To Belong.
Disclaimer: I own nothing. *sob*
Have you ever had that feeling of not belonging? The feeling that sticks with you, no matter how much you try to
ignore it. The feeling that haunts and plages you at every oppertune moment and makes your stomach
feel like an uncomfortable pit of butterflys? Staring at the distorted mirror image of myself in the bathroom cabinet,
thats exactly how i felt. I mean, i wouldnt say i was ugly, average was more of how i would sum myself up. Black
ringlets that flowed down my back, saphire blue eyes framed by dark lashes and a rather pale complection was what
stared back at me every morning i woke up, Pretty normal discription of a 16 year old girl right? Wrong. Where i came from
my looks had always been my downfall. La push was a small reservation located near the even smaller town of forks, a
place that i had always thought of as peaceful, boring if i was being brutally honest, but the one thing that i had failed to
menchen? La push wasnt my true home town. I didnt even know where i was orignally from, something that had always
kind of bothered me. Adoption was something that had been a constent occurence in my life, actually i cant rember a
time when social workers and abandoned children hadnt been my life, a sad feat if you ask me. But it all changed when i
turned 14 years old.
Flash
"Come on Chloe, you might like this couple. Their very nice." I scowled at the floor and set my jaw, determined not to
snap at the annoyingly perrsistent social worker who had came into my room ten minutes previous with the high hopes
of finally foisting me off on some happy couple and watching us all drive away into the sunset.
What utter bullshit.
But hey, it was her job. "Chloe-" i exhaled on a sigh and stood up slowly, if i didnt go and meet this god damned couple now i would just have to indure an excruietingly boring lecture about "change" later, something i really didnt want to experiance again after our last little heart to heart. Lisa's face lit up like a kid on christmas morning and i rolled my eyes, pushing past her and heading towards the den where the couple were waiting for me.
Was i nervous?
No.
Did i used to be?
Yes.
But after doing something so many times, it gets old, repetidive and of course boring. Dont get me wrong, some of the
couples that came into meet me were usually really nice, it was just my natural reaction not to like them.
The couple- Sam and Emily- seemed like one of those perfect couples that were madly in love and had every thing they
could ever want or need, and all they desired to complete their picture was a nice, sweet little kid.
And that was exactly why this meeting was going to be very short.
"Sam, Emily, this is the young woman i was telling you about. Chloe Tanner." I hadnt even noticed Lisa come in behind
me until she spoke, and i glared at her briefly as she smoothed out her perfectly taylored suit and fluffed her blonde hair,
before turning to Sam and Emily. They where both very beautiful, Sam must have stood almost 7 feet tall, with broad sholders
and a sculpted chest that stood out under his white button down shirt. His skin was a beautiful russet colour and his short
black hair and chocolate eyes only added to the package. Emily held a unique sort of beauty, the kind that was not plainly
obvious at first, but was there non-the less. Her hair was a soft black colour and whisped down her shoulders to rest at the middle of her back, her skin was that same glowing russet and her eyes the same brown. The ony thing that could be considered to mare her beauty was the thick pale pink scars that had obviously long since healed, they ran from her temple
all the way to her plump lips, pulling one side of her face down in a pemnent frown. Out of curtesy i averted my eyes from
the scarred side of her face, and consentrated on the other, staring at her warm eye that actually glittered with excitment.
I almost felt bad for disapointing her.
"Its a pleasure to finally meet you Chloe, Im Emily and this is-"
"Sam. Yeah, Belive me, i know." I muttered, throwing a glance over my shoulder to where Lisa stood and stifling a giggle as
her face turned tomatoe red.
Emily gave me a knowing smile while Sam just ignored my comment and gave me his own small smile.
"Well then, since were already somewhat introduced, why dont we talk?" he jestured for me to sit on the red plush sofa
that was just oppsist the one he and Emily sat on, and i sighed before obliging and slumping down on it with no grace what-so-ever. Lisa shot me a scathing glare before sitting down on my left and crossing her legs. " So this is basically ust an oppertunity for both you and Chloe to get to know each other..." as Lisa began to recite her usual speech, i tuned out, imagining a life out of foster care, perhaps even a life with Sam and Emily. It was a fruitless fantasy that i knew would proberly
never come true but it didnt stop me from hoping, dreaming.
"Chloe?"
I looked up at the sound of my name and scowled at the stern frown that masked Lisa's face, i hated it when she looked at me
like that, as if i was a piece of gum that she'd stepped on or something. "What?" i snapped, feeling a blush of red anger
colour my cheeks, sensing my anger, Lisa pasted a fake smile on her face and looked back at Sam and Emily, A clear warning
that silently said- you better not mess this up you little brat. "Emily asked you a question." She muttered in a strained tone and i cleared my expression, taking a deep breath, before looking back at Emily.
"Im sorry, what did you say?" Emily seemed to have noticed Lisa and I's little domestic and, i thought, was already harboring
some resentment for the social worker seeing as she had a crush on her husband, and glared at Lisa a little.
"Theres no need to be so harsh miss Telva." she said in a steely stone.
And that right there, was the moment i formed a bond with Emily Uley.
Flash
And the rest, as they say, is history. I fell in love with Sam and Emilys easy banter, the way they didnt seem to mind that
i was a moody, antisocial cow who could verbally bite your head off, and they where just so in sweet and kind that
you couldnt not love them. "Chloe baby, You ready yet?" i jumped off my bed at the sound of Emilys voice, shutting the book i had been reading and grabing my backpack from the floor before heading downstairs. I absolutely adored the house i now
lived in the moment i saw it. It was a small cottage like house and i got a frequent laugh at watching Sam having to duck down
just to get through the door. "Hey kiddo." Sams husky tones echoed from behind me where i stood at the kitchen and i jumped slightly before turning and giving him a bright grin. "Hey Sammy!" i cooed, positivly delighting in the harrased scowl i got from him in response. I did warn him not to call me kiddo. "Ready for school?" he asked, watching with an amused expression as my face fell. "Im not even going to dignify that with an answer." i quipped, grabbing an apple and making my way towards the door. "Are you coming?" i asked, which was a pretty reasonable question taking in mind that Sam was my ride and didnt seem to want to leave the kitchen. His usual friendly face twisted into a grimace and he eyed me wearily, something that was never a good sign. "About that. I cant bring you today."
I scowled, twisting around to look outside the little kitchen window and sure enough, it was raining. "You dont expect me to walk in that, do you?" i asked, gesturing towards the soaked window with a frown. Sams face turned suspiciously innocent and i narrowed my eyes at him. He was deffinatly up to something. "Of course i dont!" he scoffed, turning to smile at Emily as she entered the room. "You're getting a ride with Paul."
The words had only left his mouth and i was already thinking of possible escape routes. Sit in a car with paul for ten minutes? .
A/N: I finally got to post this! :) The idea has been annoying me for a long time now and you're feed back would be really nice.
Can you tell that Chloe doesnt really like Paul? Dont worry, everything will be cleared up in the next chapter. I hope you enjoyed it and please review. :D
Peace, love and Bamon
Courtney xx