Of course I loved Emily, that was obvious, she was my best friend for a start. Although I would never admit it, Em was my favourite. I don't know why I kissed her, it just felt right at the time. Me and Em were close and well, I knew she wanted to. She was like that.
I felt bad though, sometimes, all the time, I don't know. It meant a lot more to her than it did to me. Emily was so needy, so sensitive. I guess that was good though, it was nice to bed needed, by someone at least. Anyway, regardless of what I felt, I was doing this for Emily. I knew her secret, I was helping her out.