It Could've Been Me

"Lyra began to explain, quite unaware of how her voice changed, how she sat up straighter, and how her eyes looked different when she told the story of her meeting with Will and the fight for the subtle knife. How could she have known? But Roger noticed, with the sad, voiceless envy of the unchanging dead."

I saw it in her eyes

The love that she felt

Not for me, but for Will

The brightness was there

For all to see

And my ghost form, it loved her still

And even as she thought

Of a way in her mind

For all of the dead to be free

The envy and sadness

Enveloped my head

And I thought, "It could've been me"

She rescued me

From an inescapable prison

She brought me out of my cell

It's rather strange

The girl who brought me life

Was the girl who would kill me as well

If I had survived

As any boy should

We would've grown closer you see

The times that we had

Would stick to her heart

I know that it could've been me

As I escape

The world of the dead

I look back one last time and see

The girl and the boy

Who saved my death

And it hurts, cause it will not be me.