My Only Friend
Strange what something so small can do to us. My heart? What heart. There's nothing there. I guess there might have been once, before you took it. Yes, you took it and now it is gone. You played with my emotions and took my heart. You took it away in shackles of lies. Now I'm sure I am supposed to miss it, but I like not having the aching of your uncontrollable whims tearing my shackled heart to shreds. Now it's almost… peaceful you could say. Like rain. I love rain. I love it almost as much as I loved the person I thought you were. It was not some little crush like in grade school. No. This was love. You couldn't tell the way I stuttered around you, or how my heart skipped beats when it was racing, or maybe even how I always longed to be with you. Then you became distant. You started fading away from my life. Kind of like how I am now. Lingering on the brink of life, death…insanity? It will only take a second to reach bliss, and relieve myself of the pain you left me with when you broke me. I'm almost sure you don't think about me as much as I do. How every little thing reminds me of what never could have been. I guess what I am saying is that I can't live like this anymore. My eyes have lost their shine. My face has pain engraved in it. My soul is forever lost. And yet, only my true friends can recognize the signs. Only one has, and that is my only light. My only friend is my reflection.