Title: What to say
Author: Tainted Gemini
Rating: PG 13
Warnings: slight slash.
Pairing: Kurogane/Fai
Disclaimer: I don't own Tsubasa or the characters of Fai and Kurogane Clamp do.
Description: Set before Kurogane wakes up in his world after considers what to say to his friend. Please r&r
What to say
I stare at you lying on that bed both willing you to wake up and wishing you would sleep awhile longer. The truth is I have no idea what to say to you, it is actually funny, considering before I lost my eye and made myself distant, you spent most of your time telling me to shut up, and when I did I knew it hurt you. I am sorry, but I had to do it, both for my own selfish reasons, and to stop you from being hurt even worse.
I wonder if I should greet you with a smile, a joke, a silly nickname, should I be cold and distant, should I run while I have the chance, or should I just be me. I suppose there is no point in running, you already know everything ,plus I think you would probably find me, and drag me back you are so forceful.
I need to thank you; the only thing that I know for certain of is that. You will probably brush it off, or insult me for it. Maybe you might actually listen to what I am saying for once, instead of listening to what is between the lines, or listening to what I am not saying. I always hated you for that, it is an infuriating talent you have, but I also love you for it.
Should I tell you my real feelings for you that I think I might be in love with you? Or should I keep it to myself, and not risk our already fragile friendship? I cannot be sure of what you would do or say to this, I am good at reading people even you, but you keep things hidden from me all the same, and one of these things, is your feelings for me.
You always seem to be able to see in me what I do not want you to know, do you watch everyone so closely or is it just me? Could it even work? Do I want it to work? Will you even continue this journey? I know I will I have things to atone for. I cannot leave Sakura like this; her soul stuck in some dream world her body dying, because of me. I do not want to leave you; I cannot leave you so you just have to come with us.
Okay so I have a lot to say to you, but should I say these things. Do I have the right to after all my lies? Will you even listen? So I am back to what to say to you. Maybe I should just make it up as I go along. I mean that is what our relationship has been from the beginning, me coming up with ways to annoy you on the spur of the moment. You may not have enjoyed it but I certainly did. Spur of the moment it is then.
Thanks for reading