a/n: series of drabbles based around a Nexgen Facebook Rpg.
to rachel (shut away)
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can't let you go
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we can do this
we'll get through this
I don't wanna keep crying
I don't wanna fight no more
I hate that I love you,
I can't let you go
-Can't Let You Go, Maribelle Anes
He's him and she's her and they're not perfect.
Because Dimitri is all Gryffindor fire, strong and brave, while Jude is pure Slytherin ice, ambition ridden to the core. And even though she's his best friends twin sister he just can't help himself.
Because the thing about Jude Price is, a taste is never enough to satisfy you. It always just leaves you wanting more.
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His parents died and he was sad and he shouldn't have survived any of it but he did and he's alive and he hates himself for it. The last thing he remembers is waking up in a hospital room and there she is. Scarlet hair surrounding her, brown eyes sympathetic. Slowly her hands take one of his and hold it tight.
All Dimitri can do is cry.
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Maybe if they were different people, with different lives, under totally different circumstances she would have been his. But he's Dimitri and she's Jude and happy endings are always hard to come by.
He reminds himself of this as he presses her against a bookcase in the library, his hands holding her close as his lips claim hers.
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They gone on like that for a while, passionate make out sessions in alcoves before classes, secret smiles as they pass each other in the hall and maybe it's not picture perfect but it's something. They're something. And maybe just maybe that little flutter he feels every time she walks into a room really is love.
It hurts just as bad as the day his parents die when she shakes her head: no.
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Time goes by and he starts to lose himself.
Alcohol, sex, adrenaline.
He's Dimitri fucking Coyne and the one girl that he loves will never be his. He drinks vodka like it's water, fucks any pretty girl that he lays eyes on and does the stupidest shit just to feel alive.
Without her he's nothing (nothing but the stupid little boy that fell in love with a girl who always runs away.)
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She's yelling at him. Her face red from the cold and from running and he'd like to think from him because the fact that he brings something out of her (something that no one else can) is an accomplishment in itself.
"I don't know!" He cried. "All I fucking know is that Einaudi isn't good enough for you and that every time I see you together I have to fight the urge to punch him in the face. I'm sorry for that, Jude."
"Sorry isn't enough, Dimitri."
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Logan Einaudi. The name makes him want to hit things until his fists are bleeding and he can't feel anything any more. Because Dimitri can't seem to turn himself away when he sees them kissing in the hall or how her hands always entwine in his when they're together, or the way she laughs and her eyes brighten whenever she sees that face.
Logan Einaudi. The name makes him sick because Dimitri will never be him, he'll never get Jude all to himself.
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He kisses her on one of their runs together and he knows that for a split second, just a second, Jude kissed back. Jude kissed back. It's not much but it fills him with hope and warmth he's been lacking all this time.
It didn't matter that Jude was with Logan, it didn't matter that she punched him in the jaw, it didn't matter that she walked away.
She kissed him back.
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He's more confident as he walks the hall, cockier as he winks at passing fourth years, flirtier as he shamelessly gets four girls out of their pants and into his that day, more daring as he approaches her that afternoon in the courtyard.
She's with Elmwood; the two look deep in discussion not noticing as he walks toward them. She's tucked under his arm and leaning her head on his shoulder and Dimitri vaguely feels the familiar tinge of jealousy as he flashes them a bright smile.
"Coyne." Jeremy replies coolly.
"Elmwood," He pauses his eyes smoldering at the real reason why he's out here today. "Jude." His voice is a whisper and he watches with satisfaction, as Jude can't even bring herself to look at him.
He knows she felt something. He knows and that is why she can't meet his eyes.
Jeremy scolds his grip noticeably tightening on Jude. "Fuck off."
Dimitri laughs looking after the pair as Jeremy leads Jude away from him and he knows that he had to have really pressed Jeremy's buttons for him to be so rude. Somehow that makes Dimitri jump for joy.
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In the end Jude doesn't choose him.
Declan warned him it would happen, he warned him because Jude's never been the type to commit to others people expectations of her. And though Dimitri knew that he'd be heart broken (he knew) he couldn't help but try it anyways.
Because love is about taking chances and having hope and opening up.
(no one tells you it's love that kills you in the end.)
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