Notes: My second Dawnedy! I hope it's decent. It's going to be a multiple
parter, and I'm actually putting it in the WIP section this time... It'll
probably end up having three to five parts, but I'm still not sure...
If I had thought things were strange around here before, I was extremely mistaken. Things were about to get stranger, and due to just one addition to the already over-full house.
The minute Faith walked in the door, everyone was drawn to her. Not in a sexual way, at least not most of them. But, there was just this essence about her, it screamed for everyone to look, and pay attention. Willow once said I reminded her of Faith. But I didn't have this effect on people. Hell, I wasn't a slayer yet either. And maybe I never will be.
But everything became so different from that day on. The reality that Willow and I were pretty much over finally smacked me in the ass. Had we ever really had anything going for us but lust? I doubt it. She was too busy being torn between her dead girlfriend and Xander's ex-fiancé to have time to fall in love with me. And I'd never really had any time to fall in love with her, either. But it had been nice while it lasted. I just had mutual lust with a really hot girl. And it, in time, was gone. And seeing her chasing after that Anya chick doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would.
And everyone else was all busy. My peers were busy training day and night, getting ready for something we'd never be ready enough for. Xander, Giles, Andrew, and Spike never really crossed my mind, they were guys, and even though they were around all the time, it was easy to ignore them. And Buffy and Faith were too busy trying to dislike each other to notice anyone else. So that only left one person. Dawn.
Buffy's little sister had crossed my mind more than a couple times. She was extremely pretty. Not the kind of girl you'd lust after, but just a beautiful girl you could fall in love with. It was odd, really. I wasn't really the falling in love type, more the lusty random relationships with random hot girls type. I'd only ever been in love once, and that hadn't worked out. And I'd been trying to distance myself from little Dawn, who really turns out, isn't that little anymore. Not that I really knew her when she was younger, but everyone always treats her like the probably used to. When Buffy first became the slayer, and moved to Sunnydale and met her friends, Dawn was still young. But don't they see that she's older now? She isn't a little kid anymore. She's become a woman.
Which would be exactly why I need to distance myself. I can't let myself fall in love again. Love isn't an option for me anymore, I'm satisfied well enough without it. And the last person I need to fall in love with is the oldest slayer's younger sister. Who, in fact, seems very straight. And I really don't need to give Buffy more of a reason to dislike me, although at times, I could care less what she thinks of me.
Then again, what could she say about it anyway? 'Don't be gay with my sister, it's wrong'? Of course, that would be assuming I had any chance and that I'd let myself give in, but honestly... After what I've seen of her and Faith, she'd have no room to talk.
But why do I worry about it? It's not like any of this is ever going to happen. Even if I had a chance, I sure as hell am making sure I'll never be tempted to take it. Too many things could go wrong. With this huge apocalypse coming, the last thing I need to worry about is a serious lover.
Of course, the temptation is always there. I live in the same house as her, for god's sake. It isn't easy to get away. Especially with her many attempts to befriend me and the other slayers in training. Can't she see I just want to be left alone now? Or maybe that's why she's doing it, she's afraid for me or something. I'll be okay, girl, really. I'll be fine if you just let me be.
But, with a knock on the open door of the spare bedroom I've been laying in alone, I look up and see her standing there. And I know things aren't that easy, no matter how much I'd like them to be.
If I had thought things were strange around here before, I was extremely mistaken. Things were about to get stranger, and due to just one addition to the already over-full house.
The minute Faith walked in the door, everyone was drawn to her. Not in a sexual way, at least not most of them. But, there was just this essence about her, it screamed for everyone to look, and pay attention. Willow once said I reminded her of Faith. But I didn't have this effect on people. Hell, I wasn't a slayer yet either. And maybe I never will be.
But everything became so different from that day on. The reality that Willow and I were pretty much over finally smacked me in the ass. Had we ever really had anything going for us but lust? I doubt it. She was too busy being torn between her dead girlfriend and Xander's ex-fiancé to have time to fall in love with me. And I'd never really had any time to fall in love with her, either. But it had been nice while it lasted. I just had mutual lust with a really hot girl. And it, in time, was gone. And seeing her chasing after that Anya chick doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would.
And everyone else was all busy. My peers were busy training day and night, getting ready for something we'd never be ready enough for. Xander, Giles, Andrew, and Spike never really crossed my mind, they were guys, and even though they were around all the time, it was easy to ignore them. And Buffy and Faith were too busy trying to dislike each other to notice anyone else. So that only left one person. Dawn.
Buffy's little sister had crossed my mind more than a couple times. She was extremely pretty. Not the kind of girl you'd lust after, but just a beautiful girl you could fall in love with. It was odd, really. I wasn't really the falling in love type, more the lusty random relationships with random hot girls type. I'd only ever been in love once, and that hadn't worked out. And I'd been trying to distance myself from little Dawn, who really turns out, isn't that little anymore. Not that I really knew her when she was younger, but everyone always treats her like the probably used to. When Buffy first became the slayer, and moved to Sunnydale and met her friends, Dawn was still young. But don't they see that she's older now? She isn't a little kid anymore. She's become a woman.
Which would be exactly why I need to distance myself. I can't let myself fall in love again. Love isn't an option for me anymore, I'm satisfied well enough without it. And the last person I need to fall in love with is the oldest slayer's younger sister. Who, in fact, seems very straight. And I really don't need to give Buffy more of a reason to dislike me, although at times, I could care less what she thinks of me.
Then again, what could she say about it anyway? 'Don't be gay with my sister, it's wrong'? Of course, that would be assuming I had any chance and that I'd let myself give in, but honestly... After what I've seen of her and Faith, she'd have no room to talk.
But why do I worry about it? It's not like any of this is ever going to happen. Even if I had a chance, I sure as hell am making sure I'll never be tempted to take it. Too many things could go wrong. With this huge apocalypse coming, the last thing I need to worry about is a serious lover.
Of course, the temptation is always there. I live in the same house as her, for god's sake. It isn't easy to get away. Especially with her many attempts to befriend me and the other slayers in training. Can't she see I just want to be left alone now? Or maybe that's why she's doing it, she's afraid for me or something. I'll be okay, girl, really. I'll be fine if you just let me be.
But, with a knock on the open door of the spare bedroom I've been laying in alone, I look up and see her standing there. And I know things aren't that easy, no matter how much I'd like them to be.