Even in the midst of so much devastation, he still managed to send chills throughout my body with just the flick of a glance. I could look at
him, and all that is going on in this wretched world just melts away. Even after all these decades together, looking at my gorgeous husband
never gets old. Looking into his golden eyes, I'm taken back to the time before. Before everything changed, back when my teenage mind couldn't possibly
comprehend the things I was destined to discover. If only for a moment, all is okay.
I am ripped from my reverie by the sound of Alice crying. It's something we have all grown accustomed to hearing lately. Since losing Jasper, the bubbly
pixie we all knew and loved is now a vengeful woman with hatred in her eyes.
"I'll go" Edward says.
"No" I tell him "Let me."
In the blink of an eye I am sitting next to Alice in her room. "What can I do?"
"There's nothing anyone can do Bella, there's just nothing now"
She looks so devastated, so sad, so unbelieveably heartbroken. I wish so badly I had the abilities Jasper had, I wish so badly to be able to help her,
to make her feel calm.
"Listen Alice, I know it isn't the same, but there was a time where I thought I'd lost the love of my life, and I know words cannot describe the pain that
comes with that. But, you have to know, we will fix this. We will all fight to the death if necessary to avenge Jasper." Though I am now no more than a shell of
my former insecure and usure self, the gravity of what I knew was to come took me back to feeling like a scared, unsure little girl. Did we really stand a chance to
fix all that had gone wrong with this world? I knew we didn't, but we had to try not only for Alice, but for the entire human race as well.
"Bella, I am not willing to lose anymore people I love. I want to do this alone."
"Don't even think about it Alice, you know as well as I, that will never happen."
She grows even more sullen, I can sense she wants to be left alone. I can only hope if we all live through this, that Alice can find just one more true love.
The thought of anyone, let alone sweet, amazing Alice being alone for all of eternity is too much to bear.
"I will leave you now, but know that you are not alone. We all are here for you, we all love you, and we all will figure this out together."
I go outside to get Edward, but he is already outside talking to Charlie, who I assume, is there to check on Alice yet again. I know his heart breaks
for her as if she were his own daughter as well. Though my memories have continued to fade from the life I lived before, I am still to this day struck by the
difference in the human Charlie and who he is now. The choice to change him was a selfish one, I suppose. Though, I know he now couldn't imagine living life any other way,
I still can see the memories of him when he was human, telling me to let him go.
"Bella, how is she" he says.