She still thinks about the day she and Austin met. But she doesn't look back with glee or smile at the thought. She mentally smacks herself. It was bad enough that Trish was involved into this. Now she has Austin and Dez to worry about.

The four of them were inseparable now. Austin and Ally obviously had feelings for each other and everyone knew it. When they broke up Austin and Ally decided it was mutual. Although Ally had external reasons for breaking it off. She was saddened by their break up yet relieved. No one besides Ally's dad and herself knows the reason.

Lately she felt weaker and she could feel time was getting closer to an end. Before Ally had met Austin she was diagnosed with Lupus. She has lived so far with Lupus for four years. Her symptoms are usually easy to hide. Her most common symptom is her knees swelling. When this happens she just wears longer dresses. Having Lupus it is hard to go into the sun light and that's the real main reason she hates the beach. Sometimes she gets really tired or her joints hurt.

"ALLY!" she turned from writing in her book to see a very excited Austin running in the store. Ally hates her self for staying friends with him knowing she's a time bomb. Every day she is closer to a casket. She recently got a record deal and Austin got back from tour. Even though Ally is finally getting the stardom she has always wanted all she wants is to end it. Because no matter how famous she gets, it will not change what's going on. Now she was involving fans too. This was not going to end well for anyone.

"Hey Austin. What are you so excited for?" she asked.

"I just found out the mall has a new restaurant its called…"He was cut off by Trish walking in saying, "Guess who got a job at Pan You Dig It?" Trish was smiling and wearing a pancake on her head.

"Trish I was just about to tell Ally about that place. Thanks a lot. But anyways it is a restaurant all about PANCAKES!" Ally thought he looked so cute grinning ear to ear. That nearly slapped her in the face. It hurt her so much seeing them happy. What was she doing?

"That looks like a win win." she tried to sound happy for them but her latest doctors appointment had her on edge. Her dad interrupted her rain of thought and nearly exposed everything.

"Als what did Dr. Danes say at the appo…." He froze as he looked up from the trumpet he was holding and saw Trish and Austin looking confused and worried. "Oh heeyyyyy Austin and Trish. How are you guys doing? Nice weather isn't it? Oh Trish are you working at the new pancake place. Austin have you heard of that place yet. Gotta go." he disappeared into his office.

Austin and Trish looked dumbfounded . Ally was horrible about lying but knew she wasn't ready to tell people yet. She didn't know what to do. Austin broke the silence. "Ally what was he talking about. Why did you go to the Doctor? Is there something wrong?" the color drained from his face as did Trish.

"Uh of course not. It was just an everyday check up. You know." she sniffed and turned away to gather herself. This was really hard for her. When she turned back to them they still had not gained their color, so she continued her lie. "I have always had tonsil problems and they have been bothering me again so I went in for a check up. Dr. Danes said it was fine and just gave me some antibiotics. They already feel better." Ally put on her best smile. Although their color came back they still didn't seem convinced. Luckily Dez barged in with a pie and a stuffed giraffe.

As he explained the his situation Ally zoned him out and wrote more in her book. Only when she was with Austin was she able to write happy upbeat songs. He kept her mind off of reality. A tear slid down her cheek as she wrote without her even realizing it. Though she did not realize everyone else did. Austin wiped it away and Ally looked into his eyes. Tears stung as they begged to pour down her face but she would not let them. Instead she did the thing she should have done along time ago. Raising her head more to see all their faces she said, "I decided to apply to the school in New York again and got accepted. I leave tomorrow. Sorry but I have to go pack." She did not look them in the faces as she strode out the store leaving the three most important people in her life behind. Once she knew they did not follow and she was out of sight Ally let the tears fall. Ally really hoped they believed her lie yet again.

On the walk home she finally stopped crying and called her dad to recon. On the third ring he answered.

"Hey sweetie. Sorry about earlier. I left because I did not want to make it worse. But what happened before you left? The guys looked scared. Austin most of all." he was silent, then realized something. "Did you tell them?"

"No. At first I told them I had a tonsil appointment. Then I couldn't fight the feeling things were only going to get worse. So I told them I'm leaving tomorrow to go to that school in New York. I walked out before they could protest. Dad what am I going to do? I feel like every second I make it worse." Mr. Dawson had got used to the fact he was going to lose his daughter. He wasn't happy about it but being upset all the time was only going to make it harder on his daughter.

"Ally I can't tell you what to do. Hell I have never been in a situation even close to this so if I wanted to I wouldn't now how. I will tell you the most common over rated speech ever. Honey, just follow your heart. Listen to your heart and it will work out. If it is meant to be it will be." He quietly laughed at himself. Soon Ally did to and next thing you they were loudly laughing at nothing. A moment like that had not happened in a very long time. This phone call helped a lot more than she had hoped for.

"Thank you dad. I'm home now so I will see you later. Love you." they had never really said I love you when they hung the phone until recently. They don't know why they started it but for some reason it helped. "Your welcome sweetie. See you later after work. Love you too."

Ally walked into her house and plopped down on the couch. It wasn't until she sat down that she realized how tired she was. Within seconds she passed out. Lately all she had were nightmares but then she had a wonderful dream.

They were sitting in a meadow basking in the sun. It was perfect. Austin lay next to Ally with his eyes closed. His hair was shining in the sunlight. It made Ally. It was if Austin could sense her smile because he smiled too and opened his eyes. He propped himself on his elbow and looked down at her.

"Ally you are so beautiful." he stopped and his smile faded. "But why couldn't you just tell me. If you would have told me, then I would have been able to prepare myself for what happened. Ally I lost you. I thought you were in New York but then I saw you dad and he told me you were gone. I didn't know what to do. I lost you then I lost it. Why? I miss you so much. I.. Ally I l…ALLY…ALLY.

Ally woke with a start. Austin was yelling her name and banging on her door. Now or never Ally thought. She stood up a little dizzy but shook it off. As Ally opened the door Austin had puffy eyes. It looked like he had been crying. Austin never cried unless he and Dez had just watched a chick flick. Ally gulped. After staring at each other for what felt like hours Ally broke the silence. "H-hi Austin. W-what are you doing h-here?" she spit out. "ALLY!" he screamed scaring her. He realized this and calmed down. "Ally. What is going on? Why didn't you tell me? When did you decide to leave?" his voice rose again, "WHEN DID YOU DECIDE TO APPLY AGAIN? WHAT ABOUT YOUR CAREER? WHAT ABOUT…" he took a breath and calmed down, "….us?" He looked scared and hurt. Ally couldn't take what she was doing. This reminded her of her dream. She decided to listen to her heart. It was telling her to tell everyone everything.

"Austin. I'm sorry but I lied. Please forgive me." she pleaded. "There is something I need to tell you. I need to tell everyone. But I am scared." she let out breathlessly. Now she was looking at her feet. Slowly she met his gaze again and it was unreadable.

"Ally just tell me. Please?"

"Austin I don't know how. I-I-I…" Ally was a white as a ghost. Then she realized the longer she waited the worse she would make it. "Austin I'm dying…dying to tell you I-I love you." She couldn't believe herself. If anything she just double her problems. Damn it Ally why do you always do this. Austin was blank. Then all of a sudden he changed. He reached out his arm and pulled her close. Austin pressed his forehead to hers and lightly placed a kiss on her lips. She was taken aback when he did it again Ally was prepared and kissed back. Soon Austin deepened the kiss and begged for entrance. She allowed it and tangled her hands in his hair.

Even though Ally was living her fantasy she couldn't help but feel guilty. She felt like a complete ass. But he took her train of thought in a totally new direction. Austin held her close tracing the inside of her mouth with his tongue. He lowered her on the couch. Ally made the first move by playing with the hem of his shirt. He stopped and removed his own shirt. Her mouth flew open. She had never noticed how beautiful he really was and this made him smirk widely.

Austin found his way up her shirt massaging her breast. Not able to handle himself anymore he ripped off her shirt quickly. He kissed he lips again softly and then moved down her body. As he nibbled on her neck she moaned. Austin looked into her eyes and told her the one thing that scared her, "Ally I love you so much and I always have. It was only recently I noticed it and I'm sorry it took me so long."

Right then reality hit Ally like a brick. She lost her color and pushed him off of her. This hurt him.

"Ally what's wrong is it something I said?" he looked heart broken.

"Austin I can't do this. I haven't been completely honest. For your own sake please tell me you hate me and you never want to see me again. Leave and never come back. Do this for me. I am not good for you. I will only hurt you. This is not a love story. If it were it would be Romeo and Juliet and know one wins in that one. So please, please, please leave." Ally begged as tears poured down her cheeks.

"W-hat? NO! Never, I can't. I won't. Being without you would kill me. Ally please what ever happens I am not leaving you. Ever. And I would rather be your Romeo any day than to never see you again. I meant what I said." He looked angry but was holding it back for Ally's sake.