Chapter 1
A/N: Hey Guys! This is a completely new story. Thank you xxkoekimonster for inspiring me to right this. Hope you enjoy the story!
"You are either a part of this family, or you're not"
That sentence was still reverberating through the air. Alex knew the second that those words left her mouth, her relationship with Kara was going to change.
She shouldn't have said that to her sister... But she did.
"Alex?" Maggie's soothing and soft voice, broke Alex out of her thoughts.
Alex's eyes suddenly snapped back into reality, "Hmmmm?" She hummed softly.
"You're not watching the movie" Maggie replied with nothing but concern. She was worried about her girlfriend's behaviours. The first thing Alex did when she got home, was pour herself a drink, "Do you want to talk about what happened?"
Alex bit her lip, contemplating whether it was a good idea or not to tell her girlfriend that she got into a fight with her little sister...
Was it even a fight?
It wasn't like Kara retaliated back, she simply took the heat. Kara shrugged it off, saying that Alex didn't mean it.
But of course, Alex just had to snap at her sister. She should've agreed with Kara, she should've said, I didn't mean it, I'm sorry.
But instead she snapped...
"I...I said something stupid" Alex muttered guilty. She picked up her glass cup that contained whiskey in it and took a sip of it, wishing that the whiskey would make all of her problems go away.
Maggie didn't think that there was anything in this world that could separate the Danvers Sisters. Especially not a petty argument.
"Babe, I doubt Kara will stay mad at you for saying something stupid" Maggie tried to reassure her, but I wasn't working. Alex already knew the truth.
"No Maggie... I...I said something that really, hurt her feelings" Alex closed her eyes and wished that she could take it back, "I..I practically told her that she wasn't part of the family"
Maggie, was in all honesty, surprised to hear that. She knew Alex, and she knew that her girlfriend would never say those words unless she was possessed by a white Martian.
"Why?" Maggie simply asked
Alex scoffed at her owns reasons for snapping at Kara, "She and Mon-El went behind my back and... I guess they investigated Jeremiah, accusing my father of being a spy"
Maggie already knew where there was going, but she kept her mouth shut and nodded her head. Urging Alex to continue.
"I was so...mad at Kara. She chose to suspect Jeremiah over trusting him and that just...made me so mad. So, I snapped. I told her that she's either a part of the family...or she's not"
Recalling the words, the argument that Alex had with her sister... Made her feel more guilt than ever. For some reason, it felt worse than killing Astra.
It was different, her killing of Astra, wasn't with the intent of hurting Kara. She only wanted to protect the people that she loved.
But saying whose words, out loud, in anger...with the intent of hurting her sister... God, she was a monster.
"And you know what?" Alex rhetorically asked her girlfriend who was rubbing her back in small, soothing circles, "She was right. Jeremiah did betray me...betrayed us"
Maggie hated seeing Alex like this, broken, hurt, guilty...
"Where's Kara now?" Maggie asked
Great, now Alex felt even worse. She didn't know where her sister was or who she was with. God, she hoped that Kara was with someone right now. She prayed that Kara wasn't alone.
"Nope, you are not doing that" Maggie suddenly said firmly.
"Doing what?" Alex looked at her girlfriend who was giving her a stern look. Like a mother knowing that her child is about to do something wrong.
"Doing this. Lying down on a couch with me, and allowing yourself to wallow in self-pity" Maggie shot back
"I am not wallowing" Alex replied sheepishly...even thought that was exactly what she was doing.
Maggie stared at her with an unamused state, causing her to relent just a bit.
"Kara... She doesn't want to see me" Alex was afraid that Kara would resent her.
"Jesus Alex" Maggie almost shouted, "I've known your sister for less than 3 months, and I know that your sister is probably at home right now, thinking that this is her fault"
"What?" Alex didn't know why she sounded so surprised, it was such a Kara thing to do. Taking responsibility for things that were way out of her own control.
"You know your sister better than anyone else" Maggie replied with a sense of calmness, "What do you think she's thinking?"
Alex let out a groan of frustration as she realised what Maggie was saying, "She's probably thinking that this is all her fault" she hated how selfless Kara was sometimes.
She wished that Kara would just get angry at her and scream at her, but instead she knew that her sister would think that this was somehow her fault.
"Exactly, you guys need to talk" Maggie stated as a fact and Alex was in no position to argue.
Alex groaned and stood up to talk to Kara, but Maggie grabbed her forearm, "Not now. Wait till your sober"
"I don't think I want to have the conversation when I'm sober" Alex muttered back, but Maggie just rolled her eyes and pulled her back down onto the couch.
"Tomorrow, you will go to Kara's apartment and talk to her" Maggie said
"Yes mum" Alex replied sarcastically with a small smile.
Alex was lucky to have someone by her side. Someone who she could talk to.
-00—
Kara walked up the stairs that were leading her to her apartment. She didn't realise how tiring walking up a flight of stairs was after carrying the weight of a train on her back.
She took out her keys and opened her door. She didn't realise that there was someone else in her apartment.
She mindlessly went to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water.
"Kara?"
"Rao's light" Kara jumped at the sudden voice. She dropped her water and slammed her fridge close. She turned around at an impossible speed to see Lena scratching her eyes and sitting up from her couch, "Lena?"
Lena stood up from the couch with her arms crossed. Kara bent down to grab the bottle that she had just dropped, when she stood back up, she saw Lena with her arms crossed over her chest with a stern look on her face, that suggested that she did something wrong.
"Why am I in trouble?" Kara quickly asked, she wasn't sure if she should approach Lena, or keep a distance.
Lena started walking towards Kara, her arms still crossed, and her face still poised, "I have been calling you for the past 6 hours" she said in calm and steady voice.
Kara could face hellgrammites, parasites and the worst criminals that fort rozz has to offer. But facing an angry Lena was not on her to-do list.
She thought about super speeding her way out of this situation to avoid getting lectured, but she felt like Lena would easily catch her.
"I… I was busy" Kara lied terribly
"Yeah?" Lena raised an eyebrow at her, "Because the last time I checked, you saved the train 6 hours ago. And I called Winn to make sure you were okay, but instead he tells me that you already left"
Kara felt like a child who had just been caught with her hand in the cookie jar…which had happened… multiple times.
"Right" Kara muttered, she placed her bottle onto the counter and fiddled with her glasses nervously. Lena took a few steps closer to Kara, the only barrier between them was the counter, "I just… I just needed to think about something"
Lena's facial expression softened as she watched Kara's face contort into a form of sadness and guilt. She reached over the counter to grab Kara's hand, "Talk to me"
Kara had a habit of shutting people out when she was trying to figure out how she was feeling about a specific situation. This wasn't the first time Kara did this.
Kara bit her lip, she didn't want to burden Lena with her problems, but she also knew that Lena hated it when she shut her out. She knew it wasn't fair to Lena.
"I…I did something stupid" She muttered softly, biting the inside of her cheek to stop herself from crying, "And now… Alex is mad at me"
Lena didn't say it out loud, but Kara did a lot of stupid things without thinking. Okay, maybe not 'stupid' things, but she did reckless things without thinking.
Usually Alex got mad at Kara for doing something reckless that endangered her life. It was the protective instinct that mad Alex mad.
"Babe, whatever it is, I'm sure that Alex is going to forgive you for whatever thing you did" Lena reassured, she has witnessed the Danvers Relationship first hand, and she knew nothing in this world could tear them apart.
Kara shook her head, "No" she said firmly, Lena started to panic when she saw the distant look in Kara's eyes. When Kara got like this, it always scared her.
Kara happily carried her heart on her sleeve. Too see her shut her emotions away into a chest that nobody could reach, made Lena's heart clench.
"Kara" Lena whispered, but before she could comfort her girlfriend, someone started knocking on the door. She seriously hated the interruptions.
She watched as her girlfriend lowered her glasses to see through the door, Kara didn't recognise the blonde women who was standing in a tight black coat.
Kara didn't know who the woman was, but she got a bad feeling from this and she wasn't going to take any risks with Lena being in the same room.
"Lena, go to the bedroom" She didn't want Lena to get caught in the cross fire if this woman was an enemy.
"Kara, what's wrong?" Lena hated that Kara did this to her, she hated how she always needed to be protected.
"Please Lena, just got to the bedroom" Kara pleaded, she gave Lena a pleading look, which finally worked. Lena walked into the bedroom, safe from the women outside.
She reached out to open the door to see the blonde women looking at her with a smile plastered on her face. it was weird smile, one that said she knew Kara, but Kara didn't know her.
"Kara Danvers, I assume" the blonde women spoke.
"Yes, and you are?" Kara asked as politely as she could. Something was wrong, she could feel it.
"Gayle Marsh. Or PSI, which ever you prefer" Psi replied with her arms still behind her back.
"Right…." Kara muttered, "Is there something that I can help you with?", she could feel her heart pumping out of her chest, something was off about this woman, if this girl was trouble, then Lena could be in danger.
PSI shook her head, "No, not exactly. You know, you really shouldn't open your doors to strangers" her smile suddenly shifted into something mischievous, "But who knows, maybe they didn't have doors on krypton"
Kara's eyes widen at the mention of her home planet, "Who the hell are you?" she growled
"Poor little Kryptonian. Watching children burn in the flames of Rao. Crying and Screaming for someone to save her dead planet but… it's too late. It's all gone, just like that" PSI clicked her fingers, to the human eye, nothing happened.
But something shifted in Kara, suddenly her hands were trembling with fear.
"How does it feel? Being all alone?" PSI asked
Kara grabbed her chest as she started to have difficulty breathing, "I... I'm not alone" she gritted through her teeth, she tried to take a step forward but the whole room felt like it was spinning.
PSI let out a scoff, "Really? Do you really think that your little pet Luthor will stay with a disgraceful alien like yourself? I mean, come on! You survived while everyone else died. You're a coward, you climbed into that pod and you left"
Kara suddenly collapsed onto her knees, trying to control her breathing, "I..I didn't have a choice" she cried, tears were starting to pour down her pale face.
PSI crouched down so she was looking at the shaking Kryptonian, "Oh little Kryptonian, but you see, the thing is, you did have a choice. You could've easily climbed out of that pod and stay with your family, it's not like Superman needed you"
Kara saw flashes of her home planet, she tried to shake those images out of her head, but it was becoming increasingly hard, it was almost like she was back there, on krypton.
"Shut up!" Kara cried out as she tried to cover her ears to stop the sound of children crying out for their mothers and fathers.
"Let's not forget about your sister, I mean, she hates you" PSI laughed like it was the most obvious thing in the world, "Your sister is brave and loyal… she will never betray her family but you… you are something else"
Kara eyes snapped open when she heard PSI say that, Alex's voice telling her that she was practically a traitor to the family.
"Can you hear it?" PSI asked, she watched as Kara tried to get away from her, her body shaking from fear, "The people who you left behind? How could you do that to them? How could you let them all die?"
"You're not worthy of living. You shouldn't have survived. You should have died, died like the rest of them. You should have perished in the flames of Rao. You should just kill yours—" Before PSI could finished her rant, 3 bullets rung out.
"Get the fuck away from my girlfriend"