Missing You

Many years had passed since Manny had been at Degrassi and she had definitely changed. She was no longer the little girl who begged for attention from guys. She was successful in her music career, with a wonderful husband who she thought she'd never be with in a million years, and long-lasting friendships that she had only Degrassi to thank for.

Still though, there was so much pain that came with being with Degrassi. All of the drama she went through with Craig, her mistake with Peter, everything. But she wouldn't trade it for the world. Because that's what made her the woman she was today.

Now Manny was standing outside of her and Jay's two story house. She was gazing up at the stars that lit up the dark night. Tiny footsteps were heard but she didn't bother to turn around, she just kept gazing up at those beautiful stars. Someone wrapped their hands around her waist and she smiled.

"What are you doing up so late?" Jay whispered in her ear and managed to place a butterfly kiss on her neck.

"Just thinking."

"About the baby?" he pushed.

That was part of it. Manny was due in a few months and she would be giving birth to a beautiful baby girl. But that wasn't entirely what she was getting at. She sighed, "Do you think things would have ended up the same if she was still here?"

He looked confused, "Manny who are you-"

"My other baby...the one that I didn't let live," she looked down this time, and Jay sensed the overwhelming feeling that was coming onto her. He wrapped his arms around her a little tighter as he kissed her again.

"It's not good to think about the past."

"How can I not? That was my baby Jay. And I let my baby die." She could feel herself getting emotional, but she refused to cry as she sniffed and looked up again.

"Do you think she's out there? Up in the stars, up in some type of Heaven I mean?"

Jay didn't believe in a Heaven, or any type of god for that matter, but saying something like that wouldn't make Manny feel any better. He drew in a deep breath, "Manny...I bet your baby is in Heaven right now, and smiling at you even."

"Why would my child be smiling at me?"

"Because she knows that one day she'll see you there. And I think," he kissed her again, "I think that she forgave you a long time ago. The only person you need to forgive now is yourself."

She smiled at that, then turned to look at him as she wrapped her arms around his neck, "Thank you Jay. I needed to hear that."

He smiled and they leaned in towards each other and kissed. Those words that Jay had told her constantly played inside her mind. She didn't know if she really believed in Heaven or God or Hell, but the thought that her baby was up in Heaven, living a happy life that she should have been able to live down in Earth made her want to believe that it was possible.

A/N: I miss the old cast so much you guys! Manny has always been one of my favorite characters so I wanted to write a little something about her, and I've always wondered if she regretted having an abortion so I just decided to put that into my writing. Not my best work but just a little one-shot that I wanted to get out of my head. Thanks for reading.