Walking into the barn after a long six months away seemed to be like walking back into a home that you used to live in, a lot of things looked the same, but so much had obviously changed.
To say she was worried an understatement the butterfly's that she felt in her stomach could be breaking out of her at any minute almost like she was in her own personal horror story. Un sure of what the present or future would hold for she did what she did best, she said to herself, fake it till ya make it."
To any other person it would seem that Andy had returned from her first major undercover assignment with changes only for the better. She had her head held high, carried herself with more self-confidence, street sense and overall fantastic cop but to those who were closest they could see that something inside was breaking and that all was not the same with Andy McNally.
As her assignment had drawn to a close, the reality of what she faced coming home began to settle in the pit of her stomach although she always knew it was possible that he had moved on, her heart told her that he would be waiting for her when she came back, he had said he loved her and if he meant it he would wait. Although it broke her to leave it would be good for them, he wasn't sure when she left, and he made a joke, on the day that she could have died no less, then tried to fix it again. If he meant it he would be there and she would have that drink and never look back, despite their differences and their messes they had always had one another's back, a strong bond that no one else could understand and that would be what brought them back to together and kept them together, this is the one thing she knew she didn't have to fake it to make it.
With her present and future unclear she did what she did best, it was not that she was running from him, but running to get a head start on being with him. As soon as she was done with her debriefing and paperwork, they could start, at least she hoped how that would happen like everything else was up in the air but she would try, and together they could hopefully find their way back to one another.
The disappointment she felt when she learned that Sam wasn't on shift for the next couple of days was manageable, she had heard that he had become a detective but not much more than that, she figured it would be a good time to make sure that she got her all clear, her life semi back on track then head towards fixing what was now broken between them. She had gone to appointment with the shrink, given the all clear much to her surprise after only 2 sessions, but with the requirement that she attend weekly for the next 6 weeks until her staff Sargent and herself felt she had fully managed to regain her life. 3 days after being back she was coming onto shift Nick beside her as they made their way towards the locker room, sleep had seemed to come periodically over the last couple days, the anticipation and overwhelming urge to go see Sam, thinking about everything that might happen that could have happened that….wow she thought to herself I really do ramble. With a smile and a nod they separated at the locker rooms, Nick was more than a friend to her now he truly was the brother she never had, having him with her, made her feel strong, and confidant and today she would need that. As Andy changed and headed towards the coffee station to fill them up for their long-awaited first shift back, it was like a bolt of lightning suddenly hit her knocking her back slightly, her eyes glazed over, her head shook, her eyes began to tear, her heart had just skipped a beat, as her eyes fluttered to a close the last thing that her mind saw was Sam kissing the officer, he had moved on.
It was only seconds, seemed like a moment stopped in time, before to arms came up under Andy to help stop her fall. When her composure returned, yet again only seconds, she looked up to see the shining eyes of Nick, worried and stoic.
"Hey, hey stay still "Nick said as he held his grip firm on her waist
"I'm fi…" Andy mumbled before Nick cut him off
"Don't tell me your fine, you know you're not, what happened?" Nick took that moment to look over his shoulder and see Sam with HER, "let's get to parade and you can fill me in after ok"
With Nick helping her, Andy sat down beside him, his arm rubbing up and down her back as she tried to put her feelings to the back of her mind, still dazed they were off in their own world of silence that they had become accustomed over the last six months to see Sam enter behind them, his look unreadable, his eyes however told a different story, pain.
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