Lily, I love you.
We were young when we first met. I knew you long before you knew me. I showed you what you are. Helped you understand. You're not a freak to me, and you'll never be. You're different. You're special to me. I love the way you stand up for me. I love the way your hair falls down over your shoulders. I love how your bright green eyes smile at me.
My life was awful until I met you. You saved me, you know. You made me forget all the shit going on at home and made me smile and laugh. The fire inside me has only grown bigger over the years. We've both made new friends. No one understands our friendship. We have a special bond, which nobody understands. Not even you, I think. I can make you understand, but I'm not brave like you are.
Brave. I should have known you'd be a Gryffindor. Bold as you are. I know to appreciate that. You have some really good qualities. Always seeing the best in people. I should have told you right away how I felt. How I still feel. Yes, I know. You don't feel the same way. I guess that's why I didn't tell you. I'm not brave as you are! I'm a snake. Lying and tricking my way to the top. I bet it's too much to ask, but can you forgive me for that? Can we start over again?
Beginning when we were kids. I'm sorry I lied. I should have told you about the hate for muggleborns. I didn't think about it. As I've said, you're special. You have always been special to me, from the first time I saw you. I love you, Lily! Please don't leave me. If I could change the past I would! You knew I would. Don't you?
Lily, I love you.
Remember when we first met? It was on the train to Hogwarts. You hated me already then. It continued like that, but I never gave up on you. Good thing, right? I could have anyone I wanted, except you. Which, I guess, was the main reason I wanted you so much. I still love you as strong as I did then, don't get me wrong. It was the competitiveness kicking in, keeping me fighting for you.
I was so jealous. Why could Snivellus be so close to you and not me? Stupid, yeah, I know. But it's the truth. You remember you told me not to lie to you. I thought no one could ever change me, and then you came along and I was a new man. Thank you. That's one of the many reasons I love you. You make me want to be a better human.
I wish I could just hold you all day long, breathing in your scent. Have those emerald eyes looking up at me. I'll never forget the first time I made you laugh. It was the best feeling in the world. I try hard, way to hard, to make you laugh everyday. I love it when you point it out. Never stop. You're not afraid to speak your mind, and I appreciate that. I need you to keep doing that.
I don't know how I can say I love you so you will understand. Just never leave me, okay? Without you life isn't worth living. I hope I don't live to see the day you die, 'cause it would ruin me. But at the same time I truly hope I'm there, so I can hold your hand and make it all go away. Lily, I love you. Don't you ever forget that!