Title: I Never Wanted to Live without You

Author's Notes:

This is planned to be a oneshot, being a sequel to the first one which is the Because Proposing is Fucking Hard and Complicated but failed and turned out to be longer so I have no choice but to cut it into chapters.

Title's from Maroon 5's song Maps.

Do enjoy reading, I hope.

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Chapter 1:

Ain't nothing I can do

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Getting married was something Levi didn't really expect to happen in his life. But marrying someone who loved him over anything else, even their own life was not something he had foreseen. Most importantly, he didn't think that it would be Hanji.

He was anxious, confused and even scared of asking her to be married to him before, but the moment that Hanji was the one who caught the wedding flower that Nanaba threw during their wedding ceremony and Hanji was first very surprised when she caught the bouquet of flowers as it landed on her hands when she was just there, watching Nanaba and Mike and is about to take a seat with Levi.

At that sudden moment, Levi immediately felt nervous- feeling that they should immediately get married too right after Mike and Nanaba immediately. Part of him says that he is ready when the other tells him that he isn't yet.

Mike and Nanaba's wedding was done during the month of December, since missions will be less compared to other months. In that same month is Levi's birthday. After the wedding of Mike and Nanaba, Hanji was too excited to think about her and Levi's wedding which they decided to have in the following spring of the following year, which will be in a few months to come, almost four to five months at most. That's going to be a very short time to prepare, Levi thought.

Fortunately, Hanji is not much into big ceremonies. Only a handful members of the Recon Corps were invited to their wedding and even simpler compared to Mike and Nanaba's. Their wedding were attended by their families and a lot number of people from the Recon Corps, a bit flowery since the girls wears flower crowns and the entire place has lots of flowers, not just any ordinary garden and the guys were all in formal attire. Theirs were more livelier and loud, more alive compared to Levi and Hanji's which were attended only of the very few of Hanji's remaining family and relatives came to attend which is only about a number ten and none of Levi's and very few from the Recon Corps like both of their squad, Erwin, Mike and Nanaba's squad.

Hanji was able to wear her mother's white long gown, her hair curled and falling down to her exposed shoulders while her body was seen in more of a feminine way, making her look like a total new person to everyone around. Even Levi was surprised by her looks and had him feel even more nervous but at the same time, happy and excited to be her husband once they were already in front of each other, exchanging vows. It may be simple but everyone still had fun and were able to share the happiness of the newlyweds.

But there are no perfect relationships and marriages after all.

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Getting married to each other made them discover, learn and analyze more about their relationship, most especially that they moved into a little house of their own, not that far in the HQ of the Recon Corps so Hanji can still manage to do her researches and experiments in her bigger laboratory there.

They learned how to be more patient towards each other, communicating more often and even more wild sex since they are sure that no one is going to barge in or bother them the least. They were able to expound and explore more on how to have their sex lives even hotter than usual, making them crave for each other's touch, doing it at least once or thrice a month so they'll miss eating each other even for once.

Mike is right. Levi feels beyond happy about getting married to Hanji. Levi goes home being welcomed by Hanji, making dinner for him and greeting him with a warm kiss, asking him always how his day was. He was surprised by this sudden change of hers since she is always a night owl, staying up all night just for her endless studies, researches and experiments but now, she learned how to adjust and cut her time just to be home early make dinner for Levi. She even tries to clean their home before he arrives, even if it's not yet that clean from Levi's view but he still does appreciate it a lot.

In weekdays, they tend to cook together, plant and grow some veggies, plants and flowers in their garden, clean the house, have a nap together and even have a sweet long conversations with a cup of coffee or some chocolate milk, filling each other some news that they were not able to talk or share about to each other during the weekdays.

Hanji adored each hug that will surprise her when Levi seems to sneak around the house, especially when she is cooking or cleaning. He had never such things before, but she does adore it ever since he learned to do such thing for her. He would even arrive with some handpicked flowers for her when he gets home really, really late, just to make her feel less worried.

Levi was a great help towards Hanji's plan makings for the Recon Corps, guiding her and giving her insights, forming better plots and strategies for them all, most especially that Hanji was declared the new Danchou, not even a year after getting married which made her even more busy. Thus, having Levi guide her with their plans for the Corps, she just felt that she was not just a Danchou but also like their mother as Levi has become their father, protecting them all under titan's threats. He didn't worry of any gossips that he is under his wife orders, in fact, he loved it whenever his wife is on top of him what they both loved the most as they discuss the Recon Corps's plans and projects is when they discuss it after having sex, Hanji still on bed half cover by bedsheets as Levi sat on a chair in front of her wearing only an open shirt, holding the papers, reading it and then giving feedbacks to Hanji. It's a new thing for them, a new way to share time with each other. It's like serious and romantic, that's why Hanji cannot help but adore it everytime they do such thing.

He would even comb her hair when she's reading during long hours, which they rarely do because they are always on call when they were still residing in the HQ. They would still get to bath together when they have time and Levi is still a great help when Hanji needs a scrub on her back.

Hanji even learned massaging when she found a book by the bench when she was out for grocery shopping that no one tried to get back and find herself crawling at the back of Levi at night, giving him massages that made his body feel away from any kind of soreness, ending up falling asleep as Hanji will steal a kiss from him before getting to sleep as well. She was also great in giving him some hand or arm and shoulder massages, something that he really loved to have after being on a mission.

The two of them even goes out to the village just to have some grocery shopping and have some time to eat to some eatery there, just to do and try something different. Hanji learned how to improve her stitching abilities as Levi learned how to bake for her so she can eat something whenever she's on her laboratory busy with things.

When rain starts to pour down or even when the weather gets cold, they find the two of themselves lying by each other's arms, sometimes, legs tangled beside their fire place, keeping themselves warm. They may do some of the things all over and over again but they never get tired of it, and loved to do it all the time to each other.

They learned how to trust and depend on each other even better, feeling each other even when they are far and sensing if there's something wrong to one another, most especially when they are on a mission or if one of them is tasked to do something that doesn't require the other's help.

Levi never thought of developing this kind of strong relationship, most especially with Hanji who seemed to have only science as her world. They didn't had any gender role kind of relationship, respecting each other, doing each other's roles in the household alternately as they are bound to love and care for one another.

What made things better is that whenever they see each other's hand, most especially being intertwined, the two of them were reminded and confident enough that they'll be together no matter what and nothing will ever separate them from each other.

Or that's what they thought.

Missions started a month after their wedding, learning to keep it as part of their married lives. It didn't seem to bother them since going out on a mission has been a part of their lives ever since, they just felt even more yearning and concern towards each other whenever they go outside the walls, continuously asking some of the other younger members if Levi is alright, same goes to Hanji.

As they thought that they were living their happy married life, things started to go downhill.

It was their nth mission outside the walls and they were about to back in the district of Trost and the rain was pouring real hard, almost zero visibility and flood in other places that they are passing through seems to have a possibility of happening. Fortunately, only a number of ten of the entire Recon Corps were reported to have been killed. Even if it was a very minimal number which they should be happy about, everyone still cannot get rid of the horrible feeling of losing a member.

This is what made Levi do something risky. He is usually one of the back part of their pillar as they go back, trying to make sure no titans can manage to get within them anymore. The moment that they were able to pass the last forest on their way back home, a wagon where the injured were resting suddenly flipped over in some dip mud hole while the wagon's horses were already released from their ropes that is holding them.

It doesn't look great, most especially that there are a couple of titans making its way to them. Great, just great. He was just planning inside his head as they go back of what dinner he should prepare for Hanji since she made a great meal before they were bound to go to this mission of theirs, and have some great hot sizzilin' shower sex right after dinner.

But now he should focus on how to finish this shit up.

"Shit." Levi muttered, and immediately made his way up to the wagon.

Looking at the titan's figures, he could see that they only have three minutes or less to get everyone out of the wagon and get extra horses so they can move on.

He quickly fired a yellow colored flare, signaling the emergency help that they needed as the Erd who was just near him, fired a red flare, signaling for the titans and alarm the others in front. They wouldn't give a shit about the red flare since they are already nearing the walls and could just outrun the titans but the yellow one caught their attention.

And Hanji saw that yellow flare.

She knows she shouldn't but she is still concerned, but the thought of Levi being there bothered her the most. She knows that Levi could manage anything there, but her heart is telling her something else. She feels nervous, even with her strong will of not thinking anything bad, she just can't stop feeling bad about her members in there, mostly which her husband is in there.

"Hanji Danchou!" Moblit shouted as she stopped and turned her horse back, even if it's not her duty to turn back and let the others do the emergency handling there, she still did, following her hearts beatings.

"I'll be alright Moblit!" But Moblit still followed her, contrasting the direction of the others.

She can swear that her body is trembling and if it's not for the heavy rain, she could pretty well tell that she is sweating ice cold.

"Levi..." she muttered under her breath, convincing herself that her beloved husband is going to be alright.

And at that very moment, Levi was already grabbing the hands of the injured who were now drowning of the mud that they have fallen into. Levi and Erd were surprised enough to see that the hole was to huge, taking in too much water and mud and can't believe that all the injured fell inside of it.

"Heichou, we need to hurry." Erd muttered, breathing heavily.

"Help me have our horses pull the wagon as we lift it so they can go out of the fucking hole" Levi said as he is already trying to bind a rope on the wagon and instructing his horse to pull it forward.

The injured were already making their way out as Levi managed to push the wagon upward out of the pesky deep shit hole as Erd was helping the injured, grabbing them one by one.

Much to their dismay, the titans were already on their way, and just a very very few feets away from them as the injured were feeling panicky since no one seemed to turned their horses back and they're in no condition to run back to the walls alone.

"I'll fuck the titans! Go fire some more flares so they'll fucking realize we need more horses damn it! Run after them Erd and get some fucking help!" Levi then grabbed his 3DMG and prepared to fight the titans coming their way, closing his eyes as he remembered how he lost Isabel and Farlan that unfortunate day, too rainy just like this one.

When Erd tries to calm down the injured and grabbed his horse so he can manage to get back and get some help, he saw Hanji and Moblit ran passed by him.

"Danchou!"

"Erd thank goodness!" Hanji was relieved to see Erd alive, meaning Levi is just as alive as he is, but seeing him not with Levi still made her feel nervous.

"Heichou is trying to kill some titans and told me to go get some help, nobody seemed to have seen our yellow flare because of this very heavy rain and he is with some injured, needing horses since the wagon is no longer accessible." Erd really didn't like the idea of living Levi alone but he has no other options.

"Alright, the last ones were just not that far, tell them you need some horses and go back there with Levi, immediately!" and she ran off. Moblit head turned to Erd, thinking he should give him assistance but thought that he could do it on his own so he dashed with Hanji once again.

"LEVI!" Hanji can't believe of what she is seeing.

A number of injured were trying to slash the titans on their feet, being able to run away from their grips, sliding, thanks to the help of the rain as Levi is being held up by eight meter titan, biting his right leg and the other seven class titan, biting his left arm, tearing his ligaments, shouting in agony, breaking Hanji's heart.

She immediately took off and slashed the titan's napes all in just one shot, something she had never done before, but seeing his husband dying, being eaten alive is not a good sight as Moblit helped the injured deal with the other titans.

"Levi!?" Hanji ran to Levi who feels into the muddy soft ground, eyes blank and staring to her.

Tears were flowing endlessly to her serene face, as she feels so nervous and scared all at the same time. She can't be seeing this. For all the time that she had been the Danchou, she always managed to keep Levi alive no matter what.

Blood was going out of his arm and leg so fast that Hanji torn her green uniform and immediately covered Levi's half arm as Moblit immediately covered Levi's leg.

Hanji was crying on the top her lungs, shouting, screaming in pain. "Levi please don't go okay!? You're going to be alright, okay? You'll be alright." She gave him a very quick kiss on the lips as she tried to touch his forehead, giving him little bit strength and focus and get his shit back together.

Erd was back very quick with five horses in hand and some men in their horses. Together, they managed to reuse the wagon, place Levi inside as Hanji went along and had the horses pull the wagon with the injured inside too, helping Hanji calm the fuck down and shit.

"What had happened?" Hanji asked, sobbing as she holds Levi's right hand, caressing it.

"Our wagon fell in that deep hole and we all nearly died of drowning but Levi Heichou and Erd tried to help us as they attached their horses on the wagon and have it pulled." One of the injureds started.

"When we all managed to get out, Levi Heichou asked Erd to go get some help since the flare seems to be useless and started killing the titans." Added by the other as they witness how their Danchou cries in pain, holding the hand of her lover.

"But I was still inside, and when I shouted for help, Levi Heichou immediately run to me, lifted the wagon" said of an injured rookie, feeling guilty. Hanji's heart even felt broken hearing that her husband tries his best to keep everyone alive and forbid the increase the number of death in the Corps.

But the other injured finished the unfortunate story. "He was too b-busy trying to push-lifting the wagon that he didn't saw a deviant type lunge into him." He no longer had theheart to continue since he is quite sure that Hanji knew what had happened next.

Hanji can't find the strength to crack a joke or something to make the kids calm down too and feel less guilty of what had happened, and made her even terrible because of it.

Hanji's eyes returned to Levi, whose eyes are now closed, breathing deeply but a bit fast, hushing him, saying very soft things on his ears, trying to calm him down, knowing that he is fighting and that he is listening.

"Levi, you'll be alright okay?" but he didn't moved. Hanji grasped and caressed his hand even tighter, feeling that he might leave so soon.

"Don't leave me alright? Please?" and then she burst out into another set of sob, crying, tears falling as her voice cracks, not knowing what other things to do for her husband. She can't imagine living the world without Levi.

But Levi can hear her, everything that she mumbles, and he can even feel her heavy scared breathing. Hearing her in pain made him feel more determined to keep himself alive, just for her. He can't imagine her living the world without him. He's too scared to witness Hanji falling in love all over again into some other asshole better than him if ever he dies. And that made him feel alive. He should be there for her and just stay alive no matter what.

I won't leave you, Shitty Glasses. No matter what.

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see yah on the next chapter.