I own only the idea which is my own original idea. This picks up the day after Edward leaves her, she's just summarizing what happened the day before. So there is no confusion.
Preface:
As much as I wanted to remember him I couldn't, there were so many other things that came first. It all started that afternoon in the woods where it all ended, but luckily for me that's also where it started anew for me. At first I wanted nothing more than to say no to his walk, but I realized I could never say no to him -not that I'd want to unless I had a good enough reason to– only afterwards did I realize how stupid it was. He took me into the woods only to break up with me and desert me. Once he was gone my first impulse was to go after him, but for some reason I ignored my first impulse and instead followed my second instinct and went home. Had I not been staring at the ground I would have missed the small bundle on the doorstep. I thought it was placed there not more than a few minutes, so I took it inside and when I took a closer look I realized it was a baby. Upon even further inspection it was a baby girl.
So over the next few days Charlie and I tried to track down any relatives that could be found. When none were found we did find out that she was only a few days old. It turns out her birthday was a few days before mine, September 8, 2005. I managed to persuade Charlie into letting me keep her, it took a lot of convincing but somehow he agreed. I went out to look for a job after about two weeks of looking I got a job at a restaurant in Port Angeles as a waitress part time. While I was job-hunting Charlie helped me get the formulas clothes diapers and some other necessities that she needed we used my old crib and bassinet. I had to buy the car carrier and baby bag, and a changing table, along with some toys for her to play with. Since I had the baby, and school to worry about I didn't think about Edward to much. We had to rearrange my room a little in order for there to be room for the baby, and her things. The crib went next to my bed we moved my dinosaur of a computer downstairs to make room for the changing table. I was saving my money for things like grocery shopping, and things for the baby, as well as a place for us when I graduated and could move out.
I sometimes hated that I didn't but in a way I was glad, I hate to think of what I would be like if I didn't have Hope. I couldn't come up with a name for her at first, then one day I was thinking about a lot of things and when I looked down at her Hope was the first thing that came to mind so that's what I named her Hope Elizabeth Swan. The first few months were the hardest especially because she was a newborn and needed a lot of attention. So I found a babysitter in one of my neighbor's daughter, but I made sure that the mother was fine with it before I made the deal. She was homeschooled so it was no big problem she was about 12 years old and had the energy of Alice, and reminded me of what Charlie said I was like when I was younger. Her name was Abby Smith, and her hair was strawberry blonde and she had freckles just across the bridge of her nose. Mrs. Smith made sure to watch Hope while Abby did schoolwork, and when Abby wasn't doing schoolwork she took over. When Charlie came home he would watch Hope while I went to work for a few hours. Charlie was skeptical at first but he came around when he saw I was able to keeps my good grades, a steady job, and Hope under some form of control. When she was around four months old I started looking for daycare centers just incase I couldn't find an available babysitter. I was able to find one that was close to the school so I could pick Hope up from school or drop her off on my way to work.
Our emergency babysitter was a middle-age woman whose husband was almost always on the road, so we didn't worry about her husband making a big to-do about it. Mrs. Carter loved having Hope around, I thought it would be a good idea for Mrs. Carter to babysit now and then to let her and Hope get used to each other. Every now and then Billy would come over to watch whatever game was on so I would take Hope out to the backyard to play for awhile I was outside with her as she was too small to play outside by herself right now. It was a rough system, but it worked. I made sure she was dressed for the weather as I didn't want her to get sick, and I succeeded in doing so.
As a heads up Bella maybe a little out of character in a few chapters, but it is essential to the story so bear with me. Please read and review.