In Which Alec Goes Catatonic...
I fell to my knees, hitting the ground hard. It was cold and I could feel the wind pierce my light jacket.
I had lost him, the love of my life, and I had lost him. I felt a pain in my chest, as I tried to suppress the sob that came to my mouth, and push down the tears that begged to flow.
I tried to stand but my body wouldn't move, I tried to say something, tried to call for help, but all I could do was sit there and cry.
I was alone now, my only love had left me, over one stupid mistake. I didn't even want to breath anymore.
I wasn't sure how long I had been there, maybe minutes, maybe hours, I couldn't tell. I fell on to my side curling up, I couldn't see anything anymore my world was black. Dark. Empty.
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Magnus got a call for Isabelle, about 7 hours after he left Alec, he was sure that she was calling to chew him out for dumping Alec like that, so he didn't even bother answering. It was answered by the machine, and Isabelle's voice came over the phone.
"Hey Mags, could you tell Alec to come back to the Institute, Moms home and she wants to have dinner together. Thanks." The machine clicked, saying that she had hung up.
Magnus felt his stomach ball up. So Alec hadn't mad it home yet, I guess he was wondering around somewhere. Magnus didn't think anything of it, he was to tired so he just laid down on his bed, quickly falling asleep.
Magnus woke up about five hours later to the sound of his phone ringing again. This time he answered it without even looking to see who was calling.
"Hello?" Magnus answered, slightly annoyed.
"Magnus? Have you told Alec we're looking for him?" Magnus felt my heart sink all over again.
"He's not home yet?" Magnus asked, swallowing the lump forming in his throat.
"No, isn't he with you, he's always over there."
"I'll go look for him, call me if he manages to get home."
"Okay, I will." With that Magnus hung up the phone, pulling on a thin jacket before running out the front door.
"Please be okay, Alexander." Magnus begged looking everywhere on
his way to the tunnel.
I heard hurried steps on the cold stone floor, and I tried to look up to see who it was, but to no avail. I couldn't see in the darkness. It was less than a minute when a familiar voice called out.
"Alec?! Please if your here answer me!" I tried to call to him, I was so cold, and I just needed someone to hold me. "Alec!" I felt warm arms wrap around me, holding me close.
"Alec, say something, please." Magnus' voice was nearly begging me, but I couldn't say anything, I just sat in his arms. It wasn't long before those strong familiar arms lifted me off the cold ground, holding me closely. I just laid there, not really feeling comfort from Magnus' warm embrace.
Alec just stared at the sky with unseeing eyes, as Magnus carried him into his apartment. Despite Magnus trying to pretend he didn't care about Alec anymore, it killed him seeing his shadow hunter so broken.
He was barely breathing, and no matter what Magnus Bane said it didn't get any reaction from Alexander.
As soon as they made it into the apartment, Magnus laid his blue eyed love on his bed. Alec, once again, had no reaction to this. Magnus could see the tear streaks that left trails down his cheeks, which were covered in a red flush. Magnus reached out to feel for Alec's temperature. Despite the rest of his body being cold as ice, Alec's forehead was burning up.
Magnus tucked Alexander under the blankets and sat down on the bed next to him.
"Alexander, oh, my angel, please, say something." Magnus begged, holding tightly to Alec's hand. "Love, please." Alec didn't even move, didn't even blink. If not for the faint rise and fall of his chest, it would have been easy to mistake him for being dead.
Magnus leaned down, his mouth coming close to Alec's red ear.
"Alec, I'm so so sorry, please, I love you." Magnus whispered as a tear fell down his cheek.
"Mag...nus?" A gentle voice asked, warm breath ghosting Magnus' cheek.
"Alec!" Magnus cried, Alec looked at him, some of the light returning to his eyes.
"Magnus? Where am I?" Alec asked, looking desperately into Magnus' cat eyes. The realization hit Alec like a ton of bricks.
Everything came rushing back, the breakup, the cold ground, Magnus' warm embrace. But above all else, the fact that Magnus didn't want him anymore.
"Alec, thank god, your alright!" Magnus cheered, relieved.
"Why? Why didn't you leave me? Why didn't you let me lay there until I died?" Alec had tears running down his cheeks. "Why did you save me? I'm not worth it!" Alec yelled, scurrying away from Magnus. Trying to get some distance between him and what he used to have.
"Why did you save me if you don't love me anymore?" Magnus couldn't believe his ears, Alec, his Alec, wished that he had just left him there to die, to never be seen from again. It took no time at all for Magnus to realize how he couldn't handle that, couldn't handle never seeing his Alec again.
"Alec, I love you, I love you more than air, I need you." Magnus said, wrapping his arms once more around Alec. "Don't you dare ever think otherwise." Magnus whispered sweet nothings into Alec's ear as he cried, as he gripped tight to him.
"I'm sorry Magnus! I'm so sorry!" Alec cried, Magnus just held him. Alec was still burning up, and most likely due to the fever, he passed out in Magnus' arms. Magnus tucked him back into bed, kissing him on the forehead. He then called Izzy and told her that Alec couldn't make it and that he had a fever. Izzy just agreed saying it was best for him to rest. Magnus sat back down on the bed, lying next to his sleeping angel.