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Chapter 1

BPOV (Bella's Point of View)

I, Isabella Swan was not looking for love coming to Forks but what did I do when I came here? Fall in love with a vampire whose name was Edward Cullen who evidently doesn't love me back because he felt the need to leave me but I'm stronger now and I don't need him. Now I just think of him and the rest of his family that I thought loved me as a figment of my imagination. I'm not the same weak girl they knew me as.

I moved on to Jacob whom I guess doesn't love me either as he sat there, told me to go home and that he never wanted to see me again. He broke his promise that meant so much to me. That shattered me into a million pieces and then I realized that nobody wants me but why?

*Flashback*

I have had enough of Jacob ignoring me and decided to go confront him it has been to long and I wanted to help him id something was wrong. I got in my truck and left out to La Push and went to Jacob's house and spotted him outside his house and I parked my car quickly, got out and ran to him.

"Jacob"

He came to an abrupt stop and he turned to look at me.

"What do you want?"

"I just wanted to know why you have been ignoring me. Did I do anything wrong?"

"No its not you."

"Then what is it?"

"I can't tell you that."

"Why not?"

"I just can't Bella. Just go home I don't want to see you."

"No please don't do this" Now I was crying I can't believe that this is actually happening to me.

"It's already done. Leave Bella"

"But you promised." A look of hurt and pain crossed his face but then disappeared as quickly as it had come and a blank expression set on his features. I was seething. He had nothing to saw he was speechless so I decided to add in something else. "This doesn't make you any better than what Edward did to me. You're just adding on to the list of people who don't want me but that's okay because I don't need you at all!" and with that I walked away to my truck sobbing.

*End of Flashback*

He tried to call me but I ignored all of them. Maybe its because the way I look that made people not want me. I know that I'm not pretty at all I'm just your normal pale face girl trying to find someone who actually loves her.

Charlie wasn't in the house most of the time and when he was he would be sleeping or watching the game or eating. All of the time that he is out of the house I take a knife and run it across my vein on my forearm and other places around my body to hide my pain in my scars and to take away I'm feeling by using physical pain. Or if not that I would drink to pass out and make it look like I was sleeping. I would deprive myself of water and food because I thought the reason was because of my weight.

I never go out much. I usually stay inside the house and drown in my own sorrow. I rarely look into mirrors but when I do I see all of the weight that I have lost, the scars, the red, puffy, baggy eyes. I looked horrible. I know I needed to stop my ways or else I would end up killing myself.

So I decided to go out to the diner out in La Push and eat something. It's been a year since I have seen Jacob. So it was a big surprise to see him walk in alone and sit down in the booth in front of me. He looked like he was sulking about something. But why should I care he is the one who didn't want me. I always wore a sweater to hide all of my scars that are still there even though I don't cut anymore. I ate my hamburger as quickly and a quietly as I could and paid. I tried to leave without him seeing me but that didn't happen of course.

"Bells? Is that you?"

I slowly turned around and sighed

"Yes its me"

"Well you should sit down so we can talk a bit" he sounded so desperate I don't know how I could turn him down.

"Ummmm…. Ok." I sat down quickly.

"So how have you been lately Bells?"

"Its Bella you cant call me Bells anymore and I have been alright" that's a lie I have been terrible.

"Oh sorry Bella would you like to come to the bonfire we are having tonight?"

His eyes were pleading. I didn't know what to say.

"I don't know Jacob you hurt me a lot"

"Bella I'm so deeply sorry for everything that I said to you I didn't mean it." I looked into his eyes and they looked so honest. "Come on Bella I will even tell you the reason why I couldn't talk to you at all there and we are going to be swimming, eating, hearing the Quileute Legends. It will be fun."

I did want to know sense the day he told me to leave so I guess I'm going to this bonfire.

"Fine I will go" His eyes practically sparked with joy.

This better be good.

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