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Miscommunication – Chapter One

Jacob / Bella

Rating M

TheMightyRen

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It was supposed to be a usual weekend, Jake's 17th Birthday was on the Sunday. He had picked me up after work from Charlie's, just like he always did on a Friday evening. He gave me just enough time to get in the shower and get dressed again. His timing always was impeccable. The dads were at the Clearwater's. Leah was 'out' and Seth had been with me and the three stooges watching The Illusionist, it had just been released on DVD, why Jake had picked that movie I'll never know. The 'pack' had wanted to do something exciting but Jake had convinced them to wait until the Sunday afternoon.

He had just pulled up in front of Charlie's, usually it was early Saturday morning when I got in, I presumed it was around that time now. He turned off the ignition, which should have immediately started alarm bells ringing. Usually I just leaned over hugged him and slipped out of the car, unless I was sleepy and then he would walk me up to the house or carry me depending how tough work had been that day. I was wide awake tonight.

"Thanks for coming tonight Bells." Turning to him I smiled widely before frowning, noticing his nervousness. We'd been best friends for almost twelve months, I knew this was going to be one of those 'we could be so much more' moments, I knew I needed to act quickly to lighten the mood and hope he wouldn't feel too rejected by my rebuff.

"Yes, because the one Friday I'm going to miss is the one before your birthday." I joked, it was too late, Jacob's eyes zeroed in on mine and I knew he was evaluating my expression. "Don't do that please, Jake," I spoke softly.

"Are you still broken, Bells?" He paused for a moment trying to phrase whatever her was planning on saying next correctly. "Because I keep looking and I can't see where you need fixing anymore." Why did he keep doing this? We were fine, as we were, weren't we?

"Jake what you have to really, really understand is... How I feel about you, what you mean to me... I couldn't imagine never having you near me-"

"Bells," It was a whine, a plea. Jake shouldn't sound like that.

"No, please, just let me finish." I took his hand off the gear shift and squeezed it, "If something happened and we didn't work out..." I shook my head, I didn't want to imagine it. "I couldn't imagine living life without you, without us being as close as we are now. You have to know we couldn't go back to where we are now."

"What if, Bells... What if that never happened, what if we never broke-up. What if I promised you I'd be here for you always, every single day – forever."

"No, Jake. Please don't do this. Just don't. It's not a promise you can keep."

"I'm going to date other girls then." He looked away from me, taking his hand from mine. Gasping I pulled my hands close into my sides. I'd hurt him, I knew it, I understood why it hurt but he just didn't seem to grasp what I was telling him. It was hard but I bit my tongue.

How could Jake promise to be with me every single day of forever? I'd already had one boy promise me that only to leave me days later. Jake was a fundamental part of me, I didn't want to risk losing him like that; I just couldn't put it to chance.

Resolved that I was going to keep him at arm's length I made sure my emotions couldn't get the better of me, I quietly replied, "That's ok, that's fine. I completely understand Jake. I'll always be here for you. I love you Jake, always will." Leaning over the centre console she pressed her lips to his cheek, it felt an awful lot like goodbye to him.

"Night Jake." She mumbled as she slid from the car and up the porch steps. Barely having taken two steps away her back was sprayed with gravel as he pulled away.

Bella didn't sleep that night, neither did Jacob.

Bella couldn't stop wondering if her attempt in keeping him close had actually pushed him away and Jacob couldn't stop thinking how she told him that she loved him and if she did what did it mean. Obviously not enough.

He didn't call her, she managed not to call him. It was a close call quite a few times. She hung out with Leah and caught up with her mom and Emily. She just hadn't had time recently so it seemed. Deciding Jake needed his space to come to terms with what she had said she left him alone.

Jake fumed and ranted, ran for three days straight. Knocking trees over in his fury and didn't speak a word to a sole until Molly walked into his garage on Friday afternoon, rolling a flat tyre. Now usually she'd make his skin crawl. She didn't today and he simply just didn't care anymore.

Jake didn't get to the bonfire that night.

Bella just wondered how much she'd actually hurt him.

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