THE CORRS- When The Stars Go Blue
Dancin' where the stars go blue
Dancin' where the evening fell
Dancin' in your wooden shoes
In a wedding gown
Dancin' out on 7th street
Dancin' through the underground
Dancin' little marionette
Are you happy now?Yeah(Bono)
Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue
Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
In a lullaby
Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars, when the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue, blue, blue
Stars go blue
When the stars go blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue, yeah
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you, I'll follow you, I'll follow you
I'll follow you, I'll follow you, yeah
Where do you go, yeah
Where do you go, Where do you go
Meredith looks between the two men, both calling her name. She doesn't know what to do. She can't do this. She can't do this right now. She looks behind Derek and sees Addison. She looks at Finn. Finn has plans. She can't be with Finn. She doesn't love Finn. She loves him, but she can't be with him. He is married and his wife is standing right there. His wife is standing right there and she has no idea what just happened in the exam room. Meredith looks at him and makes eye contact. He takes her breath away. She can't breathe with him looking at her. She looks at the floor one more time before glancing back up at him having made up her mind. She looks into the blue oceans that are his eyes and turns around to leave. Finn reaches out and grabs on to her arm.
Finn: Meredith??
Meredith looks up at Finn, tears now running down her face.
Meredith (in a strained voice): I'm sorry Finn, I can't. I have to go.
Meredith tries to jerk her arm free but Finn tightens his grip, hurting her. She gasps and looks up at him, fear in her eyes.
Meredith: Please, please let me go.
Finn: Not until you tell me why.
Meredith: Please, you're hurting me.
Derek finally steps forward.
Derek: Finn, let her go. She told you to let her go. Just let her go.
Meredith glances quickly back at Derek and then at Finn. Finn loosens his grip out of shock and Meredith manages to break loose. She runs out of the hospital and away from the life she has known for the past five months.
Derek watches Meredith, hoping that she sees how much he loves her. She looks confused and hurt. Damn it. He doesn't want tot hurt her anymore. He sees Finn grab her arm and feels a bit nauseous. He then sees the look of pain that crosses Meredith's face and then her pleas to be released. He is hurting her. Derek steps forward and is very pissed off.
Derek: Finn, let her go. She told you to let her go. Just let her go.
Derek catches Meredith's eyes just for a moment as she looks at him quickly before turning and running out of the hospital. He watches her run away, finding it hard to move his feet. He loves her. He doesn't want to hurt her anymore. He doesn't know what to do. He feels a hand on his shoulder and turns to meet the suspicious eyes of his wife. He sighs. He can't be with her anymore. It's not fair to her. It's not fair to him and it's not fair to Meredith. He needs Meredith. He loves Meredith.
Derek: Addison, we need to talk.
Addison nods and her eyes begin to fill with tears. She knows it's over.
(Scene shifts to Meredith)
Meredith runs out the front doors of Seattle Grace Hospital. She stops once she is outside and looks up at the front of the hospital one last time. She sighs.
Meredith: I'm so sorry.
Meredith turns around and runs to her car. Just as she starts to drive away the rain starts to pour down. She pulls out her cell phone and dials a number she has memorized.
Voice: Hello?
Silence.
Voice (a little worried): Hello?
Meredith starts crying.
Voice: Meredith??
Meredith: I'm sorry, Derek. I love you, but I can't do this anymore.
Before the voice on the other end of the phone can respond Meredith hangs up the phone. It immediately starts ringing again and she silences it. Meredith drives through the city of Seattle, stopping only to fill up her car. She drives until she is too tired to continue. She looks down at her phone. She has missed fifteen calls, ten are from Derek. She sighs. She looks through the other people that have called—George and Cristina. She needs to call her person, her sister. She dials Cristina's number. A sleepy voice answers.
Cristina: What?
Meredith (in a quiet voice): Cristina?
Cristina instantly wakes up and sets up in the hospital bed which she is sharing with Burke.
Cristina: Meredith?!!? Where the hell are you? Everyone has been looking for you!!
Meredith: I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
Meredith starts crying again.
Cristina: What the hell did he do?
Meredith: What do you mean?
Cristina: Only one person can make you feel this way. What did he do??
Meredith sighs. Cristina knows her so well.
Meredith: We had sex. At Prom.
Cristina makes a noise that resembles a growl.
Cristina: Ass! I'm going to kick his ass!
Meredith can't help but giggle over her person's reaction. She is going to miss her.
Cristina: So, where the hell are you?
Meredith: I'm sorry. I…I don't really know.
Meredith bites her lip. She is not a very good liar.
Cristina: You are lying to me. Why won't you tell me where you are?
Meredith: Because…I just…I'm not in Seattle.
Cristina: What??
Meredith: I can't do it anymore. I can't. I just can't.
Meredith starts crying again. Cristina has a shocked look on her face. Burke notices the look on her face.
Burke: Cristina, what is it?
Cristina looks at him.
Cristina: Meredith?
Meredith: Yeah?
Cristina: Are you coming back?
Meredith: No. I don't know. I don't think so.
Cristina: I'm going to kick his ass.
Before Meredith can respond Cristina hangs up the phone. Meredith stares at the phone for a minute. It starts ringing again. DEREK. She ignores it. She can't talk to him right now. She gets out of her car and enters the hotel to spend the night. She plans on getting up early to continue her drive. She checks in and enters her room. She lies down on the bed and curls up in a ball. She turns off her phone and cries herself to sleep, thinking about how screwed up her life has become and about how much she loves him.
(Scene switches to Derek)
Derek has just finished telling Addison it is over and is now in his car driving to Meredith's house. He needs to tell her how he feels. He wants her. He needs her. He loves her. Just as he is turning onto her street his phone rings. He looks down at the screen and his heart begins to beat faster. MEREDITH. He answers the phone.
Derek: Hello?
Silence.
Derek (a little worried): Hello??
He hears her start crying.
Derek: Meredith??
Meredith: I'm sorry, Derek. I love you, but I can't do this anymore.
Click.
He stares at his phone for a moment. He is now parked in her driveway. He looks around but doesn't see her vehicle. He goes to the door and George answers, still in his tuxedo.
George: Dr. Shepherd??
Derek: Is she here??
George: Meredith?
Derek runs his hand through his hair. He is worried.
Derek: Yes Meredith. Of course Meredith.
George: No. I thought she was still at prom. She hasn't been here all night.
George notices the look that crosses Derek's face.
George: What is it?
Derek: Nothing.
Derek turns around and he leaves. He tries to call her again. Voicemail.
Derek: Meredith, please answer. Please call me back. We really need to talk. I love you…I love you so much…
Beep.
Derek hangs up the phone and drives back to his trailer. Hopefully Addison has had enough time to gather up her things and leaves. He pulls into the driveway and is relieved that Addison's car is no where in sight. He goes into the trailer and grabs a beer. He sits on the couch and tries to call her again. Over the next three hours he tries to call her eight more times, each time getting her voicemail. He doesn't know what to do. He runs his hand through his hair again. He goes to the fridge to get another beer when someone starts pounding on his door.
So...this is the last of them...lol...I might even post another update later. Let me know what you guys think.
-marci