This Is Who I Am Inside
My name is Esme Cullen.
I was born in 1895, on the outskirts of Columbus, Ohio. I first met Dr. Carlisle Cullen when I was sixteen... he treated me for a broken leg after I had fallen out of a tree and, although he left town soon after that, I never forgot the experience. At the age of twenty-two, I married Mr. Charles Evenson, hoping to please my parents, but I soon found out that my new husband was an abusive man. My parents had always taught me to keep face, so I stayed quiet and was very much relieved when Charles was drafted into World War I.
Charles absence was a blessing, but of course the war ended, and he abused me greatly through the years as I struggled to get away from him. When I finally broke free, I moved north to become a teacher – a dream of mine since I was a child – but soon realized that I had become pregnant with his child. In 1921, I gave birth to my son. He was gorgeous, as I had dreamt, but I lost him only a few days after his birth to a lung infection. At this point, I had believed that I had nothing left to give. It was this feeling that led me to jump off a cliff, attempting my suicide. I was pronounced dead at the age of twenty-six, and brought to the morgue, although my heart was still barely beating.
That's when I heard
his voice. It sounded as though a dozen angels had come together to
create the voice of one man... a voice I recognized. Carlisle taught
me about this world... how it is exceedingly different from the one I
left behind...
I joined Carlisle then, and married him soon after.
Carlisle holds
everything I have in his hands. He is my day, my night, my heart and
my soul. This world without him would be an incredibly dark and
terrifying place. He lights my world and fills it with love and
happiness. I could have never wished for anything greater than what
he gives to me, and yet all he asks is that I love him in return. He
is the reason I accept who I am.
Carlisle, you are my forever.