruitment.

Even after searching so much , she got the disappointment only, there was no one around who wanted part timer at night and after working whole day at restaurant she came to be free only after 4 pm . She wanted a job that will at least give her decent amount of money plus the night shift will be over soon, she needed to prepare food for Hikari also up to 8:30. By 9:00 pm he always used to sleep. Calculating all this things she was passing through store to store . But disappointment is what she got in her hand. She desperately wanted a job right now . Hikari is growing fast and he needed new shoes and new uniforms and she wanted to buy a sweater for him so desperately , he was wearing her sweater that she used to wear ,it oversized him and it always used to fell down from his shoulder but he never complained. But Sakura knows, how much, he was being teased because of that in his school by other children , even if it does not bothered him , but she can't let this happened to her child. Plus due to certain critical situation during her pregnancy, Hikari has seizures problem, so sometimes it became hard for her to arrange for his medicines and the budget fall down . She wanted a proper treatment for him, and for that she needed to save from now . So will have another job anyhow today...
Suddenly she thought of one of her co-workers , Ino . She said , she knows someone who needed a new person in his work place, at that time Sakura was not interested in doing another job so didn't pressurize her much for information . So she dialed her number to ask for information from telephone booth.

"Hello " , Ino said.
"Its me Sakura" . Sakura said , she wanted to complete the conversation fast before , the connection would be cut down and she have to put another coin and she does not have that much to waste on booth only.
"Yeah , Sakura ,say what is the matter" ? cheerfully Ino asked.
"Ino, the job you were talking about previously one day , Is it still available , if it is I wanted to work there?".. Sakura said .
" Sakura, do you really want to work there , I mean , it isn't so much of a decent place to work on. Its actually a night club. It will be hard for you.". Ino said concernedly. Sakura silent-ed for a while .
"I will do this , all work are same for me. Besides this I don't think any place will hire someone like me." Sakura replied with slow voice.
"As you wish, Sakura. I can call the owner there , you can go right now also ,and talk about yourself."
"Thanks , Ino ,I really owe you. " Sakura said thankfully with smile .After that Ino called the owner and Sakura went to that night club.

At nightclub...

The owner looked at Sakura from top to bottom , Sakura was not comfortable with all his staring but keep quite about it. He grinned and walked up to Sakura and touched her hair . Sakura flinched a little to stay away from him.
"Nice hair you got babes". He circled her and said ," Not bad, you can be added to special addition for our customer. This unique green eyes and pink hair will attract lot of customers ."He said grinning evilly .
"you are in. Come from tomorrow Miss Sakura..." He said playfully , flipping her hair playfully and smirking .
"Th... thank you ,Sir ". Sakura said while shuttering . She is not liking the environment , she just want to run..
She left the nightclub.. From tomorrow she have to come here, the thought itself brings chills to her body , but she will do everything for her child.
"It doesn't matter , where I work , and how much shabby this place is, If I can give Hikari happiness. I will do it. "Sakura said more to herself than anyone. She was happy the same time concerned that how will she work here.

Finally she reached home , By then Hikari was already asleep. She saw him in awe, Hikari was really very smart child , he always know what their situation is like , and he never asked for anything from her , when in his age other children adamant for expensive clothes and toys and gifts, he helps her mother with washing dishes and clothes , She used to go early in the morning by 7 am to open the restaurant and do all cleaning chorus . So the house was always in disorder, Usually parents used to see off their children to school and all. But here Hikari used to wake up first and then wake her Mom up and clean the room while she will be making breakfast and running all around the room while cursing herself for being late and almost tumbling down here and their around home, Sakura shouting Hikari to have her breakfast and then packing her portion of breakfast in his lunchbox saying she is on diet or something while smiling . Hikari understand everything but he would just smile lovingly at her mother and compliment her mother , "Mom you are very beautiful,". Sakura act like blushing and peck him like always and say to eat breakfast and go to school. After that Hikari used to watch her mother until he cant she her anymore, then he will arrange the whole house and then go for school, The school was not far it was on walking distance and Sakura's neighbor also likes Hikari a lot like their own child so Sakura used to leave Hikari unconcernedly. This was like their daily schedule , both mom and child are happy in their small life, they love each other , that they dint need any other person in their life.

Sakura kissed him on his cheeks , he is looking so cute while sleeping , she feel so blessed to have him as her child, he gave her the reason to live, when she wanted to die. Watching him growing everyday is encouraging her to overcome all hurdles of life , Even she is mostly damn tired and her body is always in pain , she still continues because she have someone she love so much that watching him makes all her pain and worries vanished . She wanted to give whatever she can provide , and for that she will do any job , any physical pain is worth for this child , he saved her in this life.

Sakura was smoothly combing his hair with her fingers and watching her son while smiling , she again kissed him on his cheek, and then grab his hand that are curled up in ball. She find his hands cold , she rubbed it with her palms and tried to transfer some warmness to him . He flinched and moved a little but didn't woke up . He just came little closer to her in search of warm. Sakura heated some water and then put it into the bottle and bring it between them with blanket over both them . In this winter it was was only source of heater for them . She tugged Hikari very nicely inside the blanket and lays down on her back seeing nothing in particular but towards roof shilling.

She started remembering her past , the way she is now was not how she was used to be, She was one of the royals. Her father ,Shinyeki Hurano was richest among richest in Leon city . In surface he was a clean man but in under he was all shorts of illegal things like like drugs racket , weapon racket , lots of bars are in his name , restaurants and casinos and all. And he loved Sakura a lot, whatever she needed it was brought down before she even say , She doesn't wear the same clothes again , from top to bottom she is sparkled with luxurious item. She can buy anything she want , doesn't have to care for how much balance she have in her platinum card . she was the single child without her mother so his father wanted to give her everything , so in other way he spoiled her a lot.
But everything changed now and it was all because of one person , that one person who she loved to the marrow of her bones , that hardly she thought she can love anyone this much in her lifetime , whom she still didn't forgotten and whom she dream t of having families , for whom she wanted to look pretty . That is the same person now she hated to the bottom of core ...
Sasuke Uchiha ..., Sakura said with clenched teeth.

to be continued ...

STILL A LOT To learn ...will work harder on next chapter ... Thanks for the giving me start up Valerianna ... I really admire your work ..again if I hurt someones feeling , plz forgive me and tell me so that I can correct it . I really liked your work thats why I wanted to work on it also but in a little different way... I

I planned to put Sakura in a little bit push over situation and hardship and I wanted to focus more in Sakura and Sasuke in the story , more than any other characters...