Chapter One

Renesmee

I awoke to the sound of snoring and birds, they were singing to great me to another beautiful day and snoring yes it was my Jacob outside the house, guarding me as he did every night. I got out of bed and grabbed my pile of messy clothes off the floor and yawned as I trudged to the bathroom. I had some serious bed head my hair was going to need some work. I combed it though as best as I could, wincing as I caught big tangles, but some bits strayed here and there, I loved make-up it was a life saver at times like today, I slapped on some foundation though according to my mom I didn't need any and got dressed into Alice's picked out clothes from a few weeks ago. She hated me wearing the same things twice but I always did, it felt like such a waste! With my jeans and brown top on I went back to my bedroom to find my mom sitting on my bed neatly made, something was wrong I could see the pain in her eyes.

"Mom?"

I announced as I came into her view though she would have heard me coming.

"Come sit down, please?" she asked, I could hear the sadness in her voice.

I moved slowly and sat next to her placing one hand on hers to show her the worry on her face, she sighed.

"I'm going to cut strait to it, but please don't get mad."

I nodded; she looked at her lap with her hair falling down to hide her face from me.

"We have to leave Forks, we have spent to much time here as it is and now people are starting to notice, we have all tried to keep away from people but it just wont work, I'm sorry."

I heard a howl of pain out side and jumped of my bed and raced though the door but as I came to the front of the house my father stood in my way

"Neisse, let him go"

I put a hand on my fathers chest and reminded him of me and Jacob and how close we where,

"please let me go see him! Dad!"

I practically screamed it at him; he sighed and moved out the way. I ran out into the woods trying to follow the tracks he had left, I couldn't run as fast as my parents but still could ran faster than most humans.

"Jake! Jake! Please COME BACK"

I ran and ran until I finally lost his trail. "Jake"

I whispered to my self. I felt a tear run down my cheek and my legs gave way under me, I fell down and hugged my legs to my chest and laid down my head so they rested on my knees and cried.

I don't know how long I was there but it felt like forever.

I felt a hand on my shoulder, it was Alice, and I jumped up and flew into her arms. She embraced me and stroked my hair

"Bella's having a fit! Why did u run so far! You know how worried they both get! Come on were going back"

She took hold of my hand and turned to walk, but I stood still.

"No"

I whispered, but I knew she'd heard

"No, I'm not leaving" she sighed and shook her head

"Come on Neisse, we don't have time for this! We have a flight booked."

My head snapped up and I looked into her eyes

"What? Were going so far away we have to fly! What is Jacob going to do! What about me!"

I pulled my hand out of hers her eyes went still and fixated, I knew that look.

"What? What did u see?" Alice grabbed my hand again but with allot more force this time.

"We must go home now, please?" I let out a huge sigh and started running with her as she led me back to the Cullen's huge mansion.

I didn't even get up the steps and I was already pulled into a hug, my mother's arms wrapped around me.

I could see Dad looking with a scared face at Alice, they were talking to each other in their minds again, then mom was pushing me to arms length

"What the hell where you thinking! And you" she jabbed a finger at Edward

"Why did you let her go!"

She was seriously angry, and she took a long time to calm down, stupid stubborn mom.

Dad smiled at my thought as he stood behind mom and placed a hand on her shoulder

"Come one Bella, she had to say goodbye, you said yours why can't she say hers?"

I shot and angry look towards my mother, she had gotten to say goodbye!

What about me, why didn't I, I loved him for Christ's sake.

Mom may have loved him once but he was mine now, I should at least have my turn to give him a hug and a kiss, I saw my father's smile fade as I remembered the time we first kissed...

We strode on the beach at La Push, hand in hand.

I was 8 at the time but had the mind of a more mature person and looked like and 18 year old.

Jacob stopped and took my chin in his hands

"How did I ever get so lucky? You know you are more beautiful than Aphrodite herself; maybe you should take her job. Actually no don't because then you can't be here with me, right now."

I laughed and looked into his eyes, so wonderful and full of love.

Jacob swallowed and laughed under his breath.

I raised one eyebrow in total confusion, what so funny?

"Jake?"

I asked completely confused now, He looked back into my eyes

"You know, Edwards going to kill me for this"

He then moved closer to my face and my lips touched his.

I closed my eyes and let the explosion happen, it was wonderful, his lips tasted like love and the musky smell that he had.

I kissed him back rapping my hands around his neck and grabbing his hair, it needed another cut but I liked it this way.

He pulled away gasping for air then continued. When he finally pulled away I let my hands slip down to his neck.

"Wow" I said as our eyes locked and his hands moved lower down my back,

"Yea, that was something" He smiled and I had to as well, if he smiled you couldn't resist smiling back.

His white teeth gleamed and then closed again as he came back for another round...

I was sitting in a chair at this point looking at the floor as I replayed this memory over and over,

Dad had left the room with Mom and I could hear them arguing quietly in the room next door.

They rarely argued but when they did it was always over something big, and it was.

I could hear my name and Jacobs's name being repeated over and over. I let my mind wander to another memory of not so long ago...

"Bella!"

I had heard Alice scream form somewhere out side

"Bella! Where in god's name are you!"

I uncrossed my legs and clambered off the bed and set down my book,

"Alice, they've both gone hunting. What's up?"

I shouted at her as she came into view just over the other side of the clearing of our cottage.

"I need to speak with her now and they are not answering their phones, what if it did happen Oh god!"

My eyes widened in fear

"Alice what are you talking about! What's happened to them?"

I grabbed her but the shoulders and shook her, but she stood still ,

"Neisse-" she started but she collapsed on the floor and behind her was a boy,

no older than 16. "Hello young one, well don't you smell rather nice?"

I backed up but only found a wall

"What have you done to her" I asked him,

He let out a evil laugh that shook the trees around us and sent a cold rush down my spine

"Don't fret dear child, I have merely made her unconscious, It's a talent of mine"

He smiled as he finished his sentence and looked at Alice, her limp body lay on the floor and her golden eyes lay open staring at the spot where I once stood.

"She looks dead"

He nodded the turned his head to me. I screamed as he grabbed my throat,

I gasped for air as I still needed a little being half human.

I felt the world going black as he crushed my wind pipe and my eyes fluttered closed as he laughed, but then something big and brown grabbed him from behind sending him flying backwards into the air.

I slipped down the wall and someone grabbed me into their arms, cold as ice.

"Honey, Renesmee can you hear me? Come on, breath!"

I recognised the voice as my fathers. I suddenly shot up into a sitting position gasping for air; I coughed hard and bent over.

My hands flew to my throat protecting it from any more harm.

"Daring, its ok we are here now. He's gone trust me."

I did and tried to get up but my legs failed under me, Dad was quick to catch me, then I heard a whimper.

The next second he was gone flying towards the boy who was fighting with a brown thing, I couldn't see what it was as my vision was a little blurred by the tears forming in my eyes.

My mom came over and sat with me stroking my hair "shh it's ok, were all fine" she reaped this a couple of times, but when the tears cleared I could see what was happening.

My father was fighting the boy along with him, my Jacob. I screamed his name and my fathers and they were fighting, I tried to run to help them but my mother held me back.

But she couldn't keep holding me for long until Dad fell down, dead. Mom screamed and ran for the boy.

He couldn't harm her, her shield was strong now, she got to father fast and he woke up.

I ran over to Alice who was still on the floor, Mom saw her too and expanded her shield, Alice jumped up and saw Father needing help along with Jacob, this one boy was strong.

Jacob was finding it hard not to fall asleep with the boy attacking him, but it didn't work the same way obviously. Mom, Dad, Alice and Jacob all lunged for the boy tearing him to shreds; it seemed to be over in seconds.

Dad came up with a little silver box from his pocket and threw it onto the body; a bright orange light came up as the body burned into ash.

Jake took me back to my rooms where I sat on my bed in silence, I stared into nothing for a long time, I let my mind wander until finally Jacob had had enough

"Come on, Please! Say something you're killing me here!"

He turned my chin and I winced and let out a small gasp at the pain coming from my throat, it had mostly healed but hurt a small bit.

He let go and my father rushed in and placed a hand on Jacobs shoulder pushing him away.

"Don't you dare hurt her! Or I will kill you myself, dog"

I stood up and hugged my father

"Stop, stop he didn't mean to. You know that,"

He nodded and let Jacob go and hugged me back and left the room.

I sat back down next to Jacob and herd shouts coming from the front room, we looked at each other and shuffled of the bed and peeked through the door. It wasn't my father shouting but my mother.

"Edward, you knew about him, why you didn't tell me. Didn't you think I'd like to know if our daughter was in danger! If we all were!"

"I'm sorry, Bella"

"And? That doesn't explain why you didn't tell me!"

"I didn't want to worry you, we thought he would pass!"

My mother dropped into the chair behind her and placed her hands in her face and grabbed her hair, she let out a breath of air. Dad crouched down and moved closer to her, he took her face and lifted it up.

"I am truly sorry; I thought I would stop hurting you. I promised you"

"I know and I forgive you" She took his chin and kissed him, it was a sweet but quick kiss.

Then Jacob coughed, I elbowed him in the ribs and gave him the 'what the hell' look, my parents looked over at both of us, I felt the blood rush to my face and all Jacob could do was laugh,

he placed he hands around my waste and pulled me closer. "Nice one babe" he whispered in my ear and I giggled.

My mom stood up with dads hand in hers and took mine, "come on let's get you changed before we take you back up to the house, Alice will have a meltdown." She took me into the bathroom and I didn't realise how much of a mess I looked. But that was the first time I'd really ever heard my parents argue so bad, I'd heard them bicker over the TV or CD choices but that was small things.

I looked up out of the Cullen's house into the woods, I would miss this, the calm outside and the wide open space, the house where I'd grown and was born.

There was a knock at the door, my head snapped up as did Emmet's and Jaspers who were watching a game on the flat screen. I jumped off the chair and headed for the door, Emmet beat me there first though, he opened the door and there stood my love. "Jake!"I heard my father cuss, I ran for him but Emmet stopped me, "Emmet! Let me thorough! God dam it, move!" Jake growled at him

"I think the lady would like to come out" Emmet's eyes locked with Jake's, this was a stare to the death.

"I think you need to leave mutt, or – "

"Em let her go, she needs to say her goodbyes" My father came back into the room without my mother. Emmet moved himself and I ran straight into Jacobs's arms. I rested my face on his chest and closed by eyes. "Help me, Jake" He rested his head on mine,

"I can't, I'm sorry; you need to go, to be with them, there your family"

"But your my love, I need you both"

"No, you need your family"

"What?"

"Please, go."

"Jake I –"I didn't get to finish as he kissed me long and hot, this wasn't a I love you kiss, it was a goodbye one.

He pulled back and ran changing into his wolf as he did.

I stormed back into the house and went out the back running back to the cottage, no one followed me.

I got back home and slammed my bedroom door like a pissed off teenager and fell flat face on the bed.

I must have been out for a few hours because by the time I awoke it was dark, I crawled out from under my covers and searched my draws for some sweats and a top, I changed in record time.

I walked into the bathroom flicking on the switch as I grabbed my towel. My face was smeared with black streaks of tears;

I washed my face clean and tied my hair back into something resembling a bun. Once I was done I threw the towel on my bed and sat at my desk,

I moved my fingers along the wood until I found my picture, our picture. Once of me and Jake caught in mid laugh while he was tickling me at La Push.

I stroked Jacobs face and closed my eyes. When I opened them Jacob was there in front of me, I gasped but when I blinked he disappeared.

I placed the photo back and moved over to my bed and crawled under the blankets. I lay there looked at the stars though my skylight.

Days passed and people came and went giving me food I refused to touch and trying to talk to me but I wasn't listening,

people were packing up things around me and soon most of my room had turned into boxes.

"THAT'S IT YOUNG LADY! I'VE HAD ENOUGH! GET OUT OF YOUR SULK AND GET OFF YOUR BUTT!"

I glanced over to see Alice hands on hips, "Wow it moves! Come on I didn't pick out a great going away outfit for it not to be worn"

I sat up and looked around,

"What day is it?"

"Friday, you've been like this for almost 4 days, come on you must be hungry or thirsty?"

I nodded "Ok one meal coming up! Oh and I've got you some clothes in the bathroom along with other things, you can thank me later."

I staggered to the bathroom and sure enough there were some grey jeans and a cream top with a brown fluffy cardigan, exactly Jakes fur colour.

I got out of my clothes and into the shower, the hot water hit me to hot but I didn't care, I stood in the water for a long time letting all of me soke away,

one I was done I slid it all on and hugged the coat close to my smelling the woods, Alice had gone all out with this. I slid on the small Healed brown boots and added the much needed make-up and hair products.

I packed it all into a box in the bathroom and walked out into the main room, I could smell eggs and bacon with a cup of my drink of course, I liked to hunt, but mainly only with him, so this would do.

"Wow that really suits you" She looked at my jacket and placed the plate of food in fount of me.

"Thank you, I owe you" She smiled, and then looked at the door,

"you have 10 mins and they will be home so you better eat fast!"

Alice danced her way out the door and once again I was alone.

I ate fast, ignoring the food as it burnt my mouth. Right on cue my parents walked in, hand in hand, I looked down at my lap as I sat on the stool.

"Hey" I whispered as my mom took me into a warm embrace.

"We need to talk, don't worry I think it will help."

I looked at dad for reassurance "It's ok" I smiled as mum took me out the back to the small pond.

I remember this story,

Rosalie had once told me of how dad had left my mother,

at first refused to believe her but now I knew it was true, she went over how Edward had left her, how he broke her heart and she was a ghost for many moths,

then Jacob helped her though it all and then she had gone cliff diving and Alice thought she had tried to kill her self, how she'd saved dad. But now she was concentrating on the Jacob parts and how a friend helped, and not so much on the happy ending.

I knew it was going to be hard but I didn't want to do what my mom did I wanted to try and make this work,

maybe I could fly back and see Jake form time to time, email him and call every night.

"Hey" mom was looking at the door now, there stood my father in his jeans and pale blue top with a shirt unbuttoned on top.

"I know this must be hard for you, but you have to let him go." He closed his eyes the opened them, the gold gaze looked into mine

"That means no contacting him" My jaw fell open and my eyes got hazy with tears , I stood up and looked at them both my lips trembling and no words coming out.

I ran my hand back through my hair and clamped my eyes shut as one tear rolled down my left cheek, then I exploded with a load of words I knew I didn't mean

"I hate you both!" I ran round the house and to the Cullen's, once I was there I saw the keys on the hook and grabbed them. I ran down to the garage and jumped in my dad's Volvo, I didn't know where to really go then I made up my mind.

As I drove I let my mind wander onto memories of Jacob and out first hug, kiss and last one...

I shook my head, it wasn't going to be the last one. I knew it wouldn't,

I jumped out the car and walked down the path to the beach where me and Jake had first kissed.

I would be at peace here; no Cullen's were aloud here apart from me, being Jacobs imprint and all.

I finally found the little spot under the overhanging rocks and the cave underneath,

I walked with my hands in my pocket until I found the carving in the wall, J + R with a heart round it,

so hopeless romantic but cute. I placed my hand over the carving and then out to the sea and the stars,

"why in such a wonderful world do things have to be so hard?"

I whispered to myself

"I don't know, I've been asking that question for a long time "I jumped and turned,

"Hey".

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