I woke up like I would any other morning. I didn't get any sleep last night because Hope was crying all night.

I walk over to the bathroom stumbling because my leg still hurts from last night when Charlie stepped on it.

I hopped in the shower avoiding hitting my arm up against anything.

I scrubbed my soar body. Refusing to look at my scared, un-healing body.

I step out and wrap myself in a towel trying my best not to reopen any sores.

Damn. I did it I looked in the mirror at my horrible face. My eyes had bags from no sleeping and I still had a scar from when Charlie gave me a black eye.

But that's what I get for so called "being the reason" why Renee left us.

Flash Back

"Mommy where are you going?" I said through the tears.

"I have to go away for a little while but I'll be back. I promise." She said while holding my 7month year old sister and tying to hold her tears back.

"But mom can't you take me with you and Hope?" I was sobbing now. I couldn't hold it back anymore I loved my mom and I didn't want her to leave.

"No Hope has to stay here with you sweetie. Please take care of her. Don't let anything happen to you and your sister okay. Here is a cell phone I will call you every month okay. I promise. I will never forget you baby but I will come back for you." She was crying now and so was Hope and I.

She handed me Hope while she handed me the cell phone. She grabbed her suitcase and headed for the front door as I followed her.

She gave us a kiss on our cheeks. "Honey I will text you as soon as I'm off the plane. Kay'. Call me if you ever need anything. I'm going to make an account and put money in it every month so you can get some nice stuff for you and Hope. Kay'. I love you baby and I always will. Good bye."

Flash Back Over.

But that wasn't a good bye it was a horrible one.

She never broke any of her promises. I still have that account and the cell phone. But Charlie doesn't know about it and he never will.

I use the account to buy Hope and me new clothes. My mom puts $300 dollars in it a month. Hope is the only real gift my mother left me and I love her with all my heart.

But Charlie only gives me money to buy groceries and to put Hope in day care.

I miss her so much. I wish she would come back and take me and Hope with her so that Charlie won't beat me anymore and so her, Hope, and I could be happy again.

But that not is happening any time soon.

I heard Hope start crying and I wiped away the tears I never knew were falling.

Now I begin my day of hell.