He was always so horrible to her, every time he spoke it was some barbed comment about how incapable she was. And yet she just couldn't stop herself from thinking about him. Her eyes shut and his face was behind them staring at her. She couldn't focus properly when she saw him, she tried to be better than she was, she knew he was watching her every movement judging her. She just wished that she didn't always feel so incapable in front of him, why couldn't she just fall for the sibling that was nicer, that liked her too ? Why was she falling for Alec, he can't even stand to be in the same room as her half the time. But tonight would be different, tonight would be an Alec free night, Magnus had invited her to a party tonight, well he'd invited all of them but Alec would be working and Clary was determined to have a good time. Simon was going with Issy which meant Issy was now in getting ready mode and that extended to Clary too. Issy kept chucking dresses at her and they spent a good two hours getting ready. Issy had just left and Clary was about to follow herself when she caught a glance of herself in the mirror. Her hair rang in beautiful orange ringlets and her makeup was dark and smokey. Leaving the room, she bumped straight into Issy talking to Alec. Clary stood there awkwardly waiting for someone to speak and when they didn't she began the conversation. "So um.. What do you think ?" Clary asked, suddenly nervous now that Alec was here. Issy was comlimentary as usual but then she asked Alec what he thought and Clary thought she'd die right then and there as he looked her up and down. She felt arousal rocket through her body and a soft blush come to her cheeks as he just said fine and walked away.
"He'll come around you know" Issy voiced as they grabbed a taxi from the institute to take them to Magnus's. "No he won't Iz he hates me and I just feel so stupid, feeling this away about him when he can't even look at me" Clary felt tearful as she told Issy how she felt. Issy had already known she had a thing for Alec but it was just getting out of control now. She was sick of feeling so lousy over some guy who was never going to like her. Pasting on a smile she turned to Issy who looked like she was going to say something but Clary interrupted her by asking her to pass the champagne they'd gotten for the car journey. If the boy she liked didn't want her, she'd find someone who did, even if it were just for the night. Luckily for her Issy let the subject drop and they drank champagne and gossiped aimlessly until the car slid to a stop outside Magnus's apartment. Magnus's apartment was sleek, not that she would have expected anything less from him.
Saying the password at the door they walked in, picking up a glass of pink liquid as they made their way through the throngs of people. Issy left Clary go hunt for Simon before he got turned into a rat or something by one of the drinks leaving Clary to fend for herself. Clary glanced around for a minute, spotting Magnus she decided to go and say hi. "Clary Fray what a pleasure to see you again darling" Magnus drawled in his effortless tone as he saw her approach. They discussed simple topics for a while like the weather and Magnus's new party themes before he got dragged away by some poor person who'd been turned into an animal by one of the drinks. Heading to the bar Clary slid into one of the stools and ordered, planning on getting drunk tonight she ordered a lot of weird drinks. She watched as the bar tender lined up the shots for her, they looked like a rainbow, a very weird and very glittery rainbow in some cases.
Clary had only made it through one of the shots when she realised this wasn't making her happy. All she could think about was Alec, so calling a taxi she headed downstairs. Stealing Issy from Simon she told her that she was feeling great and was going to head back to the institute for the evening. Issy just looked sad for a second, telling her to feel better and that she was staying at Simon's this evening. Heading back Clary started crying in the car, all her emotions were just flowing from her, her anger at Alec, her love for Alec and her feeling of inadequancy compared to the rest of the shadow hunters. Walking into the institute Clary saw Alec stood in the kitchen, all of her anger at him suddenly flared back up at him. Taking off her shoes Clary became a little dizzy, chucking them against the wall she stumbled towards her bedroom. "Clary !" Alec shouted as his arms wrapped around her saving her from hitting the floor. Clary's head was still spinning as Alec brought them both up so they were standing straight again. "Are you alright?" he asked her as he released her from his grip. Wrestling herself away from him she glared at him saying "Why do you care ? You hate me and I can't even figure out what I've done" Clary felt tears well in her eyes as she turned away from him, pushing her bedroom door open she sat on the bed, feeling the tears slip down her cheeks. She heard his footsteps follow her, they were brisk and harsh against the stone floor as he paced towards her bedroom. Stalking in she saw the glare in his eyes contradicting his words. "I don't hate you Clary, God your so blind sometimes you can't even see whats in front of your face." His voice had risen in pitch and it stoked Clary's emotions as she angrily retorted back. " Your always critiquing me, I'm too stupid, I can't do this and I can't do that but you never even give me a chance. All I'll ever be to you is a stupid silly girl who can't do anything for herself. And you know what, I don't even know why I feel so attracted to you, your so rude and horrible to me and yet all I can think about is you. God I just feel so stupid only I would fall in love with someone who hates me." By now Clary's face was covered in tears and she had to lean against the wall to support herself, sliding down it she shut her eyes on Alec only to see his face behind the shut lids. "Clary... Clary please look at me." Her eyes opened stunned at the softness in his voice. "God I... Clary I'm not very good at this kind of thing. I'm not good at sharing my emotions with people, I don't hate you Clary how could I ? When I'm in love with you. I thought you and Jace where a thing and it hurt me a lot. Everyone always chooses him, I'm sick of living in my brother's shadow and then you come along and I knew I wanted you. You were so strong even when you didn't know what you were doing. And today in that dress... Gods I love you Clary Fray". Alec had sunk down on his knees next to her as he spilled his heart and soul out to her. Clary turned to look at him as the tears slowly stopped flowing, she was scared but she knew what she had to do. If he rejected her, she wasn't sure if she could take it. She leant over him, tilting her head up so that her lips touched his softly, asking him if he wanted her. Alec groaned as he felt her lips graze his, but it wasn't enough he wanted more, swiping his tongue along her mouth he asked for entrance and she happily opened her mouth, their tongues dancing together fiercly as his hands roamed her body wanting to learn every inch.
Standing up Alec held his arm out to Clary helping her stand, but the minute he let go she fell to the floor. "Clary what did you drink at Magnus's ?" She didn't seem drunk but she was having issues standing. She tried to remember back to the party, the name of the drink eluded her but she told Alec what she remembered which was that it was a pale blue with bright fushia pink glitter running through it. Alec groaned when he heard what it was, he knew it immediatley and he also knew that there was no way the bar tender should have served Clary the drink. Wrapping his hand round her waist he picked her up bridal style and began carrying her down the corridor. "Alec what are you doing ?" Alec didn't answer as he strode towards the room, opening the door he slid Clary onto the black sheets of the bed. "Wait, Alec is this your room ?" Alec shut the door before locking it and closing the curtains as well. "Well Clary I know you've had a lot to drink but yes this is my room. I would have thought that was fairly obvious." Alec chuckled at the dazed girl on his bed, the stark contrast between her fair body and the dark silky sheets beneath her. "Do you know what I drank ?" She asked him curious now about the drinks side effects. "Yes I do, you drank a truth serum but a very particular kind, it means that you tell the one you love how you feel about them and let me guess Issy recommended it before you went. Clary thought back and she laughed a little at Issy's matchmaking skills, she had indeed recommended the drink to Clary saying that it would make her night fantastic and in a way Clary supposed it had. She reached over to Alec hoping to draw him into another kiss but he just placed her hand down. "I can't do anything now, not with you like this it wouldn't be real and I need it to be real. I need to know that everything your doing is because you want to not because a drink had a weird effect on you." Clary pouted, sad that she wasn't going to get any more wonderful kisses from Alec tonight. "Can I stay here with you tonight?" Clary knew it was a bit of a risk but if she had even a chance of him saying yes it would make it all worth it. Alec looked over at her, he didn't want to let her go not now that he'd finally got her in his arms. "Yes of course you can my angel" he whispered in her ear sending shivers through her body, Alec smirked as he felt them ripple along her skin at his words. Getting up Alec went to the bathroom and came out in just his boxers, they were black which was no surprise but the slight bulge in them made Clary quiver. "Um..." Alec chuckled at her speechlessness before sliding under the covers. She decided to get a little of her own back, if he could tease so could she. Getting off the bed Clary made sure to strip off the dress slowly letting it fall to the ground as Alec's eyes swept across her body, walking over to Alec's dresser she pulled out one of his training shirts, putting it on she slipped her bra out from underneath the top so she was just in his top and her knickers. The look on Alec's face was pained as she got into bed next to him, lying with her face resting on his chest as his arm wound round her back hugging her to his side.