Preface:
I had never meant to hurt anyone. I had never meant to fall out of Edward, but I couldn't help blaming it on him. I mean if he had never left, I wouldn't have had the chance to get so close to Jake....
And if I hadn't gone to save him I wouldn't have lost Jake. So was it wrong of me to save him from getting hurt, when I knew it would be pointless to leave him in the end, if Jake was with Leah? Or was it okay to string him along and let him think that I still had the same feelings I had always had for him?
There was only two ways I knew that I could effectively break it off with Edward, and have no reminders of Jacob.
One was death, I could make it quick and not drag out my misery. But if it was this option I choose, then would Edward go to the Volturi again? Would Jacob feel guilt like I had when I thought Edward was killing himself over me? How would Alice, my best-friend and the only one who knew what I was going through, take it? Jasper's misery would be a composure of the rest of the Cullens. Rosalie would probably throw a party for getting me out of her hair. Emmett would have no more amusement from the 'little human'. Esme and Carlisle would be losing someone they considered a child. And god how would my parents take it?
The second option was to move. Not move in with my mom, not ask Charlie to move with me. But just simply start over my whole life, and leave everything I knew behind. Of course Charlie would feel abandoned, and Renee would flip. But I would email them all frequently to let them know how I was....except the only one I wanted contact in.
The second option was the one I chose, and decided I would leave Charlie a note and leave before he got home. I would write Jake a note explaining how I felt about him, since I had never told him, and apologise for standing in his was of Leah. Lastly I would ask him to apologize to Edward for me...but leaving Edward would be hard, I had to change my scent.
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Hope you all liked the preface, I have been wanting to do a story like this since I saw New Moon!
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