Guys *facepalm* i fucked up. when i was uploading my new chapter for this story, I accidentally deleted my original prologue. i hope this one is just as good. *sigh* enjoy.

Prologue.

"Nami! open the fucking door!"The door bends with each force Zoro's makes against it. The red haired navigator whimpers before hurrying around the Library, collecting things of use as she went. Her dark brown eyes pouncing back and foreward between the space between her and the only door leading out. The frantic voice of her crewmember could be hear scrambling amongest eachother about who can get her to come out of the room she had chosen to barricaded herself in. She found it hard to believe hours before she had been relaxing living like she had always had been. and now she was hiding from them all. She was ashamed to face them after what she had done, and didn't know what else to do but leave.

She had planned on leaving anyway, but this confirmed that she had to go. After finally collecting some of her dearest possessions from this room, she ran towards the large sea-window on the other side of her. She rips some of the cloth from the bottom half her baggy white floral printed shirt and tightly wrapped it around her fist."Nami-Swan! calm down and we can talk about this. Okay?!"Sanji pleas, from the other side of the wooden door. She was lucky they didn't just break the door down, she knew that they were capable of doing so. But, somehow felt like they knew she wouldn't change her mind nor come quietly with them.

With a nod of determination, she turns her head sideways, as she punches a large hole through the window. It still wasn't big enough for her to fit through, so she just starts kicking and pulling larger bits off. Breaking it had large cracks going in different directions between. it made it easier to do so. The cloth around her hand made sure that she didn't cut herself.

"Nami! don't you fucking dare!" Zoro shouts, anger and panic were clear in his voice. Nami just knew she didn't have long left before he said screw it and just torn a hole through the wood and destroy part of the ship she loved the most. Even though she did just that. I'm sorry everyone.

She sqeezes her brown eyes shut as she jumps out the hole just had made. She was thankful for the small, dingy boat she had put there earlier, was still there and that she had stuck her landing. Wasting no time since she could hear the sound of the library door meeting most likely the furtherest wall. Nami pulls out her trusty clima-tact from her belt holder. She pushes the small button on the side to summon Zeus out. And within seconds she was eye to eye with the happy faced medium sized cloud-servant.

"Hello, mistress."He greeted happily, the happiness seemed to fade away as he took in her frantic expression."What's happened?"

"No time to explain. Zeus help me, I need a massive tidal wave to put some space between us and the sunny."He nods immediately starts growing the wind around her picks up fiercely. and in no time the tiny boat she's on begins to rock along with the waves forming under her. Nami reaches behind her and pulls out a fish knife to cut the rope that connected to her to the sunny. which was ironic as the thought crosses her mind it felt like She was cutting the rope that connected with her family spiritually. Tears finally start falling just as the last tie finally breaks and she's watching the one good thing in her life drifting further and further away. Goodbye...

~X~

(Four days later- inside Luffy's captain dorm.)

Dear Luffy.
let me start by saying, i'm sorry for everything. I am sorry for the way i just left like this. but, please. please understand. That i cannot continue to live with you all. As bad as it is to say, i can't continue watching you live your dreams and not live mine. it has been years and my map is still not halfway finished that's why... why i have to go. I'm so sorry and I hope one day you'll be able to forgive me. so this is my letter to let you all know, I am offically leaving the Straw-hat's. I know you will able to find a new navigator to take my place, so please don't come looking for me because I do not want you to, and a side from that i won't let you. I love you... I love you all so much. please take care of yourselves.

sincerely, Nami.

It's been four days. four fucking days, He has looked everywhere, from island to island. Above and under. she's just gone... like she never existed. and the only thing he has left... the only thing that he has left of her, the one thing that proves she did exist. Was this piece of shit letter. His hand crumples the cursed paper as his hand rolls into a fist. And let out a struggled growl of anger, as much as he read and then reread it, he couldn't find the clue as to why she had left apart from needing to complete her map. But, he didn't buy that excuse. No...No way. He just knew there was more to it. He knew in his heart that she didn't want to leave like that... not when he was holding her in his arms, here in this bed hours before. two of them had made love for the second time since he had won the battle for the one piece less than two weeks ago. He remembers how she had proclaimed her love him each time he had brought her to completion. How she had cried and kissed him passionately over and over again during each time he had come back from a fight almost unscathed.

It all couldn't have not been real... Each time he taught of those times, he cursed himself as tears blinded his vision once again. He bowed his head down to his knees. He drops the letter as he leans forward to rest his arms on his knees. Shaking his head he tries to gain control over his emotions and form a plan to find a way to get her back. He couldn't believe she had suggested that he'll find another navigator- she should know him enough by now that he was the pirate king that he wouldn't settle for less than the best. And that meant she had no other choice but to return to him when she was ready. But, that didn't mean he wasn't going to stop looking for her. There wouldn't be any way of escape from him, he has to let her know that he loves her too much to just let her leave like that. And he has to find out that if she was in danger, why didn't she come to him. He wanted- no needed answers. Like why did she wait till the only day he was guaranteed not to be aboard the sunny to go with telling him. Because it would've broken her resolve and she knew you wouldn't have let her go so easily. His inner voice reminded him and he clearly couldn't give a crap about some fucked- up resolve or whatever she had.

She still shouldn't have left this letter. If she wanted to say goodbye, she should have called instead whenever she got far enough away. This fucking letter is here to mock him, he was sure it was. But he couldn't bring himself to get rid of the damn thing...Dammit, Nami! Done with overthinking and just letting Franky and the others direct the way, Luffy finally jumps up from the edge of his bed, the same spot where he had sitting for the last two days had left a permanent dent in the mattress. Reaching over to where the nightstand was next to the top of his king sized bed, he puts the crumpled paper there and retrieves is trusty straw-hat.

His blackish brown eyes had a dangerous gleam about them as he sat the hat on top of his head and with a final thought, he runs toward the door to alert his crew. I will find you Nami...