So, this is actually the first ever story but I've forgotten about it. I decide to just post it up. I hope all of you like it. Sorry for the grammar mistakes and stuff. So, enjoy and please review to tell me what you think of this story.

Disclaimer: Richelle Mead owns VA. e_e

Chapter 1 : Lovin' My Life

"I've given up on you," he said back, voice also soft. "Love fades, mine has."

I stare at him in disbelief. All this time he never phrased it like that. His protests had always been about some greater good, about the remorse he felt over being a monster or how it had scarred him from love. I've given up on you. Love fades mine has.

"Hey Dimitri, you okay? Rose? What are you doing here? I thought I told you that he doesn't want to see you," she scowled. Dimitri face her and I could see the adoration and awe radiating from him, for Lissa. I felt a pang of jealousy.

"Rose. Just go away! You're not making this any easier. For once, think about him! He's trying to...heal," she tries to reason with me.

"'For once, think about him?'I've always been thinking about you and him! I've always put both of you first! In everything!"

"Rose! He's trying to get over what he did and became. Whenever he's making progress, you showed up and he'll be consume by guilt again!" she hissed. I don't know why but that was like a stab in the heart. I look at Dimitri but he just looked away.

Just leave, Rose.

The command hit me so hard I could've stumble back. "You know what, fine. I'm out. I'll get the fuck out of your lives. Just don't bother with mine anymore," I pushed my way out of the aisle and ran out the doors in the back, afraid that if I stayed any longer, everyone in the church would see me cry. I went to my room and change into my sports bra, shorts, and my shoes and went to the gym. The first thing I did was doing some stretching and hop onto the treadmill.

Now I will tell you what I've done for you

Fifty thousand tears I've cried

Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you

And you still won't hear me, going under

Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself

Maybe I'll wake up for once

Not tormented daily, defeated by you

Just when I thought, I reached the bottom

I ran faster.

I'm dying again, I'm going under

Drowning in you, I'm falling forever

I've got to break through, I'm going under

As soon as the song finished, I move on to the punching bag. I could feel a little darkness lingering at the back of my mind. I took out my gloves and didn't stop punching until the bag broke. Tears were forming in my eyes but I wouldn't let it flow.

I'm so stupid. My Dimitri died when he was turned and he'll never return. My whole body was numb from the workout and I went back to my room and crash on my bed.

Days turn to weeks and weeks turn to months and finally, a year. I've been avoiding those two fuckers for a year. And you know how hard that is? It's like trying to avoid your parents at home. Speaking of parents I and Abe are now very close whilst I and my mom are okay. At least we can have a conversation without fighting anymore. Back to point, in that period (a year), I've been doing my job as a guardian very seriously and now, I'm the assistant head guardian. My friendship with Eddie, Mia, Christian, Adrian and other guardians are now better. Heck, even Tatiana and I are now okay. Good job, awesome friends, a whole lot of income.

My life is good.

Until I got the news that Lissa and Belikov are in a relationship. My heart was torn, crushed and burned to ashes and was blown away. For a month, I was lifeless. Only the guardians, Tatiana and my friends knew about my history with Belikov. They sympathised me and Christian to no end. I finally stop mopping around and back in business.

"Buria!" someone shouted. I jump out of my bed and ran out of the door. My first thought was to run to Tatiana but through the bond, Lissa was calling out for me. I could feel her fear even though guardians were surrounding her.

Rose, where are you?

I ran faster and finally I reach her. "Princess Vasilissa, are you alright?"

She nodded and hugged me. I remove her hands and turn on my guardian mode. "Where are the others? Adrian? Christian?" I know Dimitri can take care of himself.

"They are on the way to here," Mikhail replied.

I sighed, relief. Then my stomach flipped. I grab my st— Fuck, where's my stake? "Mikhail, give me your stake!" right on time, I turn and stab my stake into the Strigoi's chest. One down nine to go. Three of them aim for me. I dodge, punch and kick each of them over and over again. They were very strong. I realised all of them were trained from their performances. Mia and a few royals arrived, including Adrian and Christian. There are too many of them and they're too close.

"Mikhail! Adam! Get all of them out of here!"

"What about—" Adam hesitated.

"Just fucking go! I'll take care of them!" Bam! One of them punches me dangerously near my eye.

"Son of a bitch!"

"My, my. What a delight to have the famous Hathaway in our hands," he pinned me to the wall. The other guy was restraining my hands and body before he stabs me with a dagger. I screamed in pain, tears were now flowing violently down my face. But it wasn't over. He stabs me one more time, so hard that the dagger was stuck to the wall.

"We're so sorry, dear but since we've heard so many mysterious escapes you've made we have no choice. This is the only way," he lick from my cleavage up till my chin.

"The only way for what?" I whisper-hissed. It was just too painful.

"For this," with that, he bit into my neck and everything went black.

I snapped my eyes open. I shield my eyes as the bright lights blind my eyes. Every movement that I made felt strangely amazing, strong and powerful. Slowly, I crack my neck and move my shoulders in circular motion. Every muscle in me was aching for...something. Why am I feeling like this? Where am I?

Well, I can't answer the first one but sure as hell I could for the second one. I was in a room which looks like five star luxury hotel. The smell of leather, wood and others fill my nose. I guess I at least need to check myself. I approach the door which I suppose is a bathroom. I was wrong. It was like a spa. Dang, they have everything in here. I'm not sure who 'they' refer too. I continue to wonder around until I past the mirror, I froze. The person in the mirror was me, I know but I was different. My hair is completely black, my curves are defined, my skin tone is lighter and my eyes have reddish-black rimmed around my pupils. What—

Someone interrupt my thoughts. "Rosemarie, how are you holding up?"

That someone was Nathan.

"I thought Belikov took care of you. What do you want?" my voice was hoarse. Why?

"Ah, Belikov. How I miss that bastard, thinks he's the boss of me. I heard he's with Dragomir," he smirked. The word 'Dragomir' and 'Belikov' triggered something in me. Angst. Hurt. Hatred. Darkness was forming out of my chest and around me. I wanted to kill someone very badly.

"So, how do you feel being a strigoi?" he ask.

"Strigoi?" I'm a strigoi. The deadliest predator ever existed. Plus with me being shadow kissed, I'm even more deadly. Though I don't know why. They always said that being a Strigoi was the worst thing ever. Oh how they were wrong. It feels...amazing. I wonder how it'll feel to drink someone's lives. As I think about this, my mouth started to water.

"Come on, Rose. Let's have breakfast," I followed him out of the room and guess what, it was Galina's estate. Everything looks pretty much the same. Even Inna. She was shocked as hell to see me and bowed. Hmm... I recall what Belikov said about being a Strigoi. It's all about prey and predator, ranks, and other shit.

We entered a room after he unlock the door with a code he didn't trust with me yet. And I was in Strigoi's heaven. Morois were cowering in the corner of the room. I lock eyes with my prey as she scream and launches a ball of fire at me.

A fire user.

In an instant, the darkness that was around me formed a weird shield that was like a second skin to me. It clung to every inch of my body. Holy shit. This is great. Well, for me, not for her. Nathan stood behind me and whisper in my ear.

"Rose, listen to their pulse. Snap and then bite their neck. Go on," I did.

Their scream was like music to my ears. I officially love this life.

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