A little back story so you understand what's going on. Santana and Rachel have been dating since there sophomore year. There out to everyone they endure a little bullying but nothing they can't handle. Santana is best friends with Brittany still but Brittany is with Santana's cousin Sara Lopez. The only things that are canon is Santana is going to Louisville and Rachel to New York with Kurt. Also sara's name is pronounced the Hispanic way, like Sara Ramirez from greys anatomy if you know who that is. And one more thing this is a martana and pezberry fic, I love both couples and and cant decide who will be endgame maybe you can help. In Santana's POV.
-manda
Today is the last day of summer before I go off to college. I should be happy but I just can't find it in me. I've been dating Rachel berry since my sophomore year and I love her more than anything but we decided on a mutual breakup once I go to Louisville and she goes to New York. It hurts I'm not gonna lie but we both decided we would be holding each other back.
"Babe, where are you?" Rachel says, taking me out of the thoughts I was so deeply in.
"Just thinking about how your leaving tommorow and I'm leaving in a week." I replied sadly.
"Santana...we talked about this. We don't have to separate, we can stay together, I know it won't be easy at all...but your completely worth it." Said Rachel.
"I know, I know. But we both know this will be best. I don't wanna hold you back from what your meant to be. Your gonna be a star one day and I don't wanna get in the way of that."
"You know you would never be in the way but I know your mind is set on this...can we just cuddle and finish watching this movie?"
"Of course babe"
As we went back to the movie I started thinking about things again I tend to do that a lot. I started thinking about everything and everybody in my life and how things are gonna change so soon. I currently live with my cousin Sara. She is from Puerto Rico like the rest of my family. She came here to America to try and better her life. She and my best friend Brittany have been in love since they were about 7 but wouldn't admit to each other until mine and Brittany's junior year and Sara's senior year. Especially since my cousin only came during the summer. Brittany was already 18 when they were dating because she got held back in 1st grade when we met. Sara wanted to stay in America and Brittany wanted her to stay to so they eloped and Sara became a citizen. Brittany is repeating her senior year so it's kinda rough at home some times. I live with my cousin because when I came out my mother did not approve at all, so I moved with her. My dad sends her money for me but she still works 2 jobs to support us. She has always been like my big sister. It's already been decided that I'm living in the dorm rooms but coming home every 2 weeks on weekends to do laundry, visit family, things like that. Me and Rachel also decided to talk and text as much as we can, but if we hooked up with anyone else or developed feelings for anyone we would be honest and tell each other. Though I honestly don't think I could ever feel for someone else. I've been with and in love with Rachel for the past 3 and a half years, I have no idea how I can see anyone else. I do want Rachel to be happy though. I still remember how we got together like yesterday. I had just joined glee club with Brittany to spy for Sue. I also still had my head up my ass. I liked Rachel since I first heard her sing our freshman year, i would never admit to it though. She was the loser glee girl and I was on my way to being mega popular with the Cheerios. I could never go for it and it made me angry and hateful towards her. Mr. Schue assigned me and Rachel to come up with a duet. I was seriously pissed. Anyways, she showed up at my house for practice and I was my bitchy self as usual. I don't remember in particular what the remark was that I made that set her off, but she stopped everything and started crying. Looking at her so sad immediately made me feel guilty. I apologized right away and kept asking what was wrong. She kept mumbling and crying so I had no idea what she was saying. I finally told her to speak clearer and at the time it felt like it was the worst mistake I ever made.
"I said, I can't believe that I'm in love with someone who hates me so much. I've been in love with you since I first saw you last year and you have been nothing but terrible to me and I wanna know why!?" She all but yelled.
I knew I should have stepped up and confessed I felt the same but as I said, head up ass. So I ran, which was strange because it was my own house. I had no idea where I was going I just knew I needed to get away from the emotions she brings out in me. I finally ended up at Brittany's and she firmly told me that if I don't go fix things with Rachel and apologize that she wasn't gonna talk to me until I did. So I found out where Rachel lived, I confessed I apologized, and kissed her to both of our surprise. We've been together since, and now it feels weird that we will no longer be together after so long, and after sticking through all we've been trough. No matter what though I will always be proud of our relationship and I know that if we are meant to be we will be together again. Anyways, for know I'm going to leave my head and enjoy the little time I have with the love of my life left.