A/N Hey everyone! Sorry for the wait! I have been away for a while, and I had no access to the internet, but I finished this story, and I'm working on a songfic, so that should be coming soon. I had a request to write a missing moment, or maybe something following the events of breaking dawn. I thought that maybe a missing moment from breaking dawn would suffice (hopefully). It's a moment when Carlisle and Edward leave to stay in the clearing, before the Volturi come. It's a sad goodbye between Carlisle and Esme. This will be in Carlisle's and Esme's P.O.V. I hope people like this… Second chapter will be posted soon. Please review, and if you have any suggestions for other stories, I will gladly take them. Thanks again!

Carlisle P.O.V.

I've always loved the snow. The way it flutters down, almost like feathers from the clouds. The way it feels to be indoors, and watch it fall, while I'm sheltered from the cold. It always reminded me myself though, something I didn't like to be reminded of. Snow is cold, freezes hard as ice, threatens to kill, and is deceivingly beautiful. Nothing that doesn't describe me.

This snowfall is different. It's a sign, my death screaming at me. Not only my death, but everyone who holds a place in my heart, it's their death too. Everyone who has ever been a friend in a time of loneliness, they're going to be killed, because of a misunderstanding.

I should've known. I should've known that Irina wouldn't take this betrayal lightly. I should've known that eventually, the Volturi would get involved. I should've known that they would use this as an excuse.

I should've known that my family would die from this.

Maybe I did know these things; I just couldn't accept the fact that more tragedy could strike our lives. But in the end, it never matters. Because, we will fight for what we've worked for our entire lives, what we believe, what we deserve. Not only are we fighting for Nessie, but we are fighting for justice. Something, the Volturi have never heard of.

I'm not a fighter, but I will fight for the ones I love.

I do not fear my death, and I never had. Death itself is a bully. It's always teasing you, testing your strength, throwing itself at you from every direction. I do not fear it, I fear what it brings. Peace or fire, I know which one will choose me.

My family is my reason to fight, the reason I have stayed alive for so long, the reason I die. If anyone threatens to hurt them, I will take the pain, gladly. My life is the least I can give them for what they have done for me, yet I know it's not near enough. I could never give them what they have given me.

I'd be lost without every single one of them.

One stands out though, catches my eye, my heart. Her never ending love, the endless kindness, the pure overall beauty, it never fails to make me the luckiest man on to ever exist. Every single time I look at her, my eyes seem to become unresponsive, frozen in place. I sometimes consider that I'm probably insane, and I'm imagining the perfection of it all, but I'm always reminded I'm alive, that she's real, when her lips touch mine. I never feel so alive in those moments, so in love. My heart is powered by her. Without her, I'm nothing but stone.

"Carlisle." he said, appearing beside me, Edward's face thoughtful.

My back was against a wall in the attic, my knees bent and arms lightly resting on them. I don't remember sliding down to a sitting position, yet alone even coming up to the attic. I searched my memories, only remembering sitting in the living room with everyone else. I remember not being able to handle being there with everyone, I don't remember why though.

He stood there, hesitant to tell me what he wanted to say.

"We have to go." He said, determined, yet there was disbelief in his voice. "The snow, it's not melting." His voice was just above a whisper, contradicting his facial expression. These were words that I hoped would never be spoken, my nightmares coming to life.

"I know." I said, my voice no louder than his. As much as I wished I didn't know, it was inevitable. Alice told us they would arrive when the snow continues to stick to the ground. This scene was playing out in front of me. The time had come.

"You and I will have to stay in clearing for a couple days. We don't know how much time…" he trailed off. I mentally thanked him for not finishing that sentence. How much time? How much time till my family was slaughtered? How much time left did I have to hope that we could get out of this alive?

Most importantly, how much time did I have to say goodbye?

Goodbye was one of those words. Those words that carry too much meaning to bear, yet they could mean absolutely nothing. Goodbye is forever, or for nothing. Saying goodbye right now would be like indefinitely lighting myself on fire. Too much pain, too much hurt. Goodbye right now would mean forever. I couldn't say goodbye to my friends, to my family, and sure as hell I couldn't say goodbye to Esme. Never would I say goodbye to her, I just couldn't. I physically couldn't, I don't have the strength to do that.

I can't say goodbye to her.

Edward looked at me, his eyes speaking for him. He understood. He knew that I couldn't say goodbye to him, that it was too much. He didn't know because of his gift, he just knew me too well.

Would she understand?

Would my family understand why I couldn't say farewell? Would it hurt them if I didn't? I owe them a farewell; I owe them a thank you, and an apology. An apology for everything selfish I have done to them, a thank you for everything they have done for me. Could I even give them that? I am I selfish enough to say nothing? Death seems to enjoy beating me up, picking on my life, pushing me until I break.

I won't let that happen. I won't give death the satisfaction of my surrender.

"We have to go, Carlisle." Edward murmured. He stood up slowly, and quickly left. I tried to move, my legs seemed to weigh one thousand pounds. I slowly made my way downstairs, my ears tuning into the conversation taking place between everyone.

"I can't believe this…" I heard Amun mutter. "This is suicide, all of you. You are going to kill yourselves."

Silence followed his words, heavy breathing and a sigh.

"It's murder." I barely made out. Those words hit a nerve. I knew who said it, and that's probably why it hurt so much. She hadn't spoken about these things, or voiced her opinion in front of a crowd, not even in front of me. I heard heads move to look at her. Those words were the simplest, yet true, spoken in a while.

Her voice made it all the more heartbreaking.

"I am not going to kill myself." She stated. I imagined her staring right at Amun, pushing those words into his mind. Her voice was saturated in hopelessness, grief.

Heads snapped up as they finally heard me on the stairs. They stared at me with sadness as I took the last steps down. I stopped, taking in their faces, scanning over every one of my friends and family, breaking down inside. This would be the last time I would see everyone together, the last time till they are all murdered in front of my eyes. I wouldn't have another chance to say something, anything, to explain how grateful I was for them, to say sorry, to say thank you. I've never wanted to cry this much. And I almost did.

I wanted to faint when my eyes reached hers. I felt my face morph into what was overwhelming agony. I've never felt so much pain before. Not from the transformation, or the times I saw her cry. I was looking at the most beautiful thing in the world, and in a few days, she would be gone. Gone from the earth, from the thing she loves the most, from her family.

She would be taken from me. Just like that. She would be killed for a misunderstanding, a lie, the truth, from murderous jealousy. Nothing could take my eyes away from her. For, I only had minutes left to stare.

Her eyes bore into mine, more sadness and pain washing over me. Everyone was watching us, and I didn't care. I knew that if I had only minutes left, which I did, this is how I would spend them. Staring at her, imprinting her face into my mind, so I would never forget it. I opened my mouth, wanting to say something, but my voice faltered. Instead, I just let my head decline, ashamed of myself. I can't even tell her I love her?

"Carlisle?" she whispered, her voice broke.

That was it. If I didn't leave now, I was going to break. I was going to let death get the satisfaction it so badly wants.

"I-I have to go." I barely choked out. After a moment of silence, I lifted my head, hesitantly, worried. My eyes met Esme's. Heartbreak, sorrow, desperation, realization, and then fear. She was scared.

And I couldn't help her.

I couldn't help her, because lying doesn't help. Telling her that everything was going to be alright, that no one would get hurt, that everyone will be together in the end, which would be the cruellest of lies. Because I know that she'd believe me. And then when the lies become reality, her heart would break. Because she would know that I lied to her, just so she would feel hope, when really, there is none.

"Edward and I will wait for them. Everyone else will join us when the date grows closer. There's no time…" I barely heard the last few words, myself. I was trying to keep my composure now. There's no time left, so why make her hurt more? Leaving would be the best decision. I couldn't take this any longer.

I glanced at her once more before I turned to leave. Silently saying what I hoped would suffice, hoping she could hear my silence, my thank you, my apology. I headed towards the river, my feet running away from where I wanted to be, with her. My jeans and t-shirt were covered in melted snowflakes, sending an unexpected chill through my chest. I ran faster, desperately trying to run away from the monster chasing me. The monster that had sentenced his friends to die, the monster that left his world behind, scared and alone. Running from myself was difficult.

I grew more and more desperate to leave that monster behind me, but he kept grabbing me by the collar, pulling me back into what was real. Every time, I would get back on my feet, more fearful than before, sprinting towards where I thought the clearing was. I was on a breakaway, the monster behind me, but catching up. I ran faster and faster until the clearing came into view.

I slowed down, the realization of the situation hitting me harder than before. I slowed down to a jog, forgetting the monster behind me, every step I grew closer to my grave. My eyes were locked on the field ahead of me, covered in sparkling snow. It seemed like the colour was washed out of everything. White, grey, and black, were left in their place. My dark red shirt stood out among the white expanse of snow. The wind began to howl, the snow began to plummet, the clouds rumbled overhead. Everything seemed to be screaming at me, cursing the ground I stood on. The monster pushed me to my knees, taking over me, sending pain to every inch of my body. I kept my mouth shut, my body still, as I fell on my side. I became colder every second, all the pain I've felt this past month began to beat me, leaving me speechless.

I lay there, slowly turning to stone. Everything I had kept covered, caged in, was escaping. My eyes watched the storm above, as I rolled on to my back. I was beginning to realize that death's plan would all play out, all in a matter of days.

~*oOo*~

Esme's P.O.V.

He left.

Watching him leave was like having your heart ripped out, slowly, with no mercy. I couldn't move. I wanted to reach out and grab his sleeve, to pull him back to me. The next time I would see him would be in days. The next time I would see him, there would be no time for goodbyes. I could not go to that clearing every day to see him, knowing that we would die there. It would be way too much. My family needed me here, Edward needed Carlisle there. We were always being torn apart. This tear hurts more than ever. In a few days, I would be gone, my family and friends would be gone, Carlisle would be gone.

And he left without a word.

I should've known not to expect a goodbye. He couldn't say it to his family. It would hurt him too much. I could see it in his eyes, as he walked down those stairs. His dark red shirt, black jeans, and tousled hair making him look so young, breaking my heart even harder. He scanned over everyone. I wasn't sure why he was so sad, at first. But I knew he wouldn't look at me that way, unless it was the last time. I knew he wouldn't stand there, with so much distance between us, gazing at me with so much of his compassion, if he was to see me again. I knew he wouldn't say goodbye to me.

I looked towards the glass door by which he left. I could see his fingerprints. Those fingers have saved me so many times, and I won't get a chance to hold them again.

I felt my body brace itself for the oncoming pain. It came with such force; it nearly knocked the breath out of me. I froze, remembering everyone else in the room. I would not show them what I was threatening to burst out of me.

I looked up to find everyone staring at me. All their faces were filled with worry. My family, Carlisle's friends, everyone had seen what had happened. I met Carmen's gaze. She knew how I was feeling. She knew how much I needed to see Carlisle, to say goodbye, I could tell that she knew.

I wanted Carlisle to lie and tell me that everything will be alright. I wanted to tell him that I would always be there for him. I wanted him to lie to me, and I wanted to tell him the truth.

"Go." I heard close by. I looked up to see Eleazar kneeling in front of me, taking my hand. "Go get him."

I moved my head, hoping it looked like a nod. I knew Carlisle didn't want me to follow him, it would be too much for him. I didn't want to be a constant reminder of what he was to lose. But, the one thing I refused to do, was leave him without a thank you.

I ran through the forest with desperation, I ran like I would never see him again.

The clearing appeared before me, and there he was. Lying down in the snow, his knee slightly bent, one arm draped over his stomach, eyes closed, mouth tightly shut like he was trying to keep back screams.

He was the definition of a fallen angel.

A/N Thanks for reading! New chapter will be posted soon! Please review and suggestions for stories are very much welcomed!