Far Away

I do not care anymore, whether I live or die.

It is illogical, I know, but, please, do not condescend to me. Do not try to tell me that it is futile to think in such a manner. Do not tell me it is pointless, that it is not what He would have wanted.

I do not care—leave me alone.

I am still young, by the standards of my people. I am merely 78 years old. I am not even halfway through my natural life.

I do not care.

It would be far too illogical, even for me, to wish to die. Though I see the appeal, I do not wish to die.

I simple do not care anymore.

This ship is the last thing that will ever know me. It will keep me until the day I die, which I hope is not far into the future. It is going to take me far away, where no one can witness my agony.

I do not want to be a burden, I have never wanted that. I simply...

I do not care anymore.

There are still people who care if I live or die... I am sure they will worry for a time. It is difficult to constantly worry about something that is so far out of sight and, ultimately, out of mind. That is the whole point of this ship.

I bought this ship with the credits that he and I had saved, over the 46 years He and I spent together. It was supposed to be our "Nest Egg" as He put it.

That is no longer a possibility, however.

I do not care if I live or die.

That is the whole point of this ship—it is taking me far away from the people who care if I live or die.

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A/N: If this was too sad for you to handle, I'll warn you that you probably won't want to continue. If you're familiar with my 5-shot (or whatever) "Across the Stars" then you'll realize that I did a short ficlet about Starlight, by Muse. I had so many people tell me that it put them to tears, that I wanted to elaborate on it. The moment it came up on my shuffle, I knew it was perfect for this kind of story. I feel like it deserves more than a couple lines, written in 5 minutes. Hopefully, I'll have the next chapter up tonight.

Oh, and sorry for even more delay, to those of you who are waiting for more "Observations" I'm workin' on it and I truly did fully intend to write a chapter over the weekend. My mouse decided to break and I was very limited on what I could do with keyboard shortcuts.

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