The Lover after Me

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Chapter One

It's such a wonderful day for me. Today is my second anniversary with Fuji. It's been two years since he accepted me as his lover. It feels a bit odd wearing this tuxedo. Fuji told me to meet him at the Rose Garden Restaurant; it's a classy pub where the elite people gather. I think he wants to have a romantic dinner, so I bought some red roses for him. I bought something special for him, too. I want to make this an unforgettable evening for him.

Before I walked in the pub, once again I took a look at the small black package in my pocket. Once again I tried to gain all my confidence back. It's the day. I'm going to propose him. He's going to be my fiancé. I want to be his forever, with him always. Then I saw him, he was wearing a black suit, he looked so gorgeous. He must be the most handsome man; he is even more beautiful than any lady there. I'm so lucky to have him.

"Tezuka, you look great."

"You look so gorgeous, Fuji." I couldn't tear my gaze away from his eyes, he is just too gorgeous. 'Tezuka just take your time, after tonight he'll be yours forever. You can have all day to stare into those beautiful eyes. Get a hold on yourself.' Lucky for my I've realized it, so I started to do what I had to do. "It's for you." I handed him the roses. His cheeks turned simply red for a split second. He is so cute. Much too cute.

"It's so beautiful. Thanks, Tezuka."

"But, you are much, much more beautiful." I gave him my deadly sly smile and a little wink.

"Tezuka…" He was blushing. He is just so adorable. Just makes me love him even more.

Then we had dinner and did some talking. I was just wondering when I should propose him. I just can't help myself. All I wanted to do is to hug him right here, right now and ask him 'Fuji, will you marry me?' But, something tells me to wait. He asked me to come so there must have been something important that he wanted to tell me. And I got to know what that is. Maybe he wants to propose me? No way. He couldn't. But, it will be cute if he does. Without realizing it a grin formed on my face.

"Tezuka, what are you thinking about?"

"Ano…" That snapped me out of my thoughts. I was grinning to myself just now. I must've look like a fool. Kuso. "Fuji, there's something I want to ask you." That's it I can't help it anymore. I just have to tell him now. It's now or never. I. Have. To. Propose. Him. Now.

"Nani?"

"You asked me to come here. Is there anything you wanted to say?" Kuso. I'm loosing my confidence again. Can't say it. But I got to say it.

"Well, there is something but…"

"Ano, Fuji…"

"But, it seems you have something too. Go on."

"No, you first."

"No, you first."

"You."

He chuckled. "We're not going anywhere. Come on. You go on."

No way. I can't say it. I'm getting nervous. What if he rejects me? A sweat drop fell down. Me? I got nervous? Yes, he is the only one who can do that to me. "Okay, let's do it the old fashion way. Let the coin decide." I took a coin out of my pocket. "Heads or tails?"

"Tails."

I flipped the coin. We looked kind of silly here, playing coin flipping in the middle of a modish place. People are starting to look at us with odd expressions. Well, I don't care about them; they don't know how important this is to me. "Tails. You go on now."

"Okay…" Suddenly his cheerful expression changed. He opened his eyes, those gorgeous eyes, and looked serious. "Tezuka, I…" Hey, could it be? Is he really going to propose me? "Tezuka, I'm going to move to New York."

"YOU WHAT?!" That just slipped out loud of me. And this time everyone turned their heads to us followed by a big 'hush'.

"Hush, Tezuka don't yell."

"Fuji, are you serious?" I felt all my hopes just sank; all that's left is emptiness. I've cursed all my bad luck. I should have proposed him long before.

"Well, yes…" He hung his head down. And that sad expression came back to his angelic face.

"How long?"

"I don't know, maybe one year. Maybe two or maybe… I really don't know, Tezuka…"

"Then, how about me? How about us?"

"I… I don't know, Tezuka… Calm down. But, I'm sure we can work it out.  As long as we still feel the same. As long as we love each other. We can meet on holidays. And you know there is the thing called the phone. Or you can send e-mails. Or sms or…"

"But, it's not the same, Fuji. I can't hold you by phone, e-mails, sms or whatever. I can't have you in person. I want you here, by my side. I don't want…" I started to panic, but then I didn't realize what happened next. The next was the worst. And just blame my stupidity.

"What are you trying to tell me, Tezuka? You're afraid that you won't love me anymore if I'm not here? That you don't want me if I'm not here? That you don't love me enough to wait for me? That you…"

"Fuji… I don't…" I got a bad feeling about this. God, don't let it be what I think it will be.

"Well, fine! If you don't love me that much, if you don't want me… let's end it right here. Good bye, Kunimitsu Tezuka."

"Fuji… don't…" God, I'm so miserable. Damn, for my stupidity.

"Here, take back your roses. Give them to some one who can be by your side always. Cause I can't." Then he left me. He left me, on the day when I should have proposed him. The same day we broke up. It should've been the happiest day of my life. But, it's the most horrible day of my life. I lost him. Lost him for sure…

***

"Well, well, if it isn't Kunimitsu Tezuka, still as charming as always." Here he is, just beside me. Alone. A sly smile crept on my face. I wonder where his annoying boyfriend, Fuji, is. And he's a bit… drunk now. It's peculiar to see 'the dear captain Kunimitsu Tezuka' drunk. Maybe I could do something about that. All these years I've been waiting for him to be mine. But, that good for nothing boyfriend of his is always in the way. Syusuke Fuji… Just wait and see, Tezuka will sure be mine, well, at least for tonight. It's just my lucky day. And with that the smile on my face appeared to widen.

"Who are you?" I took a seat beside him. He looked kind of drifting. Drunk, of course. That look in his eyes what is it? Sadness? Pain? Regret? I don't know. Maybe I'll just ask. Usually, drunken people are easy to talk with; they just babble everything we ask. Well, at least that's what happens to me when I get drunk. Experience is the best teacher, they say. You will know when you've experience it personally. So, don't ever be afraid to do something new. So, then I'll go and ask him about it. Ah, I am such a genius.

"Tezuka-kun…" I cupped his face in my hands. "What happened?"

"None of your business. Go." His eyes looked unfocused. Yes, it's obvious he drank too much.

"Tezuka…" Huh, it's not as simple as I thought. I took his hand in mine and squeezed it a bit. I love the feeling of his warm fingers in mine. "I know you have a problem. Tell me. I'm you're friend, right?" His eyes tried to focus on me, trying to recognize who I am. Come on, Tezuka-kun, guess. Who am I? I am your number one secret admire, well, for now it's not secret anymore. Another smile spread on my face.

"You are? Don't have friends. I'm a jerk. Pathetic jerk. Good for nothing jerk." Sure. He really drank too much. Really too much. He doesn't even recognize me. That made me kind of upset. Well, what was I expecting? The Captain will only remember that jerk, Syusuke Fuji. I hate him so much.

"I'm your best friend. Tell me. Does this have anything to do with Fuji?"

He slammed his fist on the table. "Don't you dare call his name in front of me! Over. Everything over. Nothing to do with me. Nothing. It's over. Just over." Then he laid his head on the table. He looked really exhausted. Maybe he was in this condition for hours. Then I catch sight of a small black package that he clenched in his hand.

"Tezuka-kun, what is in that box?"

"Box? What box? Oh, ring. I proposed. But, it's over."

"Can I see it?" Oh, so he wanted to propose Fuji, but he was rejected? Something like that? That made him drunk like this? That stupid Fuji even rejected such a beauty like Tezuka. How more stupid can he be? Poor Tezuka. If you proposed me, I would never reject you. Too bad you fell in love with that guy.

"I want to throw it away. No use." What? Throwing away a diamond ring? Is he crazy?

"Hey, my dear Tezuka, I know you're upset. But, don't throw it away. I'll keep it, if you allow me to. I would be delighted if you let me. Please…"

"Yeah… Take it. For you. Take it. No use for me. No good. It's over. I'm such a jerk. Pathetic jerk…" And he kept murmuring incoherent words. Then I saw him. Syusuke Fuji at the entrance. Suddenly an idea glanced through my mind. I put on the ring, as I saw Fuji walking towards us. Then I shifted my seat closer to Tezuka.

"Tezuka…"

"What are you doing?"

"I'm just…" I flung my arms around him. And I leaned on his chest. And I trailed my fingers on his lips.

"…" He looked confused. But, because he's too drunk he couldn't think straight. Kunimitsu Tezuka, tonight you're mine. No one would get in the way. Not even Fuji.

"Tezuka, I love you…" Just in time as Fuji came to our place, I kissed his lips.

***

Was I to hard on him? But, I was just so disappointed about the way he took it. Well, maybe he was upset, too. I was too tough on him. Maybe I should apologize. And we'll find our way out of these problems. And we can start it all over again.

"Moshi, moshi, Tezuka… I…" I called to his cell phone. It was so noisy there. Where is he? Noisy place…. Home? No, it couldn't be. Mall? Some kind of place with many people in it… Umm, hotel? No. A bar? A pub? Oh, shit…

"Helllllooo… who is it?? I'm so miserable today… " Hey, he sounded a bit drunk. No way, he promised he wouldn't go to that place again. He always gets drunk if he feels upset. But, I made him promise that he won't go there anymore. Oh, of course. He isn't my boyfriend anymore. So, he can do anything he wants. Okay, I'll go there. And this time I'll fix everything. And I'm going to do it damn right.

I drove the car to that place. The place I hate the most. I hate it because every time Tezuka comes here he ends up really terrible. I just can't stand looking at him when he's drunk. I took a deep breath before I entered. And I saw him. Sitting at the corner. All drunk. Awful. It can't be... he's with…

TBC