Hey guys, I know that I only posted one chapter and I have not changed it or added a new chapter for ages but that is mainly because I didn't have any reviews and I lost interest and I didn't have any motivation. PLEASE REVIEW (not trying to sound desperate) even if it is short. It helps me keep motivated which is good for you because it means more updates!

Here is my updated version of Chapter 1! It isn't really changed much but it's really just to refresh my memory!

SORRY FOR MAKING YOU WAIT SO LONG

Chapter 1

It had been exactly a year since Charlie had died in the hospital room because Ruby and Brax turned off her life support and today Brax was not handling it so well. All of his memories of Charlie came flooding back and all the things that could have happened between them. Charlie was the love of Brax's life and he had lost her because of Jake Pirovic and even after a year the pain had not gotten any easier. He blamed himself and it didn't help that nearly everyone in the town did to. Yesterday he had told Natalie that they weren't gonna work in fear of him coming home and finding her hurt because of him.

BRAX POV

I walked up to the grave with a fresh bunch of flowers in my hand. There were many other bunches and although it had been a whole year since she had gone, coming here was still so hard. I had pushed Natalie away yesterday because Adam had reminded me that I hurt people and so I had decided that I didn't want to come home one night and find Natalie on the floor just like I had found Charlie. I reached the grave, bent down and placed the flowers carefully down. "Hey Charlie, how are ya? I miss you and about all that stuff about Ruby, I really feel like I have let you down, I mean I should have looked out for her more than I did and I'm sorry." I sat there for a while looking out towards the ocean when I heard footsteps behind me. When I turned I saw Bianca there was tears running down her face.

BIANCA POV

It had been a year since I had held my grudge against Charlie and she had died before I could say that I was sorry. During the past year I had lost a baby, got married, separated and some things that I would just prefer to forget and now Heath leaving me that message and I could kind of see that my life would hopefully be getting better, well after everything that's what I hoped but then I realized what the date was. As soon as I realized I felt like I was falling in a black hole because for the past year I had been pushing my guilt so far in the back of my mind and today was just bringing it to the front again. I walked up the hill crying just hoping that if I said sorry again it would make me feel better when I reached the top I noticed a figure sitting facing the ocean and when they turned around I realized it was Brax.

He stood up as I came closer. "Hey" I whispered. "Oh Bianca" he sighed and pulled me into a hug. The tears came faster when he held me in his arms and we stood there for a while until slowly the tears started to slow down and I stepped back and walked over to Charlie's grave and sat down. A few minutes later Brax joined me and we sat in silence for a while when suddenly he spoke up. "I really miss her Bianca and it's been a year and the pain has not gone away." "Yeah, I know I still feel so guilty that we were fighting before she died" I replied. "Yeah well not as guilty as I feel," he continued. "It's my fault she's gone, if I had of stayed away from her then she would still be here." "Brax you need to stop blaming yourself for this. You made Charlie the happiest woman. When she was around you she was really happy and without you she was …" I stopped I didn't know what else to say.

BRAX POV

I was surprised when Bianca started telling me it wasn't my fault and comforting me. I mean this, whatever it was between me and Bianca was nice because in a strange way we could relate to the feelings about Charlie. We both felt guilty; the difference was that she could handle it a bit better than me. Well at least before today she did. She didn't put a gun in front of Geoffrey King and tell him to shoot him and she didn't turn to alcohol. We sat there for a few more hours talking and communicating about stuff that wasn't really important but it felt so good to just talk to someone kind of like the way I used to talk to Charlie. Soon enough it was getting late so we both got up and went our separate ways. When I got home I went straight to bed and lay there unable to sleep until the early hours of the next day.

Yesterday when I had told Natalie that we were over I was upset about it but I thought that it was the right thing to do, I thought. I regret it now because even though Charlie Buckton was and will always be the love of my life, Natalie well she was the best I had since Charlie had died and I was happy with that. People look at you in disgust when you walk around with someone else after someone you loved has died but I have never stopped missing Charlie and I don't think I ever will. I may not show it to everyone in the town because that is my personal business and I know truly in my heart that I will always love Charlie.

NATALIE POV

Yesterday was the one of the worst days in history I mean after all Brax and I had gone through he was leaving me NOW, when I needed him the most because I have no one. He was my one person that I could talk to about anything and I think I was just starting to fall for him … HARD. When Brax came over that afternoon I was happy, my heart started to flutter as soon as I realized it was him at the door. But when the words started to slip out of his mouth, the wrong words, words I did not want to hear, I instantly regretted him coming over. I would have preferred to see him in a week if it meant we would still be together. Last night I was awake all night just thinking about Brax and what could have been.

BRAX POV

I was awake all last night thinking how my life had come to this. Thinking about Charlie and Natalie and the mistakes I made and how it meant losing them both.

THE NEXT CHAPTER SHOULD BE UP EITHER IN A COUPLE OF HOURS OR TOMORROW :)