Castle sat at his desk drinking. Castle sat at his desk drinking and thinking. He played it over and over in his mind. He could still see the grim expression on the doctor's face and hear the serious tone in his voice. "I am very sorry Mr. Castle but you have testicular cancer." The doctor went on to tell him it had not metastasized and that they had a good chance of stopping it by removing his testicles. He would still have to have a bout of chemotherapy and radiation treatments. All in all it had been a bad day. He wondered how he would tell Kate. At the thought of Kate he felt better. God he loved that woman. The more he thought about Kate the better he felt. He realized he had not used his balls in years and that as long as he was with Kate Beckett he didn't need balls.