My take on how hard it was for ... Well... you'll get it later...
PRESENTING...
Wonderfully Horrible Death
A time of all times.
A tune of all songs.
A treasure beyond all imagination.
This was her.
This was life.
This was all that mattered after her creation
Her love for me
left behind
Sweet sweet song
rotting my own mind
Disappearing
into the night
My very own
Twilight
As I held her in my arms, I wondered about the meaning of life.
How does it fly out of reach so quickly?
A chance.
A love.
A Lifetime and beyond.
Soaring above the sky, giving you freedom.
Why can't she see how important she is to me?
How can she insist on tearing off her angelic wings for me?
Can't she see the monster that I am?
A demon.
A warped and grotesque shadow.
Looming over her.
Feeding off her innocence.
Why does she forgive me in such a way that her life hangs in my hands?
More delicate than a butterfly's wing.
I would rather die than make her suffer an insufferable pain by such the fiery depths of hell.
How could it be so hard.
Why must she be in pain for me?
Such a perfect angel.
In the palm of my hand.
Her radiance.
Her warmth.
Purifying my soul.
But I have no soul.
Thus it must be forgotten.
She cannot suffer any longer.
I will die.
She wakes in my arms, beaming sleepily at me.
I comfort her and rock her back to sleep.
While I sing my deadly lullaby
My love.
My life.
All left behind.
How will I ever survive?
But she deserves better than simply me.
I almost kill her again and again.
Can't she stay away from me?
I crave her need her still the same.
But this hunter's game must end.
She is part of me.
My breath.
My heart that will not beat.
For if I tear away from her
together may never be.
Hope, trust, a simple tune
will all mean nothing in the end.
No love.
No hate.
Just scorn and scars on me.
But I will gladly die for my angel
again
again
again
again
again
She mumbles my name and sighs her sweet breath
sending me bliss and torture
Awakening the monster inside
tearing at my souless heart
in pure pleasure and in pain
oh I shall surely, truly die again.