Okay, this is my first attempt at Malec. I apologize beforehand if it's a little OOC. I hope you like it. By the way, this is an AU/AH story.

Disclaimer: I don't own the Mortal Instruments or any of the characters. They all belong to the wonderful Cassandra Clare.

Alec

Pain. Just a little and then the rush.

He closed his eyes and let his body soar. He sighed as he went so high he could almost touch the sky. A small smile formed on his lips.

He loved this; the feeling of weightlessness. He didn't have to think or care about anything. All his troubles went away.

A father that hated him; hated who he was. A mother that was never home. A sister that only cared about herself and her new boy-toy. A brother who couldn't return his feelings. Another brother, too young to know the pains of life.

He didn't think about any of that. He just enjoyed the rush that his drug of choice today gave him. He didn't even know what he was shooting up, he just knew that it got him high. It made him forget. That was all he cared about right now.

Sitting on the cold tile floor in his bathroom was starting to hurt his butt though. Ever so slowly he stood and disposed of the evidence. The used needle went into his backpack, the small baggie that once contained that drug that was now rushing through his veins went into the toilet. He flushed and left the small bathroom.

He trudged to his room, trying not to stumble as the world around him spun.

Collapsing onto his bed and rolled onto his back and stared at the ceiling.

Ring.

Who is calling me? They're ruining my high.

He rolled onto his side and dug his phone out of his backpack.

Magnus Bane the phone flashed.

Sighing he took the call. "H-hello?"

"Hello gorgeous!" came Magnus's chirpy reply.

"What do you want Mags?"

"Aw, I love it when you call me that, blue eyes."

Alec resisted the urge to roll his eyes. "You didn't answer my question."

"I wanted to call you and talk. You skipped out on the last two periods of school again. Is something wrong?"

"No, everything's fine." There was no way he would ever tell Magnus that he skipped school so that he could meet up with a dealer.

"Are you sure? You sound odd."

"Just tired and I have a headache."

"Oh, want me to come over? I can think of a way to cure that headache of yours," he replied suggestively.

"No thanks Magnus. I think I just need to sleep," he lied knowing that he wouldn't sleep for another good ten hours or so. He'd be lucky to get in an hours worth of sleep before he had to wake up for school tomorrow.

He groaned at the thought. Maybe he'd just skip again.

"Are you sure you don't want me to come over, love?"

"I'm fine Magnus. I'm just gonna take a nap. I'll call you in a few hours, okay?"

Alec could hear Magnus sigh on the other end. "Okay. But if you don't just know that I will come over whether you like it or not. Call me at six or so, but no later than six thirty."

"Okay. I love you."

"I love you too, blue eyes. Now get some sleep."

After hanging up with his boyfriend he closed his eyes and lay his head back on the pillow. Despite the drug that was currently coursing through his veins with every beat of his heart he drifted off into a dreamless sleep.

Magnus

The clock read six thirty five and still there was no call from Alec. He contemplated calling his blue eyed love, but he did sound exhausted when they talked earlier. He picked up his phone from the table beside the pink couch where he was currently residing. No new or missed calls.
Not even a text.

A soft meow pulled his concentration from the phone in his hand. The little ball of fur jumped onto the couch and crawled up into his lap. "Hello Chairman. Do you miss Alec as much as I do right now?" The cat didn't respond instead it nuzzled its nose into Magnus's lap and purred contentedly when he started to stroke it.

Magnus sat there waiting for a call that wouldn't come for another ten minutes and then he stood, much to Meow's discontent. "I'm going to go check on him." He pulled on a pair of black Doc Martens and walked out of his apartment and into the streets of Brooklyn.

A twenty minute cab ride later and he stood on Alec's front doorstep. He ran the doorbell waiting, hoping, for someone with black hair and blue eyes to open up. Instead someone that was quite the opposite opened the door.

"Jace, where's Alec? Is he here?"

The golden boy blinked. "Yeah, he's in his room. He's been in there all day."

"Good." Magnus walked past Jace and headed to Alec's room. He knocked softly on the door but didn't get any response. Wow, he must be more exhausted than I thought. Poor thing.

He turned the doorknob surprised that it wasn't locked. Alec was laying on his bed, his mouth opened and he slept. Magnus smiled at the sight of his sleeping beauty.

Careful so as not to make any noise, he crept to the bed and brushed Alec's hair from his face. He leaned down and ever so gently kissed his love's cheek.

He noticed something was a bit off. Alec's breathing was shallow and erratic. He leaned back suddenly on high alert. "Alec? Alec, baby, wake up."

He touched Alec's arm and began trying to shake him awake. "Alec, love, you need to wake up please. Please, wake up. This isn't funny anymore." He began shaking him harder, the bed creaking with the effort.

Alec stayed oblivious to Magnus's efforts. Alec wasn't the heavy sleeper out of the two of them. He should have woken up. Something was wrong.

Magnus began looking around the room for any pills that Alec could have taken. He knew that he had a bit of an addiction to sleeping pills, but he stopped that when he met Magnus. He turned his backpack inside out; dumping all the contents on the floor. A syringe fell out and landed on top of some textbooks.

Oh no. He didn't! He wouldn't! He said he was done, he was clean. Oh god, Alec.

He grabbed Alec's arm and looked for any evidence of an injection. There in the crease of his right elbow were several red dots. This wasn't the first time Alec had shot something up. This had been going on for a while.

Hurt filled Magnus as he felt his heart break. Why did Alec hide this from him? Why did he lie? Didn't he know that he could tell him anything without fear of judgment?

He shook his head to clear it. He didn't have time to panic now. Alec needed help. He gently picked up his boyfriend as if he were made of glass and carried him from the room. "Jace! JACE LIGHTWOOD GET UP OFF YOUR LAZY BUTT AND HELP ME!"

Jace came trudging around the corner of the hall. "Yeah, what's up?"

"Alec isn't well. Hail me a cab."

Concern filled Golden Boy's eyes. "What happened!?"

"I don't know! I think he overdosed on something."

Jace opened the door for me and I followed him out to the street. "Overdosed? You mean, like, on drugs? Alec doesn't do drugs. He hates them."

"Look, I'd love to stay and chat, but Alec needs help. Now hail me a cab or get out of my way!"

Jace took Alec from my arms despite my protests and took off tuning down the street. "Just where do you think you're going with my boyfriend!?"

"To the hospital!" he called over his shoulder.

I kept up with his pace as we ran to the hospital. /Man, I am not wearing the right shoes for running!/

As soon as the hospital was in sight Jace put on an extra burst of speed and ran right into the Emergency room. "Help! Please, my brother overdosed on something! Please, someone help him."

A few nurses surrounded Jace, taking Alec from his arms. They laid him on one of the beds there in the emergency room and began poking and prodding him. Another nurse was talking to Jace. Magnus just stood there, unsure of what to do or where to go. All of it seemed surreal now. Watching nursed swarm Alec's pale body, machines with tubes and wires being hooked up to him.

He didn't even realize it when Jace started talking to him. He only broke out of his reverie when Jace gently touched his shoulder. "Magnus, they said he's going to be alright. He got here just in time."

Magnus's vision started to blur for some reason and he lost his composure. He leaned onto Jace's shoulder and sobbed. Jace awkwardly patted his back as he cried out all his emotions. "He'll be just fine Magnus."

Alec

Beeping. There was this annoying beeping. It was a steady beeping and it was annoying the crap out of Alec. He tried to move, to open his eyes and find the source of that annoying noise. His body was too heavy. It was like his veins were full of lead instead of blood.

Beep, beep, beep, beep.

Slowly he became aware of an uncomfortable feeling near his nose. He turned his head just slightly to get the thing away from him.

"Alec," a familiar voice gasped. "Alec, darling, can you hear me?"

He felt someone's hand find their way into his hand. "Squeeze my hand if you can."

He slowly flexed his fingers. Another gasped filled his ears. "Hey baby. Now try and open your eyes. Please. Let me see those gorgeous blue eyes of yours."

Eyelids fluttered open and his mind was filled with the image of gold-green eyes. Eyes that took his breath away every time he looked into them. He tried to speak, but his voice was hoarse and dry. All that came out was a weak cough.

Magnus gently stroked his hair and face, smiling. "There they are."

Alec saw tears forming in the corners of Magnus's eyes. He slowly lifted an arm and brushed away the tears with his thumb. "Don't cry," he mouthed.

Magnus's tear ducts, however, didn't listen to Alec. More tears formed before Alec could brush them away and fell down Magnus's cheeks.

Magnus dropped his head on Alec's chest and sobbed. Alec stroked his hair. It was down and not spiked like usual. "Ba-by...don't cry...please," he croaked.

"H-how can I-I not cry w-when y-you almost d-d-died!?"

"I'm sorry...Mags. It was an accident."

Magnus looked up at him suddenly. His eyes were bloodshot and puffy. Alec realized that he also wasn't wearing make up, which was odd for Magnus. "An accident? Alec you overdosed on heroin! How did you get a hold of that stuff? Why didn't you tell me that you were still doing drugs? Don't you trust me?"

Alec looked down. "I'm sorry Mags. I don't know how it happened. I did give up the sleeping pills for a while. Then I just, I got introduced to the Lady and she was so nice to me. She took away everything."

"Alec, heroin kills people. It almost killed you. I thought I would never be able to see those beautiful blues again."

"I'm sorry Magnus. I just didn't care any more."

"You didn't care? You didn't care about me?"

He looked up tentatively and met Magnus's eyes. "I do Magnus. I love you."

"Then why'd you try and kill yourself? Alec, tell me, please," he begged.

"I don't deserve you Magnus. I'm a junkie. I'm not gorgeous. I-I will never be enough for you Magnus. You deserve someone so much better than-"

He was cut off by Magnus's lips on his. They were just like he remembered. Soft and pliant against his own. Although now they tasted a bit salty because of the tears that Magnus had shed. He didn't fight when Magnus's tongue asked for entry into his mouth.

He never wanted the heavenly kiss to end but he needed to breathe. He gently pushed Magnus's face back and took a gasping breath.

He was satisfied when he saw Magnus's breathing was also uneven. "I love you Alexander Lightwood. Don't ever make me think about having to wake up without you for the rest of my life again."

Alec nodded and kissed Magnus again lightly. "And I love you Magnus Bane."

"I'm going to get you some help, love. You're going to be okay."

Alec nodded again as he felt his eyes sting with tears. "Are you in any pain? Do you need me to call the doctor?"

He shook his head, clinching onto Magnus. "No. Don't leave me. Just hold me. Please."

Magnus carefully crawled onto the hospital bed with Alec. He wrapped his arms around the frail body of his boyfriend and gently stroked his side. "Shh, it's okay, love. I'm right here. I'm not going to leave you." He felt Magnus's lips on his head and he closed his eyes.

"I love you," he whispered.

"I love you too Alec. Get some sleep baby. In the morning they'll release you and then we'll get you some help."

Alec nodded and slowly drifted off to sleep.

Okay, that's it. My very first Mortal Instruments/Malec one-shot. Hope you guys liked it. R&R please.