ok having an issue with my account not sure what's wrong so set up a new account..so I can't update and can't tell if this fic has already posted so... I'm gonna update again with all 3 chapters. Then hopefully get sorted out and give me time to see if anyone reading it or not! Thanks hope you enjoy reading x
Caroline bent over the desk in her office, letting out a large sigh it had been a long day and an even longer week.
John had been a total prick turning up drunk most evening hurling abuse although he seemed to forget he was the philandering one and the reason to their problems. She had always been the dutiful wife who had gone with the flow getting on with whatever life through their way always the strong one. She had always been the mother and the father Johns only contribution was disruption and paying the occasional bill. Really looking back she wondered why she had allowed herself to become so bogged down by it all! She didn't need him other than for the conception of her two beautiful boys who had made the mundane miserable existence in her marriage worth it.
She had never done anything for herself always others came first it was for her mother she chose John it was his decision to start a family, his ambition to be a writer than led her to Sulgrave as she now was responsible to up holding the lifestyle they had all become accustomed to now he'd changed his career path. It was all for the boys the smiling when she felt like tears and so alone so deeply unhappy, for the boys shed stayed with he had thrown it all in her face all the hard work of ,making there marriage work sleeping with that drunken very uncharming boring women.
She was lost in her thoughts as she reassembled the papers on her desk, unaware of the eyes upon her from the door, a small cough made her swim back to reality as she turned to see who had interrupted her inner thoughts.
She couldn't help but let a small smile flicker over her face as she saw the beautiful face smiling back at her, a sight for saw eyes she had noticed more and more how she had become transfixed with this beauty over the last few weeks. Surprised anything could make her smile at the moment but just her presence made her feel warm reminded her she was still confused her greatly she had assumed her feelings were because somebody had taken time to notice her for no other reasons than to be friendly. But the more time she spent with her the more she was unsure of her growing feelings once upon a time shed felt something similar but now ... had it always been there did she even know herself anymore that she had pretended to be something she wasn't for so long she had forgot and this special person was awakening every fibre of her being?
She smiled again "kate" she spoke softly "can I help you with anything"
Kate stepped into the room taking in Caroline's beautiful face the dimples that formed in her cheeks when she smiled the small flush that spread over her cheeks moving her gaze down to her neck and towards the bosom of her body where her shirt gapped slightly, letting her eyes travel down her shapely legs in those breathe caught in her throat she had never seen anyone so desirable her whole body tingled she wanted to move closer she could feel the pull so strong.
"um I just wondered if you were ok you seemed ... not your self today well for a while and I was concerned wondered if u fancied a drink I've had a rubbish week maybe we could share our stresses over a bottle of wine or two?"
She took a breath maybe this was a bad Idea she thought she knew she was married and straight why was she putting herself in a position to get hurt she knew this could never go anywhere... yet something had niggled at her she had noticed Caroline gaze when she walked by and in the staff room something was pulling her in.. this women was intoxicating her senses.
Caroline took a breath she shouldnt she had the boys to fed and john to deal with when she got home why had she let him come back to stay at hers there was bound to be drama just what she needed. She looked at the papers on her desk she had enough paperwork to do without having to sort it all back in the correct order before embarking on trying to sieve through it..
Logically her workload and everything else was telling her to say no she didn't want to confuse the boundaries of employer and employee and yet, looking into Kate's caring beautiful face she felt as though the barrier had already been crossed shed seen through her fake smile, she had come to extend the hand of friendship and she needed stepped closer into the room Caroline took a breath..yep there was that too she was fully aware her body tingled almost ached to bridge the gap between them to be close to couldnt deny sh was besotted with this stunning women who stood before her but no she couldnt be and if she was she must not be..
"yes ?"
Shit what did u do that for Caroline the words had escaped her lips almost on impulse without thinking.
"great yeah illI'll meet u at the pub in fifteen I'll drop my car home so can drink"
"ok sounds good the Camden arms?"
"perfect"
kate smiled yes you are just that Dr Elliot "PERFECT" she though as she turned around and left the office.
caroline sat down her heart calm down its just a friendly drink you are allowed to have friends to have a life it's ok.. she muttered to herself getting her phone out to text william plans and walked to the office door picked up her things and locked it behind her.
Part 2
The sky grew darker outside as the two women chatted as if they'd know each other for such a longtime, Caroline couldn't help but feel warm inside like the future was no longer scary that she knew there were still things in the world to make her feel good about herself. She listened to Kate talk about her life and how her marriage had broken down and how shed always knew she wasn't destined to be with a man. She saw Caroline's reaction and shifted further from Caroline, she had been stupid how could she have misread the signals she had know Caroline was straight but never had she imagined to have seen that reaction from Caroline.
caroline shifted un easily as Kate talked about her sexuality the more she spoke the more she couldn't fight the images of when she had been with a women it had felt so different than with john so right like everything fitted. It made her feel uncomfortable the reason she had buried these feelings so long ago was because she was scared to see others reactions there judgements on her lifestyle to live with people staring and talking about her, the fear she had gone along with what her mother wanted for her .. To marry john and settle down. Only now being so close to kate she realized she was struggling to fight the need to touch her to close the gap between then but her inner struggle of conforming not wanting to be different raged inside her.
seeing Kate's face she didn't want kate to miss-understand she understood kate more than shed ever liked to placed her hand on Kate's I... I.
No Caroline it's fine I shouldn't have gone into it.." why shouldn't you?" Caroline allowed her hand that sat on her lap to touch Kate's leg she saw the beautiful hazel eyes alight. "I understand" Caroline whispered moving her hand up higher. She had no idea where this new self confidence was coming from maybe it she was fed up of being a prisoner inside herself and for once was going to through practicability out the window and have what she wanted, or maybe the three bottles of wine they had devoured in the last couple of she felt alive she felt her body tingle as Kate's hand met hers and stopped it in her tracks there eyes meeting ablaze with desire. The last bell rounded in the pub "fancy another drink at mine " kate asked she was unsure what was going on but as Caroline nodded she hoped she knew where this was leading and shed never felt more excited, nervous, HORNY in her life.
we can walk to mine, save a cab? Caroline nodded as they reached the outside of the pub they knocked into a group of men coming out shoving them closer together against the walL as they wolf whistled towards the two women pushed against the entrance.
Caroline could feel her heart pumping as if trying to escape her rib age, she could feel Kate's breathe upon hers she could feel her stomach jolt thinking of the possibilities which could happen this very second if she was brave enough to make the lost her nerve drawing herself back apologizing.
Kate felt herself on fire god she was so damn sexy those moist lips and those flushed cheeks from the cold, shed felt Caroline's breathe felt her anticipation.. What had stopped her closing that gap? She knew how she felt god if shed had her way she'd have ripped Caroline's clothes off a hundred times in the last few weeks and ravaged her on the desk then and there until she screamed for felt her body tingle at the mere thought of touching that delicate pale skin, allowing her hands to take in every curve every mole very tiny detail drinking her in. Taking her breast in her mouth as her fingers ran over her stomach tantalizingly close feeling Caroline's stomach flip at the desire for her hands to move lower and take her to oblivion.
she returned to the present feeling flushed Caroline was watching as she licked her lips before pulling herself away.. No shed had too much to drink she should go home.
kate I'm sorry but it's getting late I think I should get back to the boys check Johns not causing problems but thank you for a lovely night, see you Monday"
kate felt her unease " oh! Ok, I'll wait for you to get a taxi then" Caroline saw her disappointment her confusion "it's ok there is a taxi rank just down the road" Caroline felt herself regaining her control her frost demeanor reappearing the shields going up bolting her into self preservation, had she been thinking she had led kate up the garden path and no had changed her mind confusing her, confusing there friendship their working relationship. Fuck! Caroline why to always bugger things up, she screamed at herself.
They walked in silence to the taxis and exchanged a rather formal goodbye as each went there own way.
Part 3
As kate shut the front door behind her she kicked it , blown that one then! Pushed it but she seemed to be on my wave length god straight women why do I even look there way I always get hurt. She intended now to not dwell on it try just be friends knowing that shed tested the waters and they were too turbulant for her to she lay in bed her mind wandered to her once more she let her hand slip beneath the sheet she couldn't help it the same fantasy had played out in her mind over the last few Elliot was like a drug and tonight had made it worse she felt how her hand had stroked her leg with purpose a silent tribute to Caroline felt something too. she moaned into her pillow as she pushed herself over the edge, she wouldn't give up!
Caroline rolled over again god she was restless thank god it was Saturday tomorrow because it was nearly dawn and shed yet to succumb to sleep.
she could see her lips wet and moist hear her voice, see her smile watch as she flicked her hair out of her face. God who was she kidding she was falling for Kate her problem now was her body ached in approval but everything else screamed no! This wasn't her she was professional, married yes separated but married and she was STRAIGHT! She so wanted to believe she was straight it's just a crush she thought to herself finally getting up and walking quietly downstairs to make a coffee.
Both women sitting on the fence over the weekend Caroline in her inner turmoil of what she wanted and need against what shed been programmed to do.. And kate knowing she wanted Caroline but not wanting to push her, she didn't want to loose her friendship but she so desperately wanted more.
both spent the whole weekend picking up their phone to ring one another and talking themselves out of it.
Monday came Caroline groaned as she got out the car god she h oped she didn't have to see her today she couldn't deal with that, hearing her mothers voice echoing about not getting involved with people at work.
She walked to her office telling Beverly she was mega snowed under and could she keep disruptions to a minimum.
Kate sat tapping the table she had given Caroline all weekend and yet she had spoken to her, she wasn't at assembly as she usually was and not in the staff at lunch. It reached 2.30 she had a free period there was nothing for it she needed to know where she stood, so slowly gracellfully walked down to Caroline's office.
She found Beverly on guard "Sorry she's very busy"
"oh ok" she sighed heavily "I'll tell her u want to see her" " do t worry not important" she mumbled aware Caroline was probably avoiding her as kate walked towards the door to leave Caroline's door opened "I've got a few minutes Kate" Kate sucked in her radiant smile smiling back she slowly followed Caroline into her office Slightly confused After not hearing anything all weekend.
Caroline shut the door and before kate had a chance to breathe Caroline pushed her against the door her mouth found Kate's. Soft tender passionate kisses as their lips connected again and again. Kate could feel Caroline's chest rise and fall rapidly as kate ran her hands over Caroline's back. Breathing in her scent felting her hand moving across her 's hands fumbled at her shirt pulling it from the constraints of her skirt letting her cold fingertips relish the touch of Kate's bare skin dancing higher settling her skin on fire with her seductive touch.
Kate exhaled her body pushing towards Caroline's her hips grinding against Caroline's pelvis her passion her lust exploding. Caroline felt her body on fire as she felt the heat of Kate's body against her, she sank in deeper to the kiss allowing Kate's tongue access into her mouth as the kiss became more heated more urgent. Tasting her hot breathe mingled with hers they fitted together so well she wasn't suprsised shed felt there chemistry since they met but last night jezz!
Her hand traveling higher up kate abdomen until it reached her bra where she cupped it caressing her breast allowing her fingertips to tweak her heard the moan of pure pleasure escape Kate's locked lips she felt her need rising she felt herself moisten between her legs as she became more turned on. She never been this aroused ever sleeping with john.
The need to breathe brought them apart as they breathed heavily there eyes transfixed to one another the gaze so deep as there bodies pulsed trying to regain composure.
Kate opened her mouth but nothing came out Caroline smiled "wow!" Kate began to laugh "well yes that's one word but I've got a few others" the both laughed "what does this... Um.. What do you..?" kate struggled to articulate "I'm not sure I want you that's all I know"Caroline blushed "this is a bit new to me" she looked down ashamed "I shouldn't have it will make things difficult"
kate walked forward lifting her chin so there eyes met once again "do you want me, because I want you! " Caroline saw the burning reflected in her own eyes into Kate's "yes!" She whispered.
kate smiled and briefly let there lips reach again there moans escaping both their mouths. "want to come to mine later" kate asked her smile beamed at Caroline "yep Caroline smirked back leaning in to nuzzle at her neck "I want you in so many ways"she lips locked again as they edged back to the door once more kate pulled back "I have a lesson in a minute" she pulled away stay there she put her hands up to distance them." God I've wanted you for so long I need to go before I ravish you hear in your office like I've dreamt of doing" Caroline feigned a look of mock horror laughing "really?"
"god you don't know how sexy you. Are she reached forward pecked her on the lips tonight!
Tonight, Caroline replied as kate almost ran from the office down the corridor.
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