A/N: This is my first foray into the Glee fandom. While I am inclined to prefer other characters, I seem to feel more comfortable getting into Quinn's head at the moment. I've got a dilemma when it comes to Quinn. I almost want her to be my favorite character, but at the same time knowing that she lied so readily to Finn makes me want to hate her too. So, well…I don't know. We'll see how it goes when it comes back on in Spring. Now that the whole thing is out in the open, I might actually take a real liking to her. Anyway, enjoy! R&R! Thanks! –Mac
So I wrote this a long time ago, as you can tell. Right after Throwdown I think, when Sue reveals that she knows Quinn is pregnant. Just wanted to make that note, cause now that the back nine have aired, this is definitely a bit on the AU side.
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee.
Kindred
"I cannot do it all on my own"
Since she had found out she was pregnant, Quinn had felt more alone than she ever had in her entire life. It was funny because that was the day she found out she was never going to be alone, at least for the next nine months. The life growing inside of her would be tagging along where ever she went. But she felt like she was the only one in the world who could understand—no one would sympathize with the stupid cheerleader who got herself pregnant after cheating on her boyfriend with his best friend.
Her life was falling apart and she had no one to ground her. No one was there to keep her from floating away in the current. She had Finn sure—since she had told him the transparent lie of how he had fathered her child, he had been playing the part of loyal boyfriend, shouldering his portion of the responsibility. But she saw the way he looked at Rachel. That distant longing lingered in his eyes for hours after seeing the girl. And Quinn knew that as soon as he put two and two together—or cracked open a biology book, or mentioned her fallacious story to one of his not-academically-challenged friends—he would be gone too. And once he left her all along who would she have in her corner? No one. She had done enough leaning on Puck—that was what got her in this mess to begin with. She didn't have any other real friends. She would be all alone.
But the longer she was in the Glee club, she found the other members attaching themselves to her side. Never in a million years did she ever think she could call those people her friends, but it seemed they were all too willing to fill the positions. Rachel, especially, was there for her more often than she would have imagined. Sure, Quinn could see that Rachel was still interested in Finn as more than friends, but she was holding onto Finn more for herself and the baby more than for her love for him. And even if her boyfriend and new friend were to start something, she needed all the support she could get and that meant ignoring their chemistry.
After the truth came out, they had circled around her. The weak protecting the weak she supposed. They were all kindred in a way. They had their imperfections, they were all different. Perfectly imperfect. But she was growing so dependent on them that she was afraid that they would come to their senses and leave her too. But she knew she couldn't do it alone. So she was holding on tight.