Its literally 1:43 now and I can't sleep. The days seem to drag by, nothing but gray, cloudy days and boring dark nights. Can someone rescue me from this madness? The insanity of it all is what keeps me at night. I realize this now after so many nights not being able to rest my eyes. I wonder why this so, Why these two things are connected. The logical part of me wants to say i just because of whatever... trying to be rational, but the other haunts me saying you will never be able to sleep because your in love.
I look at the clock again.
2:15... Wow the time is going by fast. I cant help but think of him. I can't understand why he doesn't feel what i feel. Tossing and turning, eyes closed but sleep never reaching me. Why can't you just leave me alone. I know you don't want me... But i just can't get over you.
Thunder gently roars. I can hear the rain coming.
3:00 It's, Pouring... It's hopeless i'll never be able to get to sleep now. My thought of you overflowing my mind, i think i'm going to need a jar to keep these thoughts, My pensive is what im going to call it. My pensive of thoughts that refuse my sleep.
4:45 Mr. sandman where are you? I need to rest. my heart and mind need a break from these thoughts of him. Him, he is the one i love but he doesn't love me. That day, 5 days ago, thats what he told me. "Love doesn't lie here, no, not in this heart, not for you."
Damn i can't belive its 5:30. Why am i still awake thinking of him. Tossing and turing, thunder boomin, lightning flashing, Why? I can't love him any more. I can love him. But he doesn't want me. Loving him is all that matters. I can't go on like this. I... I... can't live without him... I wont live without him.
6:15 Why is there so much red. why do i feel so week. why is there so much RED. Tears dropped on the blade, my red hands and wrist beside it. Why didnt you love me... the way I love you.
The alarm blares one of my favorite tunes. "I want to dedicate this song to the truly love but I'm to afraid to let her know. 'Sakura', I love you! From Sasuke"
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Huh? I shot straight up. 6:15.
"Sakura? are you okay?"
It was just a dream, just a... dream.