A/N: Another random idea that popped into my head. Yay! lol.
Disclaimer: I do not own the television show Life With Derek.
Dear Diary:
Love's a funny thing, you know. You can fall for the person who you would expect the least. I mean, take me, Casey MacDonald. I get good grades and I am quite the perfectionist. So, you would think that I would fall for some sensible, Ivy League type of boy, right? Well, guess who I actually did fall for?
Derek Venturi. My brother.
Wait, wait a minute! I don't mean blood brother, because, ew, that would be wrong on just ... so many levels!
But Derek is my stepbrother. And if you think he's Ivy League, then I'm sorry, but you've got crap in your eyes. He's rude and obnoxious, and annoying, and mean but .. oh, when he smiles, he makes me melt into a puddle on the floor. And the way his eyes light up when he's happy, makes me instantly happy, too. Derek can do that to you, even when he's trying his best to piss you off.
I tried to deny it at first. I mean, come on. Who wants to fall for Derek? Especially when he's related to you! But finally, I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I had fallen completely, head-over-heels, for Derek. I can scarcely believe it myself, but it's true. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy just to be near him, especially when he does something unexpectedly nice for you, and you can tell that he truly does care. Trust me, those moments don't come very often, but when they do, they really make me swoon.
Okay, I know, I sound really corny right about now. Swoon? I mean, really. But I love him with my whole heart, and I just had to get it all out before I went NUTS!
I don't know what's the point in loving him. Obviously, we can never be together. He's my stepbrother, for one, and for another, he definitely doesn't care about me in that way. I mean, it's Derek. I don't even know if he's capable of love.
Okay, that made him sound like some sort of a beast. I mean, I know he loves Marti, and Edwin, and George, and even Mom and Lizzie and I. But in a family kind of way, you know? But I want more. I want Derek to love me for ... for me. I want us to be together. Too bad that there's no way that we can be together...
Casey