Entry 1: Mash Kyrielight

Dear Diary,

Today Senpai and I had lunch together. Emiya is quite a good chef. I've never had anything from him that I didn't like. He made a pizza today, which was honestly impressive to me. He even made the dough and the sauce entirely from scratch! I should really ask him how he does it sometime, when he isn't busy of course.

While the event is not unique, I have lunch with Senpai and enjoy Emiya's cooking practically every day, that's not the point. It just feels nice to be close to someone who cares about you. These small daily interactions are something which I treasure. They may not be the most important or defining moments in our relationship, but they're what give me the feeling that everything is real. Without these small hellos or eating together or even just waving as we pass each other by I'm sure I'd start to feel different about everything. And so I really appreciate everything I get the chance to do with Senpai.

But…

This is really all just speculation; Senpai hasn't told me anything concrete, but I feel like something is off about them. Sometimes it feels like they're zoning out for some reason, just completely out of nowhere. Other times it feels like they're trying to hide something. Not menacingly, but like they're trying to keep some secret.

And then of course, there's what happened the other night…

I was walking past Senpai's room, and I heard crying. It was very faint, but it was absolutely unmistakable. So I knocked on the door to ask them if everything was ok. They did call back and say that everything was fine, but I really didn't think it was. I didn't want to fight them on that though, so I just simply returned to my room. The walk back felt a lot longer than normal.

I just, feel like something is wrong. And I really wish that Senpai would tell me what it is. I really want to help them! I promise that I do! They've done so much for me, no, the entire world! And yet it feels like they're the one who's suffering. I wonder just how long this has been going on. On second thought, I really don't want to think about that. The idea of Senpai being hurt, it just disturbs me.

I feel powerless.

But regardless of that, I'm going to support Senpai every way that I can. They've done so much for all of us here at Chaldea. If anyone on this Earth deserves to be happy, it has to be Senpai. So I'm not going to force the issue, since it could end up hurting them more. But I'm going to be there for Senpai even more than ever before. Hopefully they'll talk about it with me someday, but until then I'm going to continue to give it my all supporting them.

From,

Mash

Dear Diary is a story told as a collection of diary entries by the residents of Chaldea about their lives as well as their Master. I obviously do not own Fate, but I do own the idea for this story, as I came up with it. Hopefully you enjoy it. Don't expect the chapters to be too long, since they're just diary entries. Regardless though, I hope that you find some enjoyment from this.